There is such a creepy remark in the book review: "I just hate you, obviously you are my closest friend, obviously you are so kind, obviously you have been helping me realize my ideal." But I just hate you. I hate you for realizing my ideal first, I hate your superior life, and I hate your bright future now. I also hate my cowardice. I hate my lack of luck and talent. I hate that I got cancer before I succeeded. I give you my hatred of myself. I hate all of you. Then, before I die, I will kill you. Let you go to hell with the blame of the world. I will continue to hate you after you die. "