I forced my parents to buy a house in the place where I worked, where the house price was expensive and I was heavily in debt.
I broke up with my college roommate and now I'm strangers.
My boyfriend and I are in a different place, and I don't know where to go.
It all started with this boyfriend.
At first, I was very headstrong. In order to let my boyfriend from different places have a place to live when he comes back to see me, I rented a house for a quarter and spent a month's salary.
At first, I was very headstrong. Moving from one room to another, I met too many chilling things, especially my roommate's cynicism about my boyfriend, which made me break up in a rage. I don't want to talk to her now.
At first, I was willful. In order to buy a house, I worried my family. I know my parents are under great pressure, but I still forced them to allow me to sign a house purchase contract. My father couldn't sleep all night. Now I have to bite the bullet and do it. I know how painful and helpless insomnia is.
At first, I was very headstrong. After breaking up with my roommate, I was bent on doing great things, so I tossed and turned, and even applied to my company's friend company for job hopping, and finally ended in failure. The idea of continuing to resign drove my parents to say that I would resign if I didn't buy a house. My parents said that if you want your parents to live for two more years, don't toss about.
I just learned that my boyfriend's family is a single-parent family, but I don't mind. Although my parents won't object, I'm afraid I will always be a knot in their hearts, leaving the words of relatives and friends.
I've been really headstrong recently.
Suddenly I feel why we have no great promise and are really imprisoned by our families. You know that your parents love you so much, and you don't want them to be afraid, so you reduce your troubles, so you are obedient and filial, so you dare not say no to the job your parents find for you, so you know that your parents are dissatisfied with your boyfriend and you won't object, but you don't want to let them down, hide everything in your heart and carry everything down silently.
On the one hand, you don't want to worry and disappoint your parents. On the other hand, you hope your life is not so mediocre and full.
That's not true.
You don't deserve your ambition, and you have failed your sufferings.
I suddenly want to say, is it worth it?
Is it worth buying all your savings into a house that you can't afford at all?
Is it worth quarreling with your best friend for the sake of a little move and the reputation of your boyfriend?
Rent a big house for your boyfriend. Is it worth paying the rent that makes you stressed?
Long-distance love with boyfriend, so hard together, for an uncertain future, is it worthwhile?
These are all my requirements for myself this year.
My boyfriend also told me that I don't care if my child is named after you in the future.
The person who told me this last time, I know that he is a single-parent family, so I don't like his family and didn't make more plans.
Although my boyfriend thought of the last time he said this, I didn't take it to heart. Today, he took the initiative to expose himself, which still surprised me.
My seventh aunt's daughter found a boyfriend from a remarried family, and the National Day passed. My parents think other people's homes are complicated, and my questioning attitude makes me a little worried.
I don't know how much suffering children who grow up in single-parent families have to suffer before they can grow up mentally and have a good prospect, but I have to admit that it is not as unbearable as I thought.
I know in my heart that I love him, my boyfriend, and he exists in all my fantasies. I like to trap him in every sweet word I read.
But I don't know how to talk to my parents. I can't say how much I have done for him, because I know him as well as he does.
Before, he thought he couldn't give me the future, but he was afraid of delaying my present. This is my painstaking comfort. I asked him, if you knew there was no result, would you still choose to confess? I didn't hear his answer. I said, I'm more inclined to confess. No matter whether he is forever or not, every day he loves me will be gentle.
This is willful enough.
He came back to see me on National Day and stayed for two days. His attitude towards me changed greatly and he knew that he loved you on his own initiative.
Although he looks sad every time he talks about money and the future, I really don't want to put too much pressure on him. I want to reach out and hug him. I want to say that as long as two people work together, everything will be fine.
I will worry, too, but not as those who have been poor together know, not to mention how rich and expensive I am. I also want to eat and drink. I know he can't afford to buy a car or house now, but I hope he is a hard worker, with a determination to work hard and perseverance not to let me live a hard life.
I hope I'm right about the wrong person. I hope he doesn't feel inferior and depressed. As long as he works hard, how to comfort his parents is just another problem.
I have a twin sister, and I hope they can keep my sister with me and let me enjoy myself.
But this is just my wishful thinking.
Their love makes me a little overwhelmed. They found me a low-paying but stable job. They obviously felt stressed and gave in to my buying a house. They obviously don't like your boyfriend very much, but they know you do, and they shouldn't flatly object. They paid too much.
But you also know in your heart that you can't let them down and want to do more and more meaningful things to give them a better life.
Struggle to the maximum in a cage where you can't earn or escape.