Zeng Guofan
A vassal of the Principality of Ceng Wenzheng, a famous minister of ZTE in the late Qing Dynasty, was a man of the times. He is immortal and has the reputation of "eternal perfection". * * * When I was young, I felt "stupid enough to get close to others and take Ceng Wenzheng away alone". In fact, Zeng Guofan was not a natural saint, but he thought he was "happy" in lust. Therefore, Zeng Guofan's experience of abstinence from color has become an eternal story.
Many historical materials have recorded Zeng Guofan's experiences and stories of abstinence from color. Ceng Gong once said: "If people can aspire to it, why not sages and heroes?" ? Why use people! ""I want benevolence, I am benevolent. " "If I want to be Confucius and Mencius, I will work hard day and night, but Confucius and Mencius are studying. Who can conquer me? If you don't make up your mind, even if you live with Don, you can be self-sufficient and I can be self-sufficient. Why are you with me? " This further shows Zeng Guofan's firm experience in abstinence from color.
"The bed thing hurts."
Zeng Guofan's wife Ouyang Shi is in poor health and often falls ill. Zeng Guofan once attended the reunion of Jinshi, because the home he visited was full of food and concubines, which made Zeng Guofan "eye-opening" and "beaming" and looked around, which was quite unsightly. Diary says: "It's the sun, my eyes are always evil", "My heart is full of shame." When he came home angry, he felt uncomfortable. Plus his wife is ill, so he is "in a bad mood at night and hates to hear the voice of * * *". The contrast between the beauty of beauty during the day and the sound of dying was so great that Zeng Guofan couldn't stand it, so he went out to chat with his friends and "returned early." The next day, his wife became seriously ill, and Zeng Guofan invited Wu Zhuru to see him. Because the whole body is full of selfish desires, Zeng Guofan's neo-Confucianism kung fu is greatly reduced. He felt alienated when he heard others talking about Neo-Confucianism. He is happy to kill time by eating and drinking.
In the twenty-second year of Daoguang, Zeng Guofan's friend Chen Yuan married a new concubine named Taohua. Zeng Guofan's heart was full of jealousy, so he went to see Yan Fang. When he arrived at a friend's house, Zeng Guofan first spoke a little knowledge, and then praised his friend for his money. Not counting, Zeng Guofan wanted to meet Yan Fang, and his friends were so reluctant, but he couldn't stand Zeng Guofan's sophistry and shouted out all his concubines. Zeng Guofan praised his beauty and said some provocative words, which was very embarrassing. After returning home, Zeng Guofan wrote in his diary: "Indecency is disrespect." Later, Zeng Guofan chatted with other friends about flirting, so he fell out with Chen Yuan. He wrote in his diary: "What an animal."
Similar records in Zeng Guofan's early diaries are not limited to the above cases. This shows that Zeng Guofan, who just turned 30, also has secular desires, and he is also a normal person. He is full of love for women. Although this kind of "love" is a physical "love" dominated by sexual consciousness, it truly reflects Zeng Guofan's emotional world from at least one side. The reason why he can achieve great success in the future is that he has changed what he did in the past, "weeding out the roots and vowing to fight bloody battles to the end."
"Want the country not to be beautiful"
Zeng Guofan had "three commandments" in his early years, one of which was abstinence from color. He also thinks that indulging in this is an obstacle to his career. He also believes that in front of outsiders, husband and wife should not be too close. Even so, Zeng Guofan is still hard to do, calling himself an animal.
Zeng Guofan himself admitted that "half the useful years were spent on his wife" and on the second day of March, "Japan and China were disrespectful to the boudoir." Last year, I swore to give up this evil, and now I have committed it again, which is shameful and hateful! Bamboo, long talk. " I have been good friends for a long time, but I feel cheeky. He said he "knew he was weak, but he didn't know how to control it. It's great to be unfilial. "
However, with the growth of age, Zeng Guofan's "disrespect" in this respect has changed a lot, and he has become a solemn, humorous and gentleman. Zeng Guofan is like this. In order to make a difference one day, he strictly limits his lust, even the normal emotional communication between husband and wife is strictly restrained. Zeng Guofan believes that once people's selfish desires and passions expand, it will be difficult to clean up and eventually hinder the great cause. He became an official late, but he was determined not to take concubines, and his life style was also strictly self-disciplined, which was the difference between him and the feudal literati of his time and the highlight of his spiritual character.