2. I have always had a miserable dream, which will be repeated every once in a while in my dark night: Mom, she is not dead, she is just deeply disappointed, and she is completely disappointed in me, or especially in the world. The poor soul had nowhere to complain and rely on, so he left us and went far away and never came back.
In my dream, I cried in despair and blamed her: "I understand your disappointment and your departure, but you have to send a message." Don't you know that we will care about you and how much we miss you? "
But I can't even say such things to her. I don't know where she is except that she is far away. This dream came into my dark night again and again, and I couldn't drive it away. When I woke up, I made a continuation for it in my daytime dream:
Mother, her soul has not dissipated. She looked at me in the dark and blessed me for many years. It was not until my vision met her in the darkness that she was relieved and reincarnated elsewhere, where the soul had something to say.
-Shi Tiesheng's Memories of the Temple