The film The Life of Abandoned Pine Nuts is adapted from Yamada Zongshu's novel of the same name, directed by Tetsuya Nakashima and starring Miki Nakatani, Eita, Y?suke Iseya and Kagawa Teruyuki. The film tells the story of Matsu's tortuous life, and Mazu's experience fully explains the meaning of the sentence "I was born a man, I'm sorry".
Matsuko Kawasaki was born in a good family environment, received a good education, and successfully became a teacher after graduating from college. But in the end, he was expelled from school and ran away from home because he covered up the fact that students stole. He has been in love many times since then. First of all, he is a down-and-out writer. After they fell in love, the writer asked him to engage in prostitution. In the end, the writer died of many unsatisfactory suicides, leaving the sentence "I was born a man, I am sorry".
In order to make a living, she became a local famous prostitute, but not long after, as she grew older, she lost her job, and then she met her third boyfriend, Onodera. Half a year later, pine nuts found that Onodera kept a woman outside, and was later killed by pine nuts' disorderly stick. On the way to escape, Matsuko fell in love with the fourth man, an ordinary barber, but she was arrested by the police and lived in prison for eight years.
After he was released from prison, the barber was married and had children, and the lonely pine nut opened a barber shop. Soon after, he met his former student Yi and fell in love with him, but he was a rogue. Shortly after Yang Long went to prison, Matsuko decided to wait for the day when he was released from prison, but in the end, Yang Long thought that he had made Matsuko what it is now, so he abandoned it.
Since then, pine nuts have given up on themselves and suffered from mental illness. When she rekindled her hope for life, she was finally killed by several bad teenagers by the river at the age of 53. Even though Matsuko encountered numerous setbacks in her life, she never gave up her hope for life and her pursuit of true love. She longs to be loved. She always lit the fire of life and kept cycling between disappointment and hope, but she could only leave one sentence: "I was born a man, I'm sorry."