When I was four years old, my mother and Ya also moved to the old house in the corner of the canteen on the outskirts of Xiaocang.

After living apart from my father, mother and son only lived here for one year, and moved away because of the contradiction between adults.

Since then, they have lived in many places, sometimes at grandma's house and sometimes at relatives' house, but occasionally Ya will go back to live with her father for a while.

Grandma always asks Ya who she likes best when she sees Ya, and Ya always says it's her mother.

Grandma once asked this question, but Ya still gave the same answer, but Grandma said pitifully that her parents were actually closer than her biological parents.

Smiles send us light also didn't understand the meaning, just vaguely think this is a bad thing.

However, no matter how many people Grandma asks, Ya won't mention Dad.

He doesn't hate his father, but he doesn't feel his existence. In Yaya's world, even if he doesn't know what his parents are doing, as long as his parents are around, he will feel at ease.

Compared with dad who always comes back once in a while and disappears in a blink of an eye, mom spends more time with Yaya.

Ya also has an infectious disease and has been admitted to an isolation hospital. His mother was isolated with him regardless of the risk of infection. Every time Ya cried when she was a child, her mother comforted her.

In addition to taking care of Ya Ya's life, Mom has to do odd jobs everywhere to meet family expenses.

Although life is tight, as long as Ya has something she definitely likes, her mother is never stingy.

Mother likes cooking very much. Even if only Ya Ya eats alone, she will cook several dishes. Even if she can't finish it, those leftovers won't be served on the table again.

Mother is always extravagant about food and close-fitting clothes, but she is frugal in other aspects.

Because of this, young Ya never felt poor or unhappy.

02

In terms of etiquette, my mother is extremely strict in some places, but completely laissez-faire in others. Until Yaya was forty years old, she could still use chopsticks and write strangely.

Ya once asked her mother why she didn't correct him when she was a child, and her mother didn't care much.

However, when Yaya was in primary school, her mother once took Yaya to a friend's house as a guest. As soon as she got home, her mother and Ya Ya also said that pickles should be eaten after meals.

If you eat pickles from the beginning, it will make the host think that you are not satisfied with other dishes, which is impolite.

Later, when Ya was a guest at someone else's house, she deliberately corrected the way he used chopsticks, and her mother didn't care.

Perhaps in the mother's view, the etiquette of eating is not to be decent, but to pay tribute to the people who cook.

After going to primary school, Ya also became more cheerful, but her academic performance was not satisfactory. My mother never blames you except for occasional joking complaints.

Perhaps the mother's behavior is irresponsible at first glance, but it is the most suitable way of education for her.

She doesn't expect Ya to achieve anything in the future, as long as she lives comfortably and doesn't disturb others.

Therefore, in the senior high school entrance examination, Yaya also wanted to apply for living alone in another school. Although her mother was reluctant, she still respected Yaya's choice.

The test results were announced, and Ya Yuan was admitted to the art high school.

On that day, the doors of the old diesel train slowly closed, and my mother waved as she walked with the moving train. Ya didn't wave, just looked at her mother quietly.

Not long after high school, Ya began to skip classes frequently. Although the alarm clock is set, he will press it when it rings, and it is often noon when he wakes up.

Even after getting up, he doesn't want to go to school, but mostly runs to the game hall to kill time.

Occasionally, Ya still thinks of her mother, but she can't overcome her laziness and is finally washed into her indulgent life.

Nowadays, Ya has lost interest in painting and guitar, and squandered the living expenses earned by her mother's short-term job. Day after day, wasting time.

03

As high school graduation approached, my father asked Yaya about her future plans. Actually, Ya Ya doesn't know what she wants to do.

But whether he continues to go to school or work, the only thing he can be sure of is that he wants to go to Tokyo.

This kind of mood is the same as that in junior high school. He wants to leave Zhu Feng, go farther and see the wider world.

To Ya's surprise, her father agreed. He also asked you to go to college. Even if she doesn't know what to do now, it doesn't matter Four years in college, she can think slowly.

Ya finally got into an art school in Musashino, west of Tokyo.

Just the day before Ya also went to Tokyo, her mother asked Ya again if she would disagree if she divorced her father. This sentence was also asked by her mother after the senior high school entrance examination.

Fifteen years, they just separated, not really divorced.

He once again remembered his grandmother's words, "His parents are actually closer than his biological parents." This is not an illusion of Ya Ya, but he doesn't care anymore.

In his mind, his parents now are his biological parents. Even if there is no blood relationship, his relationship with his mother is closer than that of most mothers and children.

In fact, not only the mother, but also the father is doing his best not to let the failed marriage affect Yaya.

In this relationship, the author did not specify whether the father was at fault. Like most people, there is not so much dog blood in life, but more chicken feathers

My father is eager for freedom and doesn't want to be bound, but my mother is pragmatic, because they can't fully integrate with each other, which leads to the failure of this relationship.

It is extremely rare that during their separation, mother never accused her father of irresponsibility in front of Yaya, and constantly maintained her father's image in Yaya's heart.

Even if relatives and friends know that the father is an idle person and ask the mother maliciously, when the father of the child is engaged in what job, the mother half-jokingly covers up the past.

In the background of the story, it is difficult for others to call a woman a good woman because of the failure of her marriage, but this will not detract from the dignity of her mother's personality.

04

Ya also thinks that as long as she comes to Tokyo, she will be changed, and as long as she escapes from here, the future will be opened, but the reality is increasingly transsexual.

The novelty he has never experienced makes Ya feel obsessed and makes him feel inferior as never before. Ya Ya, who graduated from high school only one month ago, is proficient in skipping classes, smoking and drinking.

Every month, my mother will send me living expenses and a letter encouraging him to refuel on time, but Ya doesn't know what to do. He looks at everything pessimistically, like a cynical and ignorant rebel.

Later, he called his mother less and less and didn't go home after a long vacation. He has made many friends and girlfriends.

After four years of being at a loss, he finally wants to repeat it. At first, Ya also wanted to drop out of school. Encouraged by his mother, he insisted on graduation.

Just entering the society, the road ahead is still confused. Because there is no job, the real estate agent is not willing to rent it to him at all.

I was forced to lie that I worked in a talk show club and made up a phone number, simply thinking that as long as I didn't default on rent, I wouldn't be found out.

As a result, he was in arrears with the rent for three months from the beginning. In order to pay the rent, he borrowed money from financial institutions in the name of his father, and his part-time income could not maintain his expenses in Tokyo at all.

Although his mother occasionally supported him financially, there were still as many as eight cards to borrow usury, and even the usury refused to lend him money in the end.

At first, Julia just wanted to pursue wonderful freedom before coming to Tokyo, but he ignored that absolute freedom meant no freedom.

When Ya also understood this truth, he was overwhelmed by layers of freedom.

Ya also remembered that when her mother first opened a small restaurant, every time she wrote to him, she was full of vigor and confidence and worked in many places to support her.

It was not until she was in her fifties that she waited for her own shop. Although the store closed in the end, her mother didn't give up. Over 60 years old, she still chooses to continue working in a friend's shop.

Influenced by her mother, Julia also decided to focus on the present. Contact with all kinds of jobs, and finally no longer rejected. Although there is still a loan in hand, it will be repaid in part every month.

Some people in this world seem to know what they want to do when they are born, while others need to spend more time and detour to understand the tricks.

05

Maybe she wasted too much time before, but now she has time to write articles and draw illustrations.

Although her income is unstable now, mother and son no longer have to worry about eating and drinking. When the gear of fate finally got stuck in the right direction, everything went in the right direction.

That's when my mother was diagnosed with cancer. The doctor suggested removing the vocal cords to avoid cancer recurrence, but my mother disagreed.

Mother had an operation to remove the thyroid gland, but she stubbornly kept her vocal cords. After she was discharged from the hospital, Menstruation planned to take her mother to live there.

Ya also knows that her mother doesn't like to disturb others in her life, and he doesn't want her to spend her old age alone, so she is asked to come to Tokyo to live with him.

My mother would never agree before, but this time she came to Tokyo alone, regardless of the opposition of menstruation.

That day, Ya also waited on the platform early. Before that, my mother had said goodbye to Yaya countless times on the platform, and today it was finally his turn to meet her.

Her luggage was pitiful, and most of it was disposed of, except the jar for making rice bran pickles, which was brought to Tokyo by her mother's baby.

Ya likes pickles best when she is young, and her mother often gets up in the middle of the night to prepare, so that Ya can eat her favorite food in the morning.

At the age of fifteen, he left his mother and lived alone. 15 years later, they began to live together in a house in Tokyo.

Although they were a little embarrassed at first, it didn't prevent them from enjoying it. Ya also seems to have made up for those things that have been forgotten and regretted one by one.

The position between mother and son seems to be changing quietly, and the moment when mother is an ordinary person often appears.

Once, his mother was like a god in her heart. When he is isolated, his mother is always the first to stand up for him and encourage him.

But now Julia also realizes that even if she is as strong as her mother, she will sigh for her incomplete life.

All parents are not born parents. Just like us, we have experienced the years of ignorance and the ups and downs of life before we finally become parents.

At the end of the story, my mother's cancer recurred. Will she agree to the operation this time? What kind of reversal will the finale usher in? The answer lies in the last chapter of Tokyo Tower, and friends who like it must not miss it.

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Tokyo Tower is a semi-autobiographical novel written by Japanese writer Lily Frank, which was later adapted into a film of the same name by director Joji Matsuoka and was put on the big screen in 2007.

This paper describes in detail the trivial daily life of the protagonist Yaya. The writing technique of straightforward narration makes the story slow, but after reading the whole book, you have the stamina to listen to the thunder in land of silence.

Mom is like a top around ya ya. The warmth of a meal and the companionship of the moon will always turn to the last moment of her life.

When I reread Tokyo Tower, one of the details left the deepest impression on me.

At that time, Ya was still in primary school, and the school organized children without fathers to catch the sea, but Ya didn't want to go. In his mind, he has a father.

Just a father, not living with them.

After getting a positive reply from Yaya, my mother decisively checked No on the consent form.

It is the respect and understanding of the mother that maintains the elegant and sensitive self-esteem of childhood.

Greatly reduced the influence of parents' emotional breakdown on Ya Ya, and virtually established a healthy personality for him.

All along, I don't like the phrase "women are weak and mothers are strong", as if the value of women can only be reflected by becoming mothers.

In my opinion, people who say such things have not jumped out of the trap of their predecessors, nor have they let others jump out. They know neither women nor people.

If there are irresponsible fathers in this world, there will be irresponsible mothers.

When a woman is willing to give all her love to protect her children, it is hard armor that grows from her soft heart.

It is not the so-called motherhood, but her most selfless dedication and greatest choice as a woman.

Such a beautiful emotion should not be the same.