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English original version of Keben suicide note: To boddah Pronounced Speaking from the Tongue of an Experienced Simple Who Obviously Would rather be an educated, infantile camplainee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 11 courses over the years. Since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as w ell as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins it doesn't affect the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury who seemed to love and relish in the love and adoration from the crowd. Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is I can't fool you. Any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 1 % fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do. God, believe me I do but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of one of thos e narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last three tours I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too ** sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, pisces Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know. I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be. Full of love a nd joy kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely functi on. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern durin g the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore and so remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. peace, love, empathy. Kurt Cobain Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter. Please keep going Courtney For Frances For her life which will be so much happier without me. I Love you. I love you! To Bada: This is the voice of a fool who has experienced many vicissitudes. In fact, he prefers to be a weak and childish complainer. This note should be easy to understand. All the warnings come from' punk rock 11' over the years. Since I first intervened in something that contains independence and should be called moral principles, your United support has proved to be very real. I haven't been excited by listening to music, writing music and reading and writing for many years. I feel a sense of guilt about these things that is beyond words. For example, when we came backstage, the lights went out and people roared wildly, which had far less influence on me than on freddy mercury(“queen lead singer of "Queen", who died of AIDS in 1991. He seems to like and play with the love and praise from the crowd-that's all I admire and envy. In fact, I can't deceive you, and I can't deceive any of you. That's not fair to you or to me. The biggest sin I can think of is deceiving people, pretending and acting like I'm 1% happy. Sometimes it seems that I should have a punch before I go out. I tried my best to like all this, and I did. But even this would not be enough I like the fact that my band and I have infected and entertained many people. I'm too sensitive. I have to clear my anesthesia to regain the enthusiasm I had as a child. During our last three tours, I appreciated all the people I met and the fans of our music more, but I still couldn't overcome my frustration, guilt and sympathy for everyone. There is goodwill in all of us, and I just love people so much! Too much love makes me feel really fucking melancholy, a slightly melancholy, sensitive, ungrateful, Pisces Jesus-like figure! I have a goddess wife, who works hard for her ideals and touches people. I also have a daughter, who reminds me of many of my past. She gives all her love and happy kisses to those she meets, because everyone is so kind and won't do her any harm. This also frightened me so much that I just gaped. I can't stand the idea that Frances will become a self-destructive and desperate rock singer like me. I am happy to have everything, very happy. I am full of gratitude. But since I was 7 years old, I have been full of hatred for human beings in general, just because people seem to get along with each other too easily, and they will sympathize with each other! Just because I feel that I have too much love and sympathy for people. Thank you all from the depths of my burning and disgusting stomach, and thank you for all your letters and concerns in the past years. I am a boy who is too abnormal and depressed! I don't have any passion anymore, so remember, "It's better to be a phoenix nirvana than to fade away!" Peace, love, compassion. Kurt Cobain, france and courtney, I will accompany you to Old courtney. Please keep going. For france's sake, her life will be much happier without me. I love you! Love you! !