As a powerful individual, we are always full of too many limitations. People are born to break through and surpass these limitations. Everyone has at least one chance in his life to face up to his own weaknesses and shortcomings, fight against them and overcome them, so as to achieve a better self. This is my belief.
But how much do we know about ourselves? Who am I? What kind of person am I? What kind of existence am I as an individual?
most of the time, our knowledge and understanding of ourselves often comes from subjective speculation and evaluation from the outside world, rather than self-cognition in the real sense, that is, on the objective level. The self we have always thought is not the true face of the "ID". We are always used to being confused by conceptual labels. Those are just gimmicks that people brag about each other, which is self-paralysis. In this world, no one can really understand you, including yourself. Only by constantly exploring and excavating ourselves can we truly discover ourselves and know ourselves in essence, which is a very difficult thing.
for a long time before, I always had a lot of entanglements and puzzles, and I always asked myself some profound and unsolvable questions. I don't understand why I came to this world, what is the meaning of self-existence, what I am busy with every day, what I can bring to this world and what I can leave behind after many years … and so on, trying my best to solve these problems. Maybe I prefer to get to the bottom of a problem. Sometimes the more I don't understand and confuse it, the more I want to understand it. Some of these questions may not be answered in my life. However, through thinking about these questions, I have a different understanding and feeling about the existence of my own life, and the answer I once wanted to pursue seems to have become less important.
When everyone was young, he was full of ambition and fought for the horizon. The sword pointed to the darkness and discord in the world, and he consciously could strategize and win the battle thousands of miles away. However, after the reality, this passion became vulnerable, and it was scattered all over the floor. In the end, they all lived into the person they never wanted to be. They ignored everyone and comforted themselves, but they practiced lies as truth. Presumably, Kong Yiji in Lu Xun's eyes is just so!
As soon as we were born, we kept learning and exploring the world outside ourselves. From babbling to learning to say the first sentence, from stumbling to learning to write your own name, from campus life to the day you step into society, from falling in love to getting married, and then having children, we armed ourselves by learning various skills, learned how to deal with people, and learned how to survive. It seems that this journey has never stopped.
as everyone knows, there are two worlds with different latitudes in our life, one is the inner world that is deeply rooted in the soul, and the other is the external world that we feel subjectively at the moment. If we blindly pursue the world of any latitude, it will inevitably cause another world to lose balance and conflict. Our so-called practice is just to find a balance between the two worlds and achieve the spiritual realm of unity, that is, there is only one world, and the whole of this world is a state of existence of the "ID".
The cognition of this world is not to explore the external world, but to go inward. Each of us hides our cognition and secrets about this world. Only by digging ourselves inward and knowing ourselves can we find the key to this world.
if one can't observe one's inner self, then TA must still be in chaos. The heart sutra, a classic book widely spread in Buddhism, begins with the word "viewing freedom". Self-observation means examining one's own inner self or observing one's own existence, so as to achieve self-realization.
so, what is the essence of self?
The essence of self is like a constant center of the circle, while the external world around us is a variable full of unknowns. The uncertainty of this variable will directly affect the running track of the center of the circle. Therefore, we need to find the dot where we are. Only when the inner core is stable will we not lose its original development direction.
twenty to thirty years old is a counter-current stage in which a person's inherent mental model conflicts with the outside world, and the way of thinking will produce confusion and doubt, which is an important stage in the reorganization of a value system and a turning point in life. As the saying goes, standing at the age of 3, all efforts before the age of 3 determine the life index afterwards. Standing here at the age of 3 is not external material possession, but refers to the gradual independence and maturity of one's world outlook and values.
A friend of my age once asked me: We are almost thirty years old. What are we still struggling for?
but I don't think this is a struggle, but a kind of effort and pursuit that is urgently needed for self-transformation. Thirty years old is not the end, but a new beginning. Or truth, or unknown, or self, we are just striving for a kind of harmony between ourselves and the world, and finding an attitude and way of life that is in line with our own mind, instead of being a lifeless soul and becoming a body that works tirelessly and covets material desires. To be a transparent wise man, you can be calm in the face of happiness or sadness in life. The only contradiction now is that I am still too young, my mind is not fully mature, and I always seem a little scared and confused in the face of the unknown, but I am bent on controlling it.
No matter what situation we are in at the moment, we should look at ourselves and life with tolerance. This forgiveness is to understand that the gains and losses in life are just an illusion. What is important is how to find the vitality and willpower to survive.
Everyone's life form is limited, and the constancy of death makes us prisoners of time and space. No matter when our life ends, at least it is a complete individual. Life is a person's pilgrimage, and we can only explore it by ourselves, and there is no other way. The essence of life is meaningless, and we need to give it some value that is consistent with our own interests. This value is to show and measure the significance of the real existence of life, so as to maximize the life value of self-existence.