Bai Wei was born in 1894. At that time, women's independence was very difficult, but there was much to be done. With her own efforts and persistence, she created works such as The Suffering of the Revolutionary God and The Tower of Ghosts. Under the influence of Lu Xun, she became an early member of revolutionary literature creation.
There is no doubt that Bai Wei, who has such new ideas and new cognition, is beautiful. Lu Xun called her a "fairy". However, such a beautiful and talented woman has been trapped in love all her life and lived a miserable and unfortunate life.
The tragedy of Bai Wei is that her life always needs to be reversed by herself, which we can witness bit by bit.
Bai Wei's father, Bai Hui, is a new parent. He studied in Japan in his early years and also participated in the League and the Revolution of 1911. Bai Wei, who has such a new father, was forced into the feudal traditional marriage by her father: a child bride.
White? Although she studied a new school education, she still respected the concept that men were superior to women in her bones. As a girl, Bai Wei was disliked by him since she was a child.
At the age of 9, Bai Wei became ill because of water poisoning while painting. Helpless, she can't even go to school, so she has to keep it at home.
At this time, Bai Hui felt unhappy in her heart, and directly found a family for her daughter to be a child bride, and forced her to send it over.
9-year-old Bai Wei became a child bride in other people's homes, and that kind of day can be imagined. If you are not treated as a person, you can't finish your work every day. A slight negligence is a beating.
Bai Wei's mother-in-law is a widow. Widowed for many years, she is old-fashioned and heartless. Sometimes, she will instruct her son to beat Bai Wei, just so that his son can curb his future daughter-in-law.
But more often, it is the mother-in-law who does it herself, beating and pinching, slapping and tearing clothes, which is common. The worst time, because Bai Wei was beaten away, her mother-in-law actually bit her hamstring with her teeth.
But structure.baiwei is also very stubborn, badly injured, naked, and ran out with a rag. Seeing her mother-in-law catching up, she jumped directly into the river.
My mother-in-law searched again, but when she didn't see anyone, she went home swearing. Bai Weigang got up from the water, put on rags and limped home.
Unexpectedly, the father felt that his daughter was normal and insisted on sending her back to her husband's house. Fortunately, the mother insisted that Bai Wei stay and recuperate, and was told by her father to go back after the injury.
This is probably the first turning point in Bai Wei's life that she had no choice but to leave quietly while her father was away, and with the help of her uncle, she entered Hengyang No.3 Women's Normal School.
Reading broadens Bai Wei's horizons. She was determined to get a divorce, so her father had to insist on it for the time being. However, Bai Wei's school was not smooth sailing. She strongly resisted the headmaster's feudal ideas and was soon dismissed.
After that, Bai Wei went against the trend and entered Changsha No.1 Women's Normal School for further study. And because of his bold personality, he was valued by the school and became a student with the qualification to study abroad.
But at this time, my father came to force Bai Wei to return to her husband's family after graduation. She never wants to go back to the den. With the help of her sister and classmates, she first went to Shanghai and then went to Japan by boat.
This is a desperate trip to study abroad. Without the financial support and help of my family, as soon as I set foot on the land of Japan, I began to look for a way out.
This is the second turning point of Bai Wei's life. Instead of being forced by life, she showed perseverance and persistence and started living from the bottom: being a maid.
At this time, Bai Wei learned from her mother-in-law that all kinds of housework methods had been put into practice. I became a child bride at an early age and "paid the tuition" for my independence.
With her knowledge of Japan, she sometimes works at multiple jobs at the same time, working as a maid and waiter in a coffee shop. As long as she can earn money, she is never afraid of suffering. But even so, the huge economic pressure made her feel depressed for a time.
Bai Wei is 30 years old this year and has been in Japan for many years, but her studies have not yet been completed. Because she learned a lot, psychology, history, biology, architecture, and even Buddhism, and finally changed to literature, thinking that this is a powerful weapon that can really resist feudal darkness and oppression.
That is, in this year, Bai Wei, who has been single, met Yang Sao, a man who is six years younger than himself, but is an elite poet.
Out of their love for literature, their feelings have been sublimated. Prior to this, Bai Wei had always had a crush on Ling Biru, a fellow villager in Hunan. This secret love lasted for many years, which made Bai Wei quite painful: because she couldn't get it.
At this moment, Yang Sao appeared. He was lovelorn, too Interestingly, his ex-lover is Ling Biru's sister Ling Qinru. Is it possible to imagine what will happen when these two people meet? So regardless of the age gap, we will be together soon.
If this is the third turning point of Bai Wei's life, it should also be the last reversal of her life. Because she fell in love with Yang Sao, she spent more than 20 years in Kinship, but never got married.
However, Yang Sao is too young to accept structure.baiwei's maternal love. After two years of love, he felt unbearable bondage and began to find ways to escape: returning to China and going to Hangzhou.
1926, Bai Wei also left Japan, where she lived for nine years, and pursued Yang Sao all the way. As soon as Sister Yang heard that Bai Wei was back, she left Hangzhou and went back to her hometown Zhangzhou.
Structure.baiwei can only write to Yang Sao and invite them to reunite. But Yang Sao has gone to Singapore, where she became a teacher, barely making ends meet, just to avoid Cynthia. ..
So structure.baiwei wrote one love letter after another, all of which were thoughts and love for Yang Sao. Sister Yang probably couldn't live in Singapore any longer, so she went back to Shanghai 1927.
Here, Yang Sao met structure.baiwei again. But they can never return to their former love state, because the love between Yang Sao and Ling Qinru has been revived. This made Bai Wei more painful and even directly found Lingqin as a crusade.
"Dear brother, I must love you and associate with you. You must respect my innocence and don't strangle my innocent and lovely soul. "
This is a sentence in Bai Wei's love letter to Yang Sao, from which we can see that Bai Wei is not only bold, but also strong. She said directly: I must love you, Sister Yang, and you can't refuse.
But how is that possible? Love is never a one-sided feeling. How could Bai Wei not know? So she finally became Sister Yang's predecessor and officially broke up on 1938.
However, Cynanchum atratum was soon in an "extinct" state. Two years after the breakup, she went to Chongqing and hid in the South Hot Springs with members of the then Federation of Literary and Art Circles, including Yang Sao. Air strikes are still going on, and nutrition is lacking. Bai Wei couldn't help it soon.
The fever was nonsense and the whole person was in a coma. Yang Sao took out the greatest care at this time and stayed with Bai Wei for 7 days and 7 nights until she got better.
This is the difference between life and death. Structure.baiwei has a new understanding of love, and so does Yang Sao. Then, their love was wrong again: Yang Sao began to work hard to get back together with Cynthia, but Cynthia was immeasurably hurt. After "dying" once, she completely realized that she would never get back together with Yang Sao.
Some people say that Bai Wei refused this love because she didn't want Yang Sao's pity. Probably, she later wrote to Yang Sao: "From then on, the root of hatred you carried in my heart was completely uprooted, and the pain you planted on me was gone ..."
It can be seen that love is sometimes a kind of obsession, and only after experiencing it will you wake up instantly. Structure.baiwei walked out of her obsession with Yang Sao, but this love consumed all her beautiful years.
1987, Bai Wei finished her life and never got married. She worked hard for an equal and free marriage and for women's spiritual liberation and independence, but she was still trapped in love and lonely all her life.