Being single for a long time, I have no mind to secretly love a boy at present. When you meet a man at work, you will talk about work. I met a man in my life, and I will do everything I should, and I have no mind to know him better. Even if I meet a boy who has a crush on me, I can't take the first step to get close to him. I will comfort myself that it was only a temporary surprise and I will forget it after a while. People like me who dare not even try, don't start.
I can support myself by my salary, and my ability to live alone is ok. Life is becoming more and more convenient. Besides work, I can arrange the rest of the time freely, and I like many things. When you are not at work, you can catch up on sleep, read books, do handicrafts, play games, etc., which is very fulfilling mentally. But that doesn't mean I can afford a family. My salary can only support myself, not a family, children and parents. Secondly, I am used to freedom and laziness. Even if you are willing to change after marriage, you are afraid of conflicts with your mother-in-law. I don't like friction with my elders, but I don't want to wronged myself. Therefore, I have been worried about meeting irresponsible people, and the road to finding someone is getting harder and harder.
From childhood, I saw many elders quarreling around me, and I didn't expect much from love. When I grow up and work, I don't think about those things. I think a person is very good, eating and sleeping, occasionally going out for fun, without expectation or sadness, and at the same time I don't want to be taken care of by love. Over time, I feel that if I don't really meet the right person, there is no need to find a boyfriend.
I believe there will be love, and there will be boys in charge, but all these feel far away from me, so I will tell myself that I can't be too pessimistic about my feelings, and there will be love waiting for me.