No one is born to get rid of his bad habits at once. First of all, you can't be too pessimistic about yourself. Look on the bright side. For example, when people talk about you, you can regard it as a test for you, a test for you from heaven. Others just say a word, but you give in, and it is a good thing that you pass the test. Then what are you angry about? Although it is a Buddhist scripture, you recite it from time to time, but you don't deeply understand its meaning. When you are angry, you can try to smile. Nothing is impossible as long as you have the heart. If you don't understand, you can always ask me. I am also practicing constantly! You can also practice yoga.