Of course, although the journey is extremely hard, I don't really feel how hard it is. On the contrary, I will feel comfortable and grateful. From preparing for the exam to finishing the exam, I can make many new friends every time, and I have a lot of feelings and thoughts every time I go to the examination room. My success this time is beyond my ability alone. I have been helped by many outstanding people along the way, and there are many people who should be grateful. Friends and relatives naturally miss each other all the time. Grandma in the community, colleagues in the unit, classmates in the same major, candidates in the same examination room, opponents in the same training class, teachers and students in the training class, and even passers-by who meet by car, even if they are well-intentioned, there are really many noble people to help. These bits and pieces make this long road warm and happy. In modern society, many times we urgently need the feelings of this world, and I have been occupying this impossible thing all the way. I'm not fighting alone. My success is a group of people, known, unknown, new, known before, and many people have been looking forward to it.
Therefore, if the sky is going to fall on the Sri Lankan people, we must first suffer their minds, work hard, starve their bodies and empty their bodies. My friend borrowed books from me for the public exam, and I only took three thick ones. My friend has collapsed, but this is only one tenth of what I have read. A full set of well-known large institutions, a full set of small institutions in the province, video lectures by different famous teachers, and the amount of brushing questions are all in hindsight, and I don't know how to persist. This is just a visible "painstaking". What really tortures people is to take exams in various places again and again and fail again and again. Looking around, it seems that only you are still waiting in the same place, but you still can't see hope after your efforts, and you will feel that no one is more unhappy than yourself.
There are many job announcements, but most of them are not our major. It is difficult to think of one or two majors, so I began to struggle with which position to apply for and which competition is small. It's actually not small. The small here is only relative. Some online newspapers, some live newspapers, generally travel hundreds of miles to register and have to wait in line for half a day to review, get the admission ticket, review and so on. And each remote on-site registration is a few times back and forth. I remember taking the exam in a northern county. I ran a long and bumpy road without saying anything. I went to the queue in the morning and reported it in the afternoon. This is almost normal. There are many applicants, and sometimes there will be conflicts in the exam. I have already taken two exams in one day. I just finished the exam in Jinzhong in the morning and went back to Changzhi to take another exam in the afternoon. My father is also in pain when driving. Sometimes he goes to other places, the road is unfamiliar and there are big trucks on the road. It just rained a little and the road was slippery, so the big truck broke down and got stuck on the uphill road. A block lasted for several hours, hundreds of meters in front and hundreds of meters behind.
Even so, fortunately, it is not so hard to have company. In fact, more often, I am alone and go out with my bag on my back early. On the street, only the sound of sanitation workers sweeping the floor and the sound of black taxis are floating back and forth. I remember it was an exam in Lvliang, and I traveled several times. Because there were few cars and many people, I didn't buy the planned tickets that day. After four or five hours' ride, Lvliang was still snowing lightly, and she was still wearing half-sleeved clothes at home when she went out. The next step is to find the test center. I am a stranger, and I can only rely on navigation and a mouth. Once I took an exam in Wanbailin, Taiyuan, the map looked very close, but I had to go around a big circle to find the entrance. It was past nine o'clock in the evening when I found the test center on foot, and the surrounding area was still in ruins, and the car was not easy to hit, so I walked a long way to find a place to live. If it is normal, it is convenient to book hotels online in advance, but in this scarce place, it is full. I had to find an unhygienic day rental house with rising prices, and the door lock was still broken. I will find that my heel hurts badly, only to find that I have worn out a big blister.
The next morning, I bought a cup of porridge and went to the examination room early in the morning. It was dark outside the examination room, and I babbled in a dialect I didn't understand, and leaflets were distributed everywhere in the training class. It has quarreled with sanitation workers, and the traffic police kept waving flags to direct traffic. When you are alone and unfamiliar with these things, you don't know how to describe that feeling in words. As Zhang Ailing wrote, the young Bai Liusu was "separated from his family in the downpour". She stood alone on the sidewalk, staring at people, and people stared at her, through the rainy window and an invisible glass cover-countless strangers. "Sometimes the external twists and turns are not hardships, but the inner feelings are despair. The exam is also very painful. You will find that sometimes you have prepared a lot and didn't take the exam at all, but you took a lot of things outside the exam outline, which you didn't prepare. At this time, you can only scold the person who gave the question like most candidates. I don't think there's much hope, but anything you take is ok. If I feel hopeful and do the exams carefully, I feel dizzy every time I come back and need acupuncture. Out of the examination room, you have to squeeze through the dark candidates and parents to pack up and check out quickly so as not to miss the bus.
The exam is difficult, and the preparation is also difficult. I remember that I came to Taiyuan alone to find a training institution the day I finished my exams in Lvliang. Although there were still some concerns at that time, I was afraid of being cheated. However, after the exam, I dragged my luggage to Taiyuan, where there are many high-rise buildings, and found a low front desk. I'm ready physically and mentally. Plus, I have already asked before, so I signed up without thinking so much. In fact, the conditions were not good at that time. I live in a space capsule and the sound insulation is not good. The classroom is small and a bit crowded. However, taking such a long vacation is also stressful and requires great courage. With the initial pressure and the worst conditions, I am most afraid that these efforts have not even entered the interview. The fact is that the world is so big, there are so many candidates and so few jobs. Only a few people attended the interview. After all, most of the candidates, like me, have experienced so many candidates that they didn't even get in for the interview.
Passing the written test is not everything, and the interview process is more painful. If you don't get into your face, you want to get into your face. When I entered the face, I began to think about fighting back, or worried about being attacked. When there is no interview notice, I look forward to going out early every day, looking forward to it, looking forward to it, but when I really come out, I start to be nervous again, hoping it will come later. If it's a written test, there won't be so much pressure and trouble. Just review well, but you can't leave it to fate. However, the interview did see the other side of hope, but it was still a few meters away. If you are not careful, all your efforts will be in vain. That kind of disappointed hope is the most tormenting, tossing and turning can't sleep.
Four or five days of training in the interview class has been difficult to persist. From eight o'clock in the morning to nine o'clock in the evening, I don't want to answer questions anymore. It's been a week. I crustily skin of head said some incoherent passive Nuo Nuo dialect in front of some strangers, but some students still didn't make much progress. At that time, she collapsed and wanted to give up. This is not a person's idea. But even the day before the interview, the training class was over, and I was still answering questions with my former classmates in the hotel. Waiting for the interview, the interview process is very short, but the process of waiting for the interview is very painful. If you go to the front, it doesn't matter. If you get to the back, you need to endure sweltering heat, hunger and the tension of going out one by one. When you really enter the examination room to answer questions, it is a good opportunity, but from preparation to leaving the examination room at the end of the interview, the slightest idea of giving up in any link is fatal. After the interview, I was afraid of working overtime, so I had to change clothes in the toilet, but it was too small to matter. After the physical examination, the whole person seems to have been refined into steel. No matter how bitter the medicine, no matter how bitter the needle and no matter how bitter the blood are, I won't feel pain. It's okay, it's okay. These are too small, too small.
"If Heaven wants to become a great man in Sri Lanka, we must first work hard on their thoughts, work hard on their bones and muscles, starve their bodies, empty their bodies and confuse their actions." Without so much experience, it is impossible to succeed. I believe many students work harder than me. How many mistakes have been repeated, and how many pains have not all come. There is no end to suffering. I remember in the finale of "Eternal Dragon Slayer", Zhou Zhiruo once had such a feeling, "When I was young, I met you for the first time by the Hanshui River, and I was rescued by Zhang Zhenren. If I had known it would be so painful in the future, I might as well die in the Hanshui River. In those days, Zhang Zhenren sent me to Emei for my own good. If his old man took me in Wudang Mountain and put me under Wudang Gate, everything would be very different today. " This is a great awakening. If I had known that life would suffer so much, why did I have to live? If we had chosen another road, the situation today would be very different. And Zhang Wuji in the back has a feeling of "you never know, why be sad". "I asked myself more than once, which one is my favorite. I hesitated from beginning to end, but I just ran away and didn't dare to think much. Everything in my life comes from everything, and I often let nature take its course. I don't want to disobey others' wishes, but I'd rather give up myself and follow others. Just like learning Gan Kun's great telepathy, it was invited by Xiao Zhao ... "... Many times, we will ask ourselves more than once, what is this for? Zhang Wuji once confided to Zhao Min, "Later, when I grew up, I understood many things. Instead, I'm getting more and more confused about who killed my parents. It shouldn't be Master Kong Wen or Mr. Qin Tie. It shouldn't be my grandfather or my uncle, or even people like you, Ada and Joel, and those mysterious parents. There are many reasons I can't understand. Even if I kill all these people, what can I do? "Everything I have done in my life is natural, so I don't want to go against others' wishes, but I would rather give up myself and follow others. Just like I have never violated the school rules since I went to school. Another example is being a monitor in a university, entrusted by classmates and guided by teachers. After graduation, it is the general trend and the hope of parents to go home to take an examination of civil servants. What are all kinds of things in this world? There are too many reasons I don't understand.
I think this is the tragic nature of life and human beings.