"How you have wasted your life in order to achieve your career, and how you have wasted your whole life on a personal level." The original words in "The End of the Day" are like a lump in your throat

"A good title is first half of the success of the article." Putting aside the halo of the Nobel Prize, the names of Kazuo Ishiguro's works really won my heart. The same goes for "The Sun is Ending", which immediately brings to mind the tragedy of "The solitary smoke is straight in the desert, the sun is setting in the long river" and "The solitary city is closed in the long smoke".

In his novel "The End of the Day", Kazuo Ishiguro uses the first-person perspective, giving him a strong sense of substitution, interweaving memories and reality into the narrative, and treating Stevens as a typical British character. The aristocratic butler is meticulous, ruthless, and unconditionally loyal to his master. He is obedient to orders and is written in a profound way. At the same time, you can always feel the restraint and forbearance of Stevens. Subjective, confusing and even unreal memories with fictional memories create a heavy color of magical realism.

During his travels, he chewed his memories so carefully that sometimes they even seemed messy and verbose, and sometimes he deliberately concealed them, unwilling to admit certain facts in his memories. We can vividly feel all the scenes he describes, the gorgeous banquet hall and the leisurely and warm candlelight at night, the tranquil and intoxicating countryside and the beautiful church steeple. But because of his self-deceptive cover-up and contradictions, we have to question the truth of the development of the incident.

In pursuit of professional "greatness", he sacrificed family affection, suppressed or even ignored love, and turned himself into a "dignified" butler who was always on call, even if the mountain collapsed. His choice of words and sentences always reflect seriousness and solemnity, but they also appear to lack warmth. He never thought there was anything wrong with this. He admired the unique British and British temperament - "quiet beauty, noble restraint."

So in his memory, the moment his father died He did not grieve unforgettably, but was happy that he was calm enough to maintain the grand banquet; so in his memory, he never fell in love with Miss Kenton, was never moved for a moment, and was never sad for his cruel miss; so in his memory The employer Lord Darlington is portrayed as such a perfect gentleman, kind and responsible. All of his decisions are right, even if he mistakenly served the Nazis... But these memories are all wrong.

Kazuo Kuroishi cleverly uses the iceberg rule to narrate the story. The writing is plain and has no ups and downs, and the text is deliberately restrained. However, under the iceberg, there are undercurrents, the emotion between father and son, and the love between the hero and heroine. Wait, the more restrained and hidden, the greater the energy density behind it. Finally, when Stevens said: "Really, at that moment, my heart was broken." All the emotions completely exploded...

The sun sets in the west and the long day is coming to an end. Stevens' lifelong ideal pursuit also sank into the sea with the setting sun. He cried bitterly on the beach, but it was too late. Even though he finally faced his emotions and recognized his so-called ideals and ambitions, his life was already irreversible.

Stevens did whatever it took to succeed in his career, abandoning love and family affection, but gained nothing in the end. It should be said that he is a tragic figure. His experiences and encounters also reflect the lives of many people in society. After a busy life, when he looks back on his life at the end of his life, all he sees is emptiness and sadness.

However, in "The End of the Day" Kazuo Kuroishi wants to express not only the lament and regret for the protagonist's personal fate, but also an empire, a noble family, a butler's business, and a person. ? After two world wars, wouldn’t the British Empire, which never sets on the sun, also be in decline? Lord Darlington, a centuries-old nobleman who supported the Nazis and was on the wrong side, died of depression and then declined? The once-prominent British butler profession, the "dignity", "greatness" and "nobility" were not missing in the ridicule and jokes of the new American owner... Suddenly, a wail like "A Hundred Birds Pay Attention to the Phoenix" sounded in my ears, magnificent and sad. But there is no choice but the flowers fall away, and an elegy is sent off.

After reading the novel, in the dead of night, I closed my book and meditated, and seemed to begin to understand the meaning of the famous saying "Existence is nothingness" in Sartre's "Being and Nothingness" that I was reading recently.

Sartre called the determined and unchangeable existence of an object the existence in itself.

This kind of "to-be-formed" and unfixed existence of human beings is called "for-itself" existence, which means that one exists "for oneself".

We can think of it this way, the structure of human existence is like an empty container. Initially, we only have the container itself of "existence", and there is nothingness in the container. Only when something is filled in, can Talent will acquire his own essence. So this essence can change. Just like when something is poured into a cup, we can say it is a glass of water, a glass of wine, a cup of milk or a cup of coffee. The same is true for people. Only when something is poured into it can we obtain its own essence. This is the meaning of the famous saying "To be is nothingness".

So Sartre said, "Man is a kind of futile passion." There is always a passion that drives us to possess and pursue, but the kind of satisfaction we hope to get can never be realized. Existence is nothingness. In other words, man never "is" something, but is always "becoming" something. Just like standing on the stage, you can play any role. Each role is not you, but because of this, your actions are free, because you are not defined by any role.

The starting point of existentialism is nothingness, and the end point is loneliness. The greatest courage as a human being lies in seeing the essence of life clearly but still loving life. People's passion is in vain, and people are destined to be lonely, but so what? Since you can choose, then choose, and then be responsible for the choice. There is nothing else to say. We are all Sisyphus pushing the boulder, but we know that "Sisyphus is happy" because "the struggle to reach the top is enough to enrich the human heart."

I am a person who likes cycling and hiking. Many times I just simply walk to see the world and release my tired soul. Fall in love with cycling because it is a way to freedom. You can feel the speed of the wind while riding. When the wheels are turning rapidly, the sound of the wind is whistling in your ears. Slowly calm down and blow the wind of nature to avoid the hustle and bustle of nature and enjoy the inner peace!

Who can ensure that everyone’s initial choice is correct? Who can be sure that there is no deviation in the goal and direction of his life? Who can guarantee that this world is eternally stable and unchangeable?

It is better to do your best than to trouble yourself.