When I was a child, my dreams were full of beautiful dreams and wishes. In the process of growing up, I often meet some people or situations that look familiar. Looking back carefully, it seems to be in a dream, so it is often called shangbeizi, and then there are many Buddhist Zen words. This may be the reason why many young people have become monks in recent years. I think it's more about escaping from reality. Otherwise, you can have an epiphany about the world of life at a young age.
In fact, everyone has had the idea of being born, but a few people really understand the true meaning of joining the WTO. I have an aunt, who should be over ninety years old now and has been so confused.
That was in the 1940s. At that time, her grandfather, that is, my great-grandfather, was a famous squire and rich. By her father's grandfather's generation, his family was still very rich at first. There are not only dozens of fertile fields at home, but also dozens of houses and one or two storefronts. Grandfather is the general manager of a French company in Xuzhou. The business scope of that firm is very wide, including fabrics, silks and satins, daily necessities and so on. So many merchants in our town go to him to purchase goods, and it is inevitable that they will owe some credit after a long time. Therefore, at the end of each year, when Grandpa goes home for the New Year, he will pay off some of the payment that can be settled and collect the arrears that can be recovered. There will be settlement at least throughout the year.
1942 On the eve of the Spring Festival, grandpa went home for the New Year with his savings of 20,000 yuan. It happened that this time he was going to buy land at home, and his car broke down halfway. When he got off the bus for inspection, he was hit by a speeding Japanese military vehicle and eventually died because of ineffective rescue. He was forty years old that year, and then all the money was robbed, and many customers who owed money refused to admit it. A month later, his only son, who was only four years old at that time, was kidnapped by bandits for a ransom of 40 thousand yuan. Finally, it was redeemed by the intermediary for 20,000 yuan. In this way, it never rains but it pours. In just a few months, the family collapsed. At that time, my grandfather was four brothers and my grandfather was doing business outside. The second and third are both smokers. His grandfather supported a large family. As soon as he fell, the family fell.
My 15-year-old aunt is studying in our ancestral hall. After these twists and turns in life, the girl who has been full of sunshine has become silent. Finally, one night, she left home after leaving a letter. Many years later, my grandfather said that when he read her letter, there was not a trace of sadness and confusion, but more hope and ideals. On the back of the letter are four majestic little words written with a brush: "Become a monk and run away from home". Then she drew two lines on the word "becoming a monk" with a pen.
Grandpa said: she should have chosen to leave home at the beginning, but where could she go from home in that era of war?
According to the rules of the big family in the old society, girls can't go out easily, let alone run away from home like this, so many people are looking around and find that family law should be implemented. However, after months of searching, there was no trace. In the end, her female classmate (who should be regarded as the best friend at present) was also a girl who ran away from home with her, but she couldn't help but come back in pain. She learned about her aunt, but the whole family didn't ask her where she was. Later, my aunt began to bring information home, but every time the person who brought the information was mysterious, and the family did not dare to ask more. The family only knows that she is still here, which is enough. As for the rumor that she married a city dweller with a national army officer, the family never defended anything, just listened in one ear and threw it away in the other.
1949 1 month, our hometown was liberated. One day, a girl in a military uniform suddenly came to our house. When she saw that it was her grandmother who opened the door for her, she threw herself into her arms and burst into tears. Look carefully, it's my aunt, and the whole family is crying. After seeing her dressed up, I understood everything.
In fact, when she was studying in the ancestral temple, the Chinese teacher was already an underground party.
She just came down from the battlefield of Huaihai Campaign and took part in the battle of crossing the river. Later, I studied at the Military and Political University in Shenyang, participated in the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea, stayed in the Northeast Military Region after the victory of the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea, and later transferred to the Beijing Military Region. She served as a national leader in Beijing 30 1 Hospital and Union Medical College Hospital for a long time until she retired and enjoyed corps-level treatment.
Some people say that life is a dream, others say that life is a play. But what is life? You won't know until you have experienced it, but what is certain is that life is not superficial. If you think that life is just a play or a dream, then your life can only be ordinary and superficial.
Some people like to quote a lot of famous sayings when writing articles, and they like to decorate them. Just like building a house, it is richly decorated inside and outside, but the house is for people to live in after all. I think the most important thing is the function and quality of the house, just like an article, which pays more attention to connotation, so does life.
I have stayed in my hometown before, and I don't feel so much. Now I often miss everything in my hometown when I was away, and I also miss what my grandfather told me when I was a child. Maybe I didn't care too much when he told me, but many years later, he left and I left my hometown, and I really learned a lot. I know it's not a simple homesickness, nor is it a lingering miss. This is a period.