I saw when I was eight years old, I was standing in the middle of the road, facing a bicycle riding sideways. Next, I was held in my father's arms and sat in the car to the hospital. There is bright red blood on the trouser leg. I wasn't crying, I was just scared. In the hospital, I cried badly in front of the doctor; However, the painful memory has long been blurred. I only remember hearing that I was crying in my hospital bed, but my mother was crying in a chair at a certain distance from the ward.
I remember when I was seventeen or eighteen years old, I was anxious and noisy at home many times, all caused by small details in my life. I was so disobedient that my father was so angry that he couldn't speak for days. I am so moody that I have never considered it from the standpoint of others. Many times, I spoil them, no matter how old I am, no matter whether I am an adult or not, I always feel that I will always be their child.
I once lost it for love. When I was in love with a boy, my mother warned me: don't promise easily, don't put down your posture too soon. But at that time, I couldn't listen to her. Now, I can feel the uneasy eyes behind me. For a time, I foolishly thought that I would lose the whole world, but I didn't think that my family was always by my side. They were just careful not to touch the restricted area.
Now that I'm gone, I find that a person living in a city far away from them will know how to cherish the days when they are around. After living away from the city for 23 years, I have the freedom I want and the vision; Living and working alone, I can eat whatever I want when I am hungry, but I often miss my mother's cooking. When I am bored, I can go shopping as long as I want, but I always think of my father's words, "Go to bed early, get up early and study more."
Busy life makes me lose myself bit by bit, and my inner almost crazy emotions pile up in my throat but I can't find a place to break out. I may be bored to the limit, but today I suddenly calmed down and felt much more peaceful than when I was asleep. I remembered the past, the person who loved me the most, and felt my true self. It turns out that I am just an ordinary person, living in my ordinary world. It is God who has given me so many loving people that I can find the harvest of inner abundance in every role and corner of my life.