As we all know, Lu Xun did not love Zhu An; But does Juan love Lu Xun? Who knows? ! Some people will say that this kind of arranged marriage in those days doesn't matter whether it is love or not. Maybe she doesn't even know what love is, just the words of her parents' life matchmaker. But if you don't love her, Zhu An won't pretend to be big feet because of Lu Xun's progress, which shows that she also knew something about Lu Xun before; If she didn't love her, she wouldn't know that Lu Xun didn't love her, and even hated a stranger. But after she had a bad relationship with her brother, she still insisted on separating from her mother-in-law who could still talk, moved out with Lu Xun, and refused Zhou Zuoren's funding after her mother-in-law died.
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Lu Xun and Zhu An
Lu Xun is sitting at the table, and his cigarette is burning. One bottle of spirits has been finished and the second bottle has been opened. dilute
However, Lala's continuous firecrackers are far and near.
The dim light shone on several cake baits on the table. There are some ancient but precious ancient books on the desk. another
On the edge, there are several ancient coins scattered beside the ancient tablet extension.
It was very cold in the room, so Lu Xun moved, picked up the glass and drank it calmly, then poured another glass.
. At this time, a dull toothache came at him again.
New Year's Eve is a time for family reunion in China, but Lu Xun is alone.
Mrs Zhu An is in another room in the same yard.
A few months ago, Lu Xun and his second brother quarreled over housework and were in poor health.
Lu Xun stared at a pile of books on the table, and an imperceptible sneer crossed his mouth. The past was like a nightmare.
1906, Lu Xun, who was studying in Japan, finally set off reluctantly under the repeated urging of his mother.
Return to China. Mother wanted Lu Xun to go home and get married. Lu Xun replied that it was better to let the girl marry someone else. But mom sent a telegram.
Said: Mom's illness will come back soon.
The day after returning home, the wedding will be held. This day is July 26th (March of the 32nd year of Guangxu).
June 6th).
On this day, the helpers among the people were very nervous, because they had long known that the eldest son of the Zhou family was a.
An unruly guy, not taking the road of imperial examination, cutting braids, learning foreign languages and wearing dresses. For such a person, you
Have to watch out, be careful that he broke the etiquette of his ancestors. They took all precautions, but everything was calm.
This made the tribe very disappointed.
The girl got out of the sedan chair and everything was fine. Lu Xun did whatever the MC asked him to do, even Lu Xun's.
Mom also feels very abnormal.
Lu Xun put on a fake braid and new clothes from head to toe. He stood there to greet the bride. Here comes the sedan chair, from
First, a medium-sized foot reached under the curtain of the car and tentatively stepped on the ground. However, due to the automobile,
Gao didn't step on the ground for a while, but he dropped his embroidered shoes. At this time, a real package is very small.
Feet reveal the truth. It turns out that the girl heard that the groom likes big feet, so she wore a pair of big shoes with things stuffed in them.
Bought a lot of cotton to please the groom. But now it's exposed.
After a flurry, the shoes were put on again. The girl finally got off the sedan chair. She is not tall,
People look thin, and a new suit is not suitable. There were shouts of people and emcees all around.
The headgear is removed in the middle. Lu Xun quietly glanced at the bride, who he had never seen before.
The girl's face is yellow and white, her chin is pointed, her thin lips make her mouth look slightly bigger, and her broad forehead looks slightly bald.
The girl comes from an ordinary family. Her maiden name is Zhu and she is also from Shaoxing. Relatives call her "Angu" and Da Lu.
Xun is three years old.
A lively wedding, no one will think of a long marriage disaster between a man and a woman.
Here we go.
On the night of the wedding, Lu Xun stayed up all night. Zhu An said carefully several times, "Go to sleep."
Lu Xun didn't answer a word.
The next night, Lu Xun read a book in his mother's room, and slept in the bed in her room after midnight.
On the third night, Lu Xun was still at his mother's house.
Zhu An a person in the new house doing all kinds of speculation, tears kept flowing, that kind of nameless pain that she can't.
Know what to do.
Lu Xun's pain is undoubtedly despair, which has affected his later thoughts and life, while Zhu An's
The pain is no less than Lu Xun. As a woman, an uneducated woman, she never left during this marriage.
In the most passive position from the beginning.
On the fourth day, Lu Xun, his second brother, Zhou Zuoren, and a few friends set off for Japan for three years.
◎ Alone in Blu-ray and Yellow Roll ◎
The firecrackers outside suddenly sounded again. After drinking another glass of wine, Lu Xun took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it.
Take a few sips slowly. He took out his diary, opened it and calculated the recent income and expenditure on another piece of paper.
He wrote down the money for books in his diary.
Looking at these narrative fragments, Lu Xun thought of Zhu An. "This is a gift from my mother. I have to
Feed it well, love is something I don't understand. "
1909 In August, Lu Xun returned from Japan and taught in a normal school in Hangzhou. In July of the following year, I returned to Shao.
Xing used to be the provost of the Fifth Middle School of Shaoxing Province, Zhejiang Province, then the director of educational affairs, and then the principal of Shaoxing Normal School.
During this time, although Lu Xun was in Shaoxing, he seldom went home. He lives in school. During the day on Sunday, he has
Sometimes I go back, but I mainly go to see my mother. Occasionally, I go home on Saturday night, and I will correct students' homework all night.
Or reading, copying books, sorting out ancient books. Lu Xun deliberately kept his distance from Zhu An.
In the past two years after he came back from Japan, Lu Xun's mood was very low. He wore a "blue shirt" and was untidy.
This image makes him look old, but he is actually only 30 years old.
During this period, he smoked and drank too much, which was close to giving up on himself. He is writing a letter to his lifelong friend Xu Shoutang.
China people say, "My servant (I) is a waste." He also said: "I turned to books and collected several ancient books. This is not a study.
It is also a substitute for women who drink wine. "Very frankly, also very painful.
During this period, Lu Xun compiled a lot of classical novel materials and compiled the later "Ancient Novel Hooking and Sinking". however
The price of this book is too high. Keeping one's own "home" to compile such a book, the pain is twofold, both
Lu Xun's and Zhu An's.
While Lu Xun was seeking a way out in extreme pain,191010 "Xinhai Revolution".
It broke out. In February of the following year, Cai Yuanpei, who had been the education chief of the National Government, invited Lu Xun to work in the Ministry of Education. April
The provisional government of the Republic of China was forced to move to Beiping. At the beginning of May, Lu Xun left Shaoxing for Beiping and began to work in Beiping.
He lived for 14 years, and in the first 7 years of this 14 year, Lu Xun lived alone and spent 3 1 year to 3 years.
Years between the ages of eight. Zhu An spent her thirties and early forties in Shaoxing accompanied by Mrs. Zhou.
Life.
After Lu Xun arrived in Beijing, the economic situation gradually improved and he began to deposit some money in the bank. At this point he has everything.
Ability to bring Zhu An from his hometown, he didn't even think about it.
Lu Xun sat alone in the blue light yellow scroll, indulging in rubbings and books. Life is approaching the fortieth year, and he
Prepare to "die by yourself". Until the diary of a madman and the true story of ah q were published for several years, this kind of
Loneliness and the idea of "death" still haunt him.
Later, according to Xu Guangping's memory, Lu Xun hid a sharp sword under the mattress, which was found by Xu Guangping and taken away. allow
Guangping was afraid that Lu Xun would do something.
By 19 19, Zhu An was over 40 years old and had been married for 13 years. correct
For her, this 13 marriage is a desert.
1919 1 1 0 In October, Lu Xun bought a yard at Badaowan11in Beijing Xizhimen Public Library.
* * * spent 3,500 yuan, part of which was borrowed from friends and part of which was obtained by selling an old house in Shaoxing.
The rest is my own savings over the past few years.
1 1 Badaowan is an old-fashioned three-way courtyard. The outer courtyard is where Lu Xun lives, and there is a concierge to put some books.
Miscellaneous things, the Intermediate People's Court is the place where mother and "the first wife Zhu" live, and the first row of the inner court is the best place to live, especially the second and third brothers.
The family lives separately.
Although the whole family is reunited, Lu Xun's heart is still lonely and painful. Lu Xun didn't want to eat Zhu An's cooking, but
With his mother around, he put out the fire. Lu Xun didn't want to wear the clothes sewn by Zhu An, so he took them from home to the hospital.
Gigi Lai. Go to bed at night, Zhu An laid the bedding and waited for Lu Xun. Lu Xun lost his temper and wanted to move the bed. Finally,
Still separated.
Even so, when Juan was unwell, Lu Xun hired a rickshaw to accompany her to foreigners for medical treatment.
I went to the hospital for treatment and helped her get on and off the bus, which made foreign doctors very moved.
1in the summer of 923, Lu Xun and his second brother Zhou Zuoren turned against each other because of a family dispute, and the brothers suddenly became brothers.
Hatred, the two have no contact since then.
In this case, Lu Xun decided to move. Lu Xun asked Zhu An what he meant: Do you want to go back to your mother's house or move with her?
Home? Zhu An made it clear that he was willing to follow Lu Xun.
On August 2, Lu Xun wrote in his diary: "In the afternoon, he and his wife moved to 6 1 Zhuanta Hutong." This move
This is a loan.
After moving to Zhuanta Hutong, Lu Xun and Zhu An still lived in the same room. Sometimes my mother will come to stay for a few days. At this stage,
Their daily life is arranged by Zhu An. Lu Xun gave Zhu an adequate living allowance as usual.
Send money to Zhu An's family in person.
Although two young sisters named Yu live in the same hospital, Lu Xun and Zhu An still feel worse than before.
Because they lack a middleman, Mrs. Zhou. In order to reduce meetings, they even arranged two.
Box, one wash, one wash. Lu Xun changed his clothes through these two.
Box to solve.
In the past ten months in Zhuanta Hutong, they had the most contact alone, but everything was fine.
Meeting and working hard can't save their marriage, and Lu Xun doesn't want to save anything at all. As the years passed
With the passage of time, there is no need for Lu Xun to lose his temper with Zhu An.
Lu Xun seems to want to enlighten Zhu An, but their spiritual thoughts are so far apart that it is almost impossible to talk. have
Lu Xun once told Zhu An that there was a delicious food, and Zhu An echoed that she had eaten it and it was really delicious. Another name/surname/rudeness in Shandong Province
Xun was unhappy, because Lu Xun said that he had eaten this dish when he was in Japan, and there was no such dish in China. Zhu An
Trying to have fun, but it backfired.
◎ A new life at the age of 45 ◎
Lu Xun drank another glass of wine. Tonight, he seems to be particularly good at drinking. He is thinking about buying a house at the end of the year.
About, I'm going to move there soon after the new year. The night was long and the road was dark, so he dared not think of anything else.
However, a new fate awaits Lu Xun.
1924 On May 25th, they lived in Zhuanta Hutong for about ten months, and Lu Xun and Zhu An moved into Fucheng.
No.21,Xisantiao Hutong in Mennei. This new house is purely Lu Xun's own, and his brothers can't interfere. Move to a new place
Lu Xun and Zhu An still separated. Soon, I took my mother from Zhou Zuoren. He needs her, Zhu An.
I need a mother-in-law too.
He lived in Xisantiao Hutong No.21for about 10 months, 1925. In March, Lu Xun received Xu Guangping.
The first letter started a new life. Lu Xun is 45, Xu Guangping is 27 and Zhu An is 48.
The following year, on August 26th, 1926, Lu Xun and Xu Guangping left Beijing. After many twists and turns, they left on 1927.
65438+1cohabited in Shanghai at the beginning of October.
Zhu An didn't resent Lu Xun, or even Xu Guangping, but his heart was very painful. friendship
Zhu An told Mrs. Zhou that she dreamed that Mr. Da (Lu Xun) was coming with his children, and she said.
I was a little angry in my dream, but Mrs. Zhou didn't agree with Zhu An's anger. Obviously, Zhu An is very lonely emotionally.
Yes, because Mrs. Zhou is still very satisfied with her eldest son and Xu Guangping, and she is looking forward to a good relationship.
Fast children "walk around" in front of themselves.
1June, 936, Lu Xun died in Shanghai. When the news reached Beijing, Juan wanted to go south to take refuge in Lu Xun.
Mrs. Zhou's funeral, eighty years old, was in poor health and nobody took care of her. Xisantiao Hutong 2 1
Before Lu Xun left Beijing, his study was turned into a mourning hall, and Zhu An was Lu Xun's wake.
1943 Lu Xun's mother died of illness, leaving Zhu An alone.
After Lu Xun's death, Zhu An and Mrs. Zhou's life was mainly borne by Xu Guangping, and Zhou Zuoren also gave some on a monthly basis
Money, but after Mrs. Zhou died, Zhu An refused Zhou Zuoren's money because he knew that Mr. Da and Mr. Er couldn't get along
. Although Xu Guangping tried every means to overcome difficulties and send living expenses to Zhu An, social unrest, soaring prices, Zhu An
Life is very hard, and the daily food is mainly millet flour steamed bread, vegetable soup and a small amount of homemade pickles. most of the time
Even this kind of life can't be guaranteed. Desperate, she had to "sell books to pay off debts and make a living."
Life. "
Zhu An publishes newspapers and sells Lu Xun's books. After Xu Guangping learned the news, he entrusted a friend to interview Zhu An:
You can't sell the book, you should take good care of Lu Xun's relics. Zhu An hit the nail on the head and said, You always said that you should preserve Lu Xun.
I am also a relic of Lu Xun, so why not preserve it? When someone told her that Xu Guangping was in Shanghai.
After being imprisoned and tortured, Zhu An's attitude changed. Since then, she has never offered to sell books, but
He also made it clear that he was willing to hand over all the inheritance rights of Lu Xun's relics to Zhou Haiying.
After the news of Zhu An's difficult life spread to the society, progressives from all walks of life donated money in succession, but Zhu An always got a point.
I didn't take the money either. Xu Guangping appreciates this very much.
Zhu An is still a smart person and a woman with a little backbone.
1in the early morning of June 29th, 947, Zhu An passed away alone, with no one around.
Personal.
One day ago, Lin Song (Zi Pei), a student of Lu Xun, visited Zhu An. She can't get up, but she's sober,
With tears streaming down her face, she said, Please tell Xu Guangping that she wants to be buried next to Mr. Da after her death. Besides, give it to her.
Provide some water and rice and read some scriptures. She also said that she missed Mr. Da, Xu Guangping and Yinghai.
On the second day after Zhu An's death, he received three prayers and was buried on the third day. The cemetery is in Fu Bao Temple outside Xizhimen, and there are no tombstones.
She disappeared as if she had never existed. She stayed in Beijing for 28 years and lived in this world for 69 years.
A spring and autumn period.
Zhu An repeatedly said to people before his death: "Mr. Zhou is not bad to me, and there is no quarrel between them."
There has never been such a lonely and painful marriage as Lu Xun and Zhu An. Whose crime? I can't seem to find a sinner, but it hurts.
Bitter and plain.
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