The protagonist in the book is actually shaped by Ye Zang based on himself. At the same time, this book also bears a lot of pain of great ambition. Through Ye Zang's monologue, we can get a glimpse of Osamu Dazai's inner world. There is a description in the book: I don't know what it's like to be hungry. This is not to show off that I was born in a rich family, but because I really never felt hungry. This may be a bit strange, but I am the kind of person who can't feel it even if I am hungry.
What Daisuke wants, others will never know. In fact, he is not a hungry man. What really makes him hungry is that he is bound, which comes from people and things around him. In Ye Zang's heart, he was afraid that his father would deal with him in a terrible way. In order to please his father and others, he played the role of an innocent clown. Laughed at by others and violated by domestic servants, he can't feel intimate with anyone, and the relationship between people will only make him feel ridiculous. Whether they are Da Zaizhi or Ye Zang, they all have one biggest similarity-they care about others, but they lose themselves.
Finally, before preparing for his fifth suicide, he wrote a classic sentence: "I was born as a human being, and I am sorry." What made him choose this way to end himself? Maybe it's because Osamu Dazai never paid attention to himself. How to treat Osamu Dazai and the earth's disqualification? I don't think they should exist here, but they can't get rid of it. Just like a person's mood, tired and sleepy. Please be honest with yourself.