I am who I am. I am who I am by accumulating time and communicating with people. It's the essence, not the fake. I am who I am now because of my communication with others. With the communication with others and the passage of time, the shape of my heart has gradually changed ... that is Ayanami Rei, which used to be called Ayanami Rei and will continue to develop in the future.
But there's more than one real you. You just don't know. I ran away unconsciously because I didn't want to see it. Because maybe they don't necessarily look like humans. So far, you may disappear. You are afraid that you will disappear, no longer exist, and that you will disappear from everyone's heart. (REI: afraid? I don't understand) the world that belongs to you will disappear. I will disappear! REI: No, I feel very happy, because I want to die. What I want is despair. I want to be "nothing". )
Who is it? Me? Me in EVA? No, I think there is someone else. Who are you? Apostle? This is what we call making Asuka: we don't know the truth.
RITSUKO: Just. . . Your feelings are real.
KOUZOU: These memories are the true self.
RITSUKO: Some facts will change over time.
Shinji: Is it true? The whole ending?
Asuka: This is just a part of many realities.
Is this what you expected?
Shinji: I expected it?
Yes, a broken world that no one can save.
Shinji: No, it's just that no one saved me.
No one saved you.
Ryoji: This is what you expected.
Asuka: Disintegration, death and returning to the existence of nothingness are all what you expect.
This is a fact.
Shinji: What is real?
Your world.
Makoto: You are with time, space and others.
Mao: How to accept and identify with your own world?
Maya: Now you can only accept your own world unilaterally.
You can't change your world.
Shinji: Is this a world where everything is fixed?
No, this is your own world.
KOUZOU: The world is decided by your heart.
REI: The consciousness of survival and the determination to die are all our own wishes.
Shinji: This dark and incomplete world is what I expected?
Ryoji: All you want is a locked world, a lonely and free world.
Makoto: protect your fragile heart;
Mao: protect your happiness;
Maya: This is the result.
But you can't live in a closed world where you are the only one.
Maya: You expect to close your world.
RITSUKO: It's your heart that repels what you don't like and looks forward to a lonely world. That's the little comfort you triggered. This situation is also one of the endings, the ending of the world you have caused yourself.
The behavior of the enemy?
Would you like to be one with me?
No, I am me, I am not you.
Really? But it's too late. You can't refuse. I share my heart with you and my feelings with you. Does it hurt? Is your heart hurting?
REI: Does it hurt? No, loneliness, right?
REI*: Lonely? I don't understand.
You don't like being alone Although there are many of us, it is difficult to be alone. Is that called loneliness?
That's how you feel inside. It is your own heart that is full of sadness.
Shinji: So gentle and warm. This is a person's temperature, which is very comfortable. I've never felt this way before.
What is loneliness?
Shinji: Actually, I didn't know it before, but now I understand it.
What is happiness?
Shinji: I didn't know it before, but I think I found it now.
Are other people gentle with you?
Shinji: Yes.
Why?
Shinji: Because I am Eva's driver, I will drive Eva to protect people in need. So I can stay here, which is also the motivation to support me, so I want to drive EVA.
Why?
Shinji: The enemy, yes, I want to fight against the object called the enemy.
Liesl: Fighting?
Shinji: I must win. Yes, I can't fail. As everyone says, you can't fail to drive EVA. I must win, I must win, I must, I must! (On the phone: Sanhu: Work hard! Asuka: What are you doing? Be serious! Boss & Kensuke: Work hard! Gendou: You should work hard. Miss Miri, Malaysia, Malaysian, Miss Lu Zi, Asuka, Dongzhi, Kensuke and my father all encouraged me. They praised me for driving EVA and told me to drive it. I want to do something to let my father know that I gave up. (Three households: Come on! ) I'm already trying, and I'll try. Everyone is very kind to me. Until now, I have been fighting desperately. Pay attention to me Can you be nicer to me? MISATO: I am gentle with you. )
Miho, Asuka, Li: Hey, Shinji, do you want to stay with me? Mind and body are one. This is a very, very comfortable thing. Okay？ I am waiting for you.
Come on, Shinji, set your heart free.
Mako, don't you want to come back?
Shinji: Actually I don't know. . . Sanhu, Asuka, Li, YUI: What's your wish? )
. . .
Shinji: What's this?
Shinji *: inside EVA.
Shinji: Am I still driving the EVA? Why? Don't you drive Eva anymore? ) I have decided not to drive Eva anymore.
But you are already driving. Sitting on the EVA loudspeaker. True wisdom, because you have driven Eva, you have now; Because you led Eva, you became who you are now. The fact that you drove Eva is that you can't deny your past. But what are you going to do from now on? It's up to you )
RITSUKO: There are often empty parts and lost things in our hearts.
So we should unite people and help each other? And it is so casual to push others around!
RITSUKO: But isn't that what you want?
. . .
Shinji: This is my heart in Miss Miri, Malaysia's heart, Malaysian heart.
You also have my heart in your heart, right?
Shinji: In order to find myself, I have to communicate with more people. I must observe my heart. I must observe Miss Malaysian Miri, Malaysia in my heart. What do you want?
. . .
But I hate my father, so I hate good children, really. I am tired. In order to be a good person and maintain my own perfection, I am tired. I want to get dirty, and I really want to see myself get dirty. RITSUKO: So you let him (KAJI) hug? No, I like him, so let him hug me.
Kavoru: You are desperately trying to avoid first contact. Are you afraid of contact with others? I don't know others, I won't be betrayed by others, I won't hurt each other, but I can't get rid of loneliness. Humans cannot eliminate loneliness forever. People are always lonely. But people can forget the past, so they can live.
Because it is my destiny to continue to live, even if mankind is about to die. But I can die like this. The value of life and death is equal to mine. Choosing death is the only absolute freedom.
Shinji: Because people want me to drive it. This is for everyone. What's wrong with it? Yes, it's not a bad thing. I'm not wrong. If I do, they will praise me and pay attention to me.
Asuka: Nonsense! Are you an idiot? We drive EVA for ourselves. You always comfort yourself like this. . . You always think that you are working hard for others, so that you can live happily. You've been running away. . . Anyway, you are afraid of loneliness. . . Your behavior is simply relying on others, and you just want to maintain an interdependent relationship with others. (Shinji: Maybe) You want what others tell you to do, right? (Shinji: Maybe) You just want what you want. If you want to get happiness, you can't just wait, you can only get false happiness.