The Eternal Shi Tiesheng

The difference between Shi Tiesheng and other writers lies in his thorough and profound thinking about life, and in the bright spiritual guidance he gives us ordinary people. But just such a person passed away on the last day of 2010, forever.

After Shi Tiesheng passed away, people in more than 20 provinces and cities across the country spontaneously held memorial services for him, which was unprecedented in Chinese history. Today, let us also get closer to the eternal Shi Tiesheng.

Details of Tiesheng

Once Shi Tiesheng mentioned his hobby of foreign languages ??and accidentally revealed that he often sent text messages to his wife in foreign languages, whether she was at home or not: this was his love for his wife Miss you, and of course sometimes it’s just for fun. He asked his wife: Where are you? What are you doing? I asked Himi how she responded, and she said, I ignored him. Made us laugh. Shi Tiesheng also laughed, not showing any embarrassment at all. Maybe it would be better for Ximi to ignore him than to answer every question.

Now that the humorous and interesting Tiesheng is gone, Ximi will inevitably feel lonely. From then on, I switched from thinking about Tiesheng to thinking about Ximi.

(Selected from Huang Minlan's "The Luck and Misfortune of Shi Tiesheng")

Among the contemporary Chinese writers, the one I have read and interacted with the most is Shi Tiesheng. This is not only due to the quality and realm presented in his works, but also due to his personality. I heard from Ximi that one year Tiesheng went to Sweden with a delegation of writers and had the opportunity to meet Ma Yueran, a sinologist who was very influential in the selection of the Nobel Prize. Tiesheng originally brought his work with him, but when it came time to meet, he took the book back. I am convinced that this is Tiesheng.

After Tiesheng left, I remembered a saying: There is no history of Tiesheng in the world. There is a difference between the world with iron and the world without iron. His existence is not only about the outside, but also about our hearts. His departure tore away the most fragile corner of our souls, which was originally illuminated and supported by Tie Sheng with his sickly body.

(Selected from Zhong Jingjing's "Past and Light - Remembering Tiesheng")

Good Memories

The Unsinkable Ship

Zhang Haidi

When I went to see Tiesheng that evening, it was Ximi who opened the door. She was still smiling, with crooked eyes and corners of her mouth, as if she had never known any sadness. I talked to Ximi on the phone before, and she said that Nashi had pneumonia and is feeling better now. She was just discharged from the hospital yesterday. I said okay, then I will go see him. "Na Shi" is Ximi's nickname for Tiesheng. Today, it is not easy to see such a cheerful smile on the faces of some healthy people, but she always smiles innocently and happily like a child. But her burden is difficult for outsiders to experience. She is a literary editor and translator, which is a strenuous job. There is also a patient at home called "Na Shi", who needs kidney dialysis several times a week. Some people may frown under such heavy pressure, but Ximi remains optimistic and open-minded because she has her own world. Having read the books she translated and edited, I know she possesses a philosophical power. Her soul is as peaceful and beautiful as "that history". It is a place that many people cannot see, where there are green grass and clear water. Beyond all the dust of the world, it is a vast and vast world...

I talked and laughed with Ximi, walked through the hall, and came to the bedroom. I saw "Na Shi", he was still generous Smiling, just like when I first met him more than ten years ago. He was sitting there leaning against the quilt. He shook my hand. The hand was a little warm and soft. I asked him to lie down, but he refused and insisted on sitting and talking. There is no need to be reserved at all when chatting with Tiesheng, his words are as simple and cordial as his appearance. He said, you know the media recently said that I am critically ill, I am not recovering anymore. I smiled and said, I know you will be fine. A female writer once told me that this is called a sinking ship that cannot be broken, and a broken ship that cannot be sunk. People who often get sick can actually resist it! Tiesheng said, Heidi, you should call for euthanasia again. I said, Oh my gosh, not now, because the issues involved are too complicated!

At this time I saw a frame on the wall. The black and white photo showed a little boy and a little girl, both seven or eight years old. One of them was sitting and the other was standing, holding hands with innocent and childish expressions. Guess who they are? Tiesheng asked me. I said I saw it! This is exactly them - Tiesheng and Ximi from their childhood! PHOTOSHOP connects them forever, their hands and hearts.

Tiesheng smiled happily, but I suddenly felt a little sad. I really hope that he is healthy and lives a long life with the person he loves. I remembered that when I came to see Tiesheng last year, he gave me a poetry magazine, which contained ten poems he wrote, one of which was called "Ximi, Ximi". He wrote: Ximi, Ximi, seeing you is like seeing my hometown, all the expressions are familiar to me. Only when you come to the night can you understand the expectations, and only when you come to the day can you see through the barriers... This black and white photo solidifies the most sincere emotions in life at the moment, making all material things fade away in front of it.

Tiesheng endured the unbearable pain of many men, but he was like a deep blue lake, rippling gently without a single ripple. Because he was far away from the hustle and bustle, he was indifferent and quiet, and because he understood life, he was Live calmly. We chatted for a long time in that simple and warm little house. Before leaving, I made a promise to him. Maybe no one knew what it was, but Tiesheng smiled. What I said to Ximi was to let "Na Shi" have a good rest!

In the new year, the green spring, the ice and snow are about to melt, and the unsinkable ship is about to set sail again...

(Selected from the 18th issue of "Readers" in 2010)

Words of Enlightenment

While life gives us hope and happiness, it may also be accompanied by disease and pain. How should we respond to these sufferings that we cannot resist and escape? Should we be passive and accept our fate, pessimistic and lost, or should we be optimistic and calm, and face it calmly? The life attitudes of Shi Tiesheng and Ximi give us a good revelation: Suffering may break our body, but it cannot break our spirit. If we face the misfortunes in life optimistically and live calmly, there will be no obstacles in life that we cannot overcome, and we will become an unsinkable ship!

Celebrity Blog

Giving Chinese New Year’s big steamed buns to Shi Tiesheng

Ni Ping

Every busy year, I give my grandma’s big iron pot to my good friends. A large steamed bun made of steamed new wheat flour weighs three and a half kilograms. Now that grandma is gone, my aunt continues to steam and I continue to deliver. It has been delivered in the past two days, and friends who have eaten it say it is chewy and fragrant, and they will order more next year! Somehow, looking at the big steamed buns, I felt sad that Shi Tiesheng had never been able to take a bite.

The passing of a person you have never met makes you as sad as the passing of your own brother. This is a true feeling that cannot be concealed. Just because of his works, just because he has been in a wheelchair for thirty years, it is so heartbreaking and so uneasy.

I asked Xiaoqian, why didn’t we know about his memorial service? Why didn’t we know he was celebrating his 60th birthday? Otherwise, I have to squeeze in and give him some "grandma's steamed buns". This has been my grandma's and my wish for many years.

For almost 20 years, my grandma and I have been readers and listeners of Shi Tiesheng. We love Shi Tiesheng’s words so much, his thorough laughter, and the great joy after great suffering. Every Spring Festival, when steaming Chinese New Year steamed buns, my grandma would say: "You can send a few to Shi Tiesheng. If you don't have time to cook, you can eat glutinous rice dumplings for lunch." Oh my God, grandma thought that Beijing was their Shuimenmen Village, and anyone she knew could get it. Knock on the door with two steamed buns! Every year I tell my grandma: "Let's do it next year." This next year will be 20 years, and Shi Tiesheng didn't eat grandma's steamed buns...

People don't know about me and grandma at all, let alone him. How distressed and concerned about him these two loyal fans were. The way we support him is to buy all his books, all editions, reprints and reprints. If the circulation of a book is increased, his royalties will be increased by one point. It is a very naive idea, but this is the greatest expression of love from my grandma and I, because other than that, we can't help with anything, and we really want to help!

I found out very late that there was Ximi behind Shi Tiesheng. My grandma said that this little daughter-in-law was a god. Grandma was right, God had blessed Shi Tiesheng until today, and because of Ximi, he must be happy. When I thought of this, my grandma and I felt a lot relieved.

The tangled things must be resolved, so last night, I chose a big and cheerful steamed bun, found a crossroad outside the city, and delivered it to Shi Tiesheng in the most original way. I believe him If you can receive it, it must be delicious.

Psychic Enlightenment

Shi Tiesheng, many, many people, like Ni Ping, regard him as a brother they have never met, because he was very unfortunate in his life, but he was so tenacious and open-minded. , giving us healthy people so much spiritual nourishment.

When such a person passes away, how can people not feel regret and sadness? There are many people like Ni Ping who did not know the time of Shi Tiesheng's memorial service in advance and therefore did not attend. However, it can be said that they all remember Shi Tiesheng deep in their hearts. If Shi Tiesheng really had a spirit in heaven, seeing all this, he would feel gratified for the life he had lived.

Tie Sheng’s famous sayings

1. Shi Tiesheng is dead - this news comes day and night, and it will come one day, but I will still be there at that time.

2. Death is something that does not need to be rushed. Death is a festival that will inevitably come.

3． You can complain about why God brings so much suffering to this world, or you can fight to eliminate all kinds of suffering, and enjoy nobility and pride for it.

4. The meaning of life is that you can create the beauty and excitement of this process, gain pride from surrender, extract happiness from suffering, and create meaning from nothingness. God made me paraplegic for life just to allow me to turn from purpose to process, and pursuit will enrich you. When life proves its value in the form of beauty, happiness is enjoyment, and pain is also enjoyment.

5. Once a reporter asked me about my occupation. I said I was sick and did some writing in my spare time. This is not a joke. I have spent about half of my 48 years sick. One disease has not gone away, another disease has come again. People flock to me and they all seem to think that my body is a paradise. Maybe the word "iron life" coincides with it. Some meaning. Still not dead yet.

6. The mother of a lucky person must be a lucky mother and a wise mother. The way she educates you comes from her sincere love for all living things and even all things in the world, so that you will love her. , you will love the world she loves.

Shi Tiesheng in my eyes

Shandong candidates

I don’t know Shi Tiesheng before he was 20 years old. What I know is Shi Tiesheng after he turned 20. I also heard what he said about Shi Tiesheng before he was 20 years old: Shi Tiesheng after he was 20 years old has been with me day and night. Shi Tiesheng became a paraplegic when he was 20 years old.

When he was 20 years old, Shi Tiesheng's legs were paralyzed. 20 years old is the most arrogant age. You are ambitious, dreamy and want to try anything. However, Shi Tiesheng was in a wheelchair this year. How unwilling he was. So, he went to the Temple of Earth not far from home every day. It often takes a whole day to go there. He hid in the woods in a daze. He didn't know where the way out was. He was enveloped in a shadow from which he could not escape.

His mother was afraid of accidents. To put it bluntly, she was afraid that he would not be able to think about things, so she went to see him from time to time. Shouting, shouting loudly, Shi Tiesheng was obviously not far away from his mother, but he just kept silent. He felt bitter in his heart. Is there anything worse than having no way out? Needless to say, supporting my mother in the future and even supporting myself will be difficult. what to do? what to do? Shi Tiesheng asked himself over and over again. Later, he decided to take the path of literature and become a writer, not only to make his mother proud of her son, but also for himself. Perhaps, this is the best way to get out of the shadows.

Just do it. Read and write. He studied in the Temple of Earth during the day and wrote at home at night. I don’t know how many books I have read or how many articles I have written, but finally the novels I wrote were published. Among them, “My Distant Qingping Bay” and “Grandma’s Star” won the National Outstanding Short Story Award in 1982 and 1983 respectively. . What a success! When Shi Tiesheng was illuminated by the light of success, his mother, who had been worried about him all his life, could not wait for this day and passed away to another world early. Thinking of this, even in the light, Shi Tiesheng was in so much pain!

Ordinarily, after becoming a well-known writer and marrying a like-minded wife, the sunshine of happiness will naturally shine on them forever. But in fact it is not. He later developed kidney disease and developed uremia, requiring dialysis to stay alive. Since 1998, Shi Tiesheng has undergone more than 1,000 acupunctures, and his arteries and veins have become earthworm-like. In order to avoid increasing the burden on his kidneys, he cannot drink more water in his daily life. Every time he undergoes dialysis, while toxins are removed, the nutrients in his body are also removed, making him feel extremely tired. Shi Tiesheng's strong willpower impressed his doctors, so much so that some people declared: "After Shi Tiesheng, talking about life is luxurious, talking about death is hypocritical."

Leo Tolstoy Said: "All changes, all charm, and all beauty in life are composed of light and shadow." Although this is the fact, I would rather Shi Tiesheng showed cowardice to the world than have shadows shroud him anymore.

Because——

I am also tired, as a wheelchair that is never far away from him.