Like every time I leave home, my parents are always in front of me, and I seem to be walking in the sight of my mother watching me silently.
In fact, we have never left our parents' sight, from teenagers to teenagers, from youth to middle age. At the moment of waving, before departure and after travel, our parents have been watching us with loving, caring and caring eyes. When we have a sense of life, from our blind love for our parents as children to our deep concern for our parents as adults, we have lost too many opportunities to be considerate of our parents, or it is too late.
Maybe children have all kinds of feelings for their parents, but now, I feel more regret and regret. I want to take my parents to my side and live in my small building, so that they can live a comfortable life in a comfortable environment, but my father's body can't leave the old house for a step; I want my father to enjoy his favorite food, but he eats very little; I want to take time to chat with my father, but he is confused and inarticulate. I regret that I have been busy with my work and children in recent years and have not accompanied my parents well. I don't know how much suffering there is in the world that makes them so miserable. Since my father was diagnosed with Parkinson's syndrome in Xijing Hospital, his health has gone from bad to worse. The doctor said that this disease is very painful, and it has been ten years! My father suffered unimaginable torture, which made things worse. Due to the negligence of his children, his left leg, which was injured on business, was deformed after falling down and breaking again. My daughter can't imagine how much pain my father has suffered, leaving me with eternal guilt and heartache. Father, the backer of the whole family, was once so stubborn and strong that he was not crushed by the hardships of life, but was devastated by disease.
Every time I think of my mother, I always think of Gorky's famous saying: all the glory and pride in the world come from my mother. When my mother walks around with one arm hanging down and her limp left leg, who would believe that she has been cooking and washing clothes with one hand for more than ten years because of her paralyzed body with high blood pressure, especially in recent years, her father's illness has worsened, and sometimes it is difficult to serve him, which has brought more torture and depression to her mother. A mother who should need someone to take care of her needs to serve her father without children, and a nanny can't solve too much. Mother shouldered the greatest hardships brought to her by years with flexible shoulders, swallowed the most tears, and still paid silently with tenacious perseverance and tolerant mind, never asking her children to do anything. So, I understand why people always compare the flowing river to their mother and the land of vast expanse to their mother.
"Mother is bitter and mother is uneasy." After leaving my parents this time, my mother has been saying I'm sorry. On the day of returning home, the toilet at home was full, the sewer was blocked, and no one spent money to work, which has been bothering my weak mother. From childhood, under the protection of parents, I did not participate in housework. That day, I changed my red skirt and returned my high-heeled shoes and stockings to work. My daughter said that I took off my glasses and looked more like a village girl. My mother smiled, and from her loving smile, she showed a lot of pity for me. She kept saying that I was thin. Although my back and legs hurt for several days after that day, my heart has been restless. "But how much love the grass has, I got three rays of spring." What can we give my mother in return? I only gave my mother white hair. My mother not only gave me life and raised me, but also taught me to face the difficulties of life calmly and be a strong self in the face of suffering. I really appreciate Zhou's words: people will always suffer all kinds of hardships in their lives. Everyone should learn to face the hardships of life and the unavoidable reality, and learn to face it calmly. Since suffering is in life, since it cannot be changed, it is better to think about how to solve it.
Parents' concern for their children is a never-ending road. Yesterday, the phone at home was disconnected all day, and I was worried! However, at the moment when the phone was connected at night, my mother asked the first sentence: Does your leg hurt? I really answered the sentence, "My mother is one hundred years old and often reads eighty children." My parents' concern is like a cloud. No matter my daughter goes to the ends of the earth or crosses Qian Shan, it haunts me. Parents' love is the richest and most full in the world, and there is no substitute. With the pace of life, from the love of parents, I realized more life connotation and the true meaning of love, and only then did I have a deeper understanding of the meaning of "father's love is like a mountain, maternal love is like water". In the long years, parents' love permeates our growth process like little by little nutrients, such as the vast sea, which is boundless and endless. In addition to gratitude, my daughter is always worried about her mother, afraid that her father will not eat or take medicine for another two days, and sometimes she will wake up with nightmares, her heart will beat faster and she will not sleep all night. I really want to call her at once, but I'm afraid she'll disturb my parents' sleep.
Sometimes I feel that the heaviness of life comes from the fact that it carries too much suffering. When I am busy, I think of my parents who are suffering from illness and loneliness, and my heart is like a flood of pain. In my spare time, I often burst into tears when I think of my seriously ill father and his tortured daughter who is irreplaceable.
How much perception is needed in life, not only to let us perceive our own happiness, but also the suffering of others and the hardships that parents have experienced and are experiencing. In the face of old and sick parents and difficulties, children have to bear all the responsibilities and pressures, and love will continue.
When the first ray of sunshine in the morning passed through the window, I was glad that my parents were safe last night; When the night falls slowly, I feel a little more uneasy and uneasy. I always miss it on sleepless nights, on the way to walk, and even on the way to ride a bike. Sometimes, because I can't concentrate, the bus stops before I realize it.
I worry about my parents all the time, love my parents deeply, and suffer my parents! My parents who are entangled in dreams!
Text/Xiao Yue Qingfeng