and listen to me on the basis of historical data.

In London, both father and daughter fell in love with Xu Zhimo at the same time

Lin Huiyin's father was Lin Changmin, whose surname was Meng. After the failure of zhang xun restoration in 1917, he joined the Duan Qirui Cabinet as the Minister of Justice, and resigned three months later to visit Japan. In the spring of 192, she took her daughter Lin Huiyin to England as the representative of China League of Nations. Lin Changmin was 44 years old and Lin Huiyin was 16 years old. In October of the same year, Xu Zhimo came to London from the United States and studied at the School of Political Economy of London University.

Xu Zhimo and Lin's father and daughter met at a lecture of the League of Nations. "I spent half a year at the London School of Economics and Political Science. When I was feeling bored and wanted to change my way, I met Mr. Dickinson ... I first met him at the League of Nations Association in London. Mr. Lin Zongmeng gave a speech that day, and he was the chairman. The second time I lived in Mengyu for tea and had him. " This is what Xu Zhimo said in Cambridge as I Know It. Lin Huiyin's "Remembering Zhimo" said that she first met Xu, and it was in the meeting when Xu first met Mr. Dickinson.

Zhimo is mistaken. He met the Lins' father and daughter in London for two months, and soon launched a love offensive against Lin Huiyin. There is Lin Changmin's letter to prove it: "The intensity of the first step is shocking, and the emblem is also scared. I don't know what to answer, and there is no mockery. I think the first step is misunderstood." At the end of the letter, there is a postscript "Hui Hui regards".

One is a young man who has studied abroad for three years, and the other is a young girl in seed of love. It is not difficult to imagine the intensity of Zhimo's affection, and the panic of Huiyin is also reasonable. Fortunately, Lin Changmin is an open-minded person, who not only does not blame but explains.

Soon Zhang Youyi came to London, and through Dickinson's relationship, Xu Zhimo was qualified as a special student at the Royal College of Cambridge University, and moved with his wife to a rural home in Shaston, six miles from Cambridge. During this period, Zhimo and Huiyin kept in touch with each other. Zhang Youyi said to Zhang Bangmei, her granddaughter, in her book Feet and Suits:

"It was several years later that I learned from Guo Jun that Xu Zhimo hurried out every morning because he had to contact his girlfriend who lived in London. They used the grocery store across the street from the barber shop as his address. At that time, mail was delivered quickly between London and Shaston, so Xu Zhimo and his girlfriend could go back and forth with fish and geese at least every day. Their letters were written in English in case I happened to find them, but I never found them. "

For Zhang Youyi, she can be so skeptical, and some of it is true, but it is wrong to say that it is all true, that is, what Zhimo waits for every day is Lin Huiyin's letter.

there must be a letter from Huiyin. In 1927, Lin Huiyin went to school in the United States, and it happened that Hu Shi also went to the United States. On March 15, he wrote to Hu: "I went through his old letters one by one yesterday. I really understand the old Shima now, but I don't need to talk about the past now. I just want to commemorate it forever. " These words not only show that they did communicate in those days, but also show their respective States at that time.

It goes without saying that Chi Mo is eager to pursue it. There may be some excitement here because of Huiyin, but it is true that it is not serious. Otherwise, it won't be a few years before I "really understand."

Another evidence is that after Zhimo's death, there was an "eight treasure chest" in Ling Shuhua's place, also known as the writing karma box, which contained Zhimo's diaries and manuscripts, among which "Cambridge Diary" immediately became the object that Lin Huiyin must get. Her reason is, "I just want to read that diary, which gives me satisfaction, curiosity satisfaction, reminiscing about this strange world and commemorating my old friends." (Letter to Hu Shi on the first day of the first lunar month in 1932) Ling Shuhua returned a few pages from her diary, so she was angry with Ling Kui for quite a while.

There is also a letter from Lin Changmin. They are also in love. On December 24th, 1925, Lin Changmin died in the Battle of Guo Songling. On February 6th, the following year, Zhimo published Lin's "A Love Letter" in his own Morning Post Supplement, and added a note saying: "Obviously it was addressed to his lover, how could it be given to me? My answer is that I am his lover. Listen to me say this escape. Four years ago, when I was in Cambridge, I lived in London. Once, we talked and talked about pretending to write love letters to each other. We imagined a plot. I was a woman, a married woman, and he pretended to be a man and a married man. In this situation where both sides are not free, they talked about each other in vain. "

It can be seen from this that in Shaston, the letters that Zhimo goes to the grocery store every day are more love letters from Lin Changmin.

From Lin Huiyin's letter to Hu Shi, we can also see that she is reserved. Young age is one factor, family background is another factor, and there is another factor that cannot be ignored, that is, she is not a concubine, but a concubine. Lin Changmin has two little wives, and Lin Huiyin is the eldest daughter of the first little wife. Generally speaking, a woman of this background should have more self-respect, otherwise there will be more gossip.

In Beijing, lovers don't want to be disturbed

In October p>1921, Lin Huiyin returned to China with her father. In October 1922, Xu Zhimo returned to China, stayed in the south for a while, and came to Beijing in early December.

Zhimo must have known that Lin Huiyin was betrothed to Liang Sicheng when he hurried back to China. He left London for home, with the intention of coming back, which can be seen from his famous poem "Goodbye at Cambridge". "If my stars are blessed and I wish to be rewarded,/I will come to the spring flower season, and when I return to the West,/I will pick up the poem needle and thread again,/I will embroider the flowers of my ideal life,/I will realize the fascinating trace of my dreams in the past years,/I will spread the fragrance and rhyme festival, and increase the romantic flow on the river."

Could it be said that coming to study in London together was Huiyin's promise to Zhimo?

however, as soon as he arrived in Beijing, he knew that things were not that simple. First, Liang Qichao sent him a long letter (Liang is in Shanghai), advising him that "it is duty-bound not to trade the pain of others for his own happiness. My brother's move is almost at a loss as to whether he will be happy in the future, but he has already given many people infinite pain." Although this is said for the Zhang family, it is not his own personal feelings. After all, it is his son who is going to marry Hui because of his wife.

Liang also lamented: "Alas, there is no perfect universe in the world!"

If Liang Qichao doesn't intend to marry Huiyin as his daughter-in-law, there is no doubt that these words are good words to wake up the world, and anyone who listens to them will be grateful and get lost. However, when this background is added, these words look pale and even pathetic.

Even if he is a teacher, Xu Zhimo won't buy this account. It's not hard to imagine how he will answer. "I will visit my only soul mate in the vast sea of people, and I am lucky to get it, but I can't, and that's all." So let's have a contest.

this letter was received almost on the day he arrived in Beijing. At this time, I haven't seen Lin Huiyin yet. After seeing Lin Huiyin, he won't be so confident. Lin is studying in Peihua Middle School, which is naturally not easy to find. The Lins live in a courtyard called Snow Pool in Jingshan Backstreet. You can go there, but Huiyin is often absent. The relationship between her and Liang Sicheng is quite stable, and they often fall in love together in their spare time.

There is a short story that can quite illustrate Zhimo's persistence and embarrassment.

Liang Qichao is the curator of Songpo Library. Songpo Library has two courtyards, one at No.7 Shi Hu Hutong near Xidan, and the other at the Quick Snow Hall in Beihai Park. Kuaixuetang is a quiet and elegant courtyard, which is not open to the public on Sundays. Liang Sicheng has a special relationship and a key to get in and out freely, so he invited Lin Huiyin to meet here. Xu Zhimo will also find Lin Huiyin here. He is a disciple of Liang Qichao and a friend of Lin Changmin. Even if Liang Sicheng is here, he can't say anything wrong when he comes to Lin Huiyin. The frequent visits naturally aroused Liang Sicheng's antipathy, so Liang put a note on the door with a big book:

Lovers want to be left alone. (Lovers don't want to be disturbed).

when Zhimo saw him, he had to go away disgruntled. (Pearl Buck and Xu Zhimo by Liang Shiqiu)

Even if it's a prank, I'm afraid it wasn't written by Liang Sicheng behind Lin Huiyin's back.

During Tagore's visit to China in April and May, 1924, Xu Lin was given the opportunity to get in touch with each other, to receive and enter the venue together, and to perform an English drama together, which restored her former feelings. On May 2th, Tagore and his party left Beijing for Taiyuan, accompanied by Xu Zhimo. At the station, many people saw me off, including Lin Huiyin. The bus was about to start. Xu Zhimo was writing a letter to Lin Huiyin. Before he finished writing it, the car was crawling. Xu Zhimo rushed over and handed it to Lin Huiyin under the car. Tagore's secretary was kind enough to see that he was too sad and grabbed it to hide it for him. Later, Shima never mentioned this matter again, so he saved it and brought it back to England. It was not until the 197s that Liang Xihua visited and showed Liang the original. The letter said: I really don't know what I'm going to say. I've tried to write a pen several times, but I can't write every time. These two days, my mind was only in a daze. I opened my eyes and closed my eyes, only to see the vague and desolate moonlight the night before last, according to the vehicles we didn't want, and slowly retreated to the wilderness. Parting! How can it be believed? I'm going crazy when I think about it. Who can cut so much silk? My eyes are dark again!

From this letter, we can see that they were together the night before yesterday. It was at this meeting that Lin Huiyin laid out her cards to Zhimo, saying that she was going to study in the United States with Liang Sicheng soon. She could not be his wife, and they had to "leave".

It was only after she arrived in the United States that Lin Hui chewed out Chi Mo's true feelings for her and cherished it all the more. In the letter to Hu Shi on March 15, 1927, she said: "Please tell Zhimo that I have had enough loneliness and disappointment in the past three years, and now I can find comfort and satisfaction in loneliness and disappointment. Tell him that I absolutely don't blame him, but I hope he will forgive me for my past.

Lin Huiyin returned to China in August p>1928 and was employed as a professor at Northeastern University with Liang Sicheng. At the beginning of 1931, Xu Zhimo heard that Lin was seriously ill and made a special trip to Shenyang to visit. After the school started in the spring of this year, Zhimo came to Beiping as a professor at Peking University, and Lin Hui returned to Beijing for recuperation because of his serious illness. The two men had more contacts, and Zhimo and Xiaoman had a bad relationship, and they often walked around, which had a tendency to rekindle their old feelings. On this relationship, Liang Congjie, the son of Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng, said:

I have always thought for Xu that it was a good thing for him to die in a plane crash in 1931, and it would be a tragedy for him if he lived for a few more years, and Lu Xiaoman would certainly not survive. If divorced from Lu, Xu will definitely return to Lin emotionally, and it will be difficult for everyone to get confused in the future.

Lin also felt sorry for him and couldn't bear to hurt him. Xu was deeply involved. Therefore, I have always felt that the sudden end of Xu's life is also an arrangement of heaven.

it's really inappropriate for a younger generation to say such things. For the sake of one's own family, it is a good thing to say that others are burned to death, unlike what a cultured person says. This is what Mr. Liang Congjie said when he answered the reporter of Wenyi Bao after April Day on Earth was broadcast. It was published in the fourth edition of the newspaper on May 6 this year. Without reading these words, I didn't know that Xu Lin's feelings had developed to such a dangerous level in Peiping in 1931.