Her life background seems to be a melting pot of her life, where she forged her talent and ruined her innocence.
My father smokes, gambles and keeps concubines. He is a typical dude. My mother, who is studying in Europe, has an independent mind and a free personality. Two completely different values doomed this fate to be empty.
With the divorce of parents, the cold eyes of stepmother, running away from home, and financial difficulties, the fortune of the family plummeted ... Little Zhang Ailing experienced a life of arrogance and extravagance, and also experienced poverty.
She was lively, lovely, naive and brilliant, but her childhood experience made her the loneliest elf in the world.
Especially for love, after witnessing the misfortune of her parents' marriage with her own eyes, she is eager to find a like-minded partner who can take care of her heart and soul in that land of Xiaotian.
Perhaps because of her precocity, she seems to only see men older than herself, such as Hu Lancheng or Yala.
There are two ways to love, but after all, there are pains and regrets that readers can't understand.
The first marriage turned her into dust, but the second marriage made her not keep the only flesh and blood in this life, which eventually led to her lonely death.
In Zhang Ailing's life, she described countless tragic love stories, some naive, some brilliant and some extremely tragic.
The emotional love story made Zhang Ailing famous, but her emotional experience has always been blank.
Genius is genius, a person who has no emotional experience can express his feelings so sincerely, which makes people sincerely sigh.
Until the person who made her crazy, crazy, but painful to the bone marrow appeared, and she performed a legendary love in troubled times. That person was Hu Lancheng.
Hu Lancheng is older than Zhang Ailing 14 years old. He was born in the countryside, but his literature is brilliant. He used to work under Wang Jingwei and had close ties with the Japanese.
Zhang Hehu's story was actually started by Zhang Ailing, a romantic genius.
He visited her from time to time, conquered Zhang Ailing in Seeds of Love with his endless talents, and finally gained a beautiful heart.
The first love story written by Zhang Ailing to Hu Lancheng is: "Because she knows, she is merciful".
The second sentence was written in the photo she sent to Hu Lancheng: "Seeing him, she became very low, as low as the dust, but she was happy in her heart and blossomed out of the dust."
This is Zhang Ailing's emotional confession to Hu Lancheng, and it is also the most poignant and warm love words that women give men in this world.
He accompanied her to chat, go shopping and walk, and often praised her for her beauty and temperament. They talk about art, literature and philosophy of life, which seems to be a perfect match.
She once said to him, "You are a man. I can't wait to wrap you up like a sachet, sew a needle and thread and hide you in the suitcase."
It can be seen that her love for him has reached the extreme, and that kind of possessiveness shows that Zhang Ailing's love for Hu Lancheng has already penetrated into the bone marrow.
There always seems to be a slight difference between men's loyalty to love and women's loyalty to love, especially for a romantic like Hu Lancheng.
Hu Lancheng's feelings for Zhang Ailing are complicated, mottled and impure. He already has a wife, and he never wanted to give up his marriage and stay with Zhang Ailing. Moreover, he also had an affair for a long time and didn't even hide anything from Zhang Ailing.
When a man has an affair and tells his woman, he can only prove two things. Either he is stupid or he doesn't love this woman at all. Obviously, Hu Lancheng is the latter.
Finally, Hu Lancheng's wife couldn't stand this love triangle and filed for divorce.
Hu Lancheng, who was forced to divorce, married Zhang Ailing, a talented woman who was infatuated with him. In those turbulent times, they didn't have a wedding, only an engagement: "Hu Lancheng and Zhang Ailing signed a lifelong contract and got married. May the years be quiet and the world be stable. "
The first two sentences of this passage are from Zhang Ailing, and the last two sentences are Hu Lancheng's commitment to Zhang Ailing.
This year was 1944, Zhang Ailing's first love and marriage, and the man she never forgot promised her "secular stability". However, can he do it?
The Sino-Japanese War of 1894-1895 is over, the Japanese general trend is gone, and the future of Hu Lancheng is uncertain.
He told her that he would change his name and surname for a year or two. Zhang Ailing didn't know what this meant at that time. She gently comforted him and said, "At that time, you can change your name, or you can call it Zhang Qian or Zhang Zhao. I hold you and recruit you in the corner of the world. "
Hu Lancheng fled to Wuhan and hooked up with a female nurse named Zhou Xunde 17 years old.
This incident made Zhang Ailing's heart extremely hurt.
Later, traitors were arrested all over the country, so Hu Lancheng had to hide. Zhang ailing was deeply worried about her husband's fate, but what she didn't expect was that her husband, who was worried all night, didn't forget to meet new lovers on the way to escape.
When he was hiding in Hangzhou, he met the widowed Fan Xiumei, and they soon stuck together and accompanied him to Wenzhou.
Zhang Ailing, who was very concerned about Hu Lancheng, began a journey of searching for a husband for thousands of miles. She even thinks that Wenzhou City, where Hu Lancheng lived, shines like jewels.
Surprisingly, however, when Hu Lancheng saw Zhang Ailing who had come all the way, she was not only unhappy, but also scolded her in a bad tone and asked her to go back.
She lived with Hu Lancheng and Fan Xiumei for a period of time, but Zhang Ailing, who had been depressed until the dust settled, could not stand Hu Lancheng's half-heartedness.
She let him make a decision, but Hu Lancheng didn't choose her firmly after all.
Desperate, sad, even sad, she said to him, "you won't." I thought that if I had to leave you, I wouldn't commit suicide, and I wouldn't love anyone else. I would just fade away. "
Even so, Zhang Ailing, who couldn't control herself, sent the manuscript fee to Hu Lancheng during her escape in Hu Lancheng until the situation improved.
Time is a poison, so this legendary love in the world of mortals has finally come to a very tragic end.
She treats him, be dead set, and he treats her like mosquito blood or rice sticks. In short, it is by no means the bright thread at the foot of my bed, not the Zhu Shazhi of that heart.
Many times I don't quite understand, what kind of love can make a talented woman humble?
Anyway, I was shocked by the power of the most subtle emotion in the world.
From the bottom of my heart, I hope that Zhang Ailing can find a man who really loves her in her lifetime, and let her be a lovely person who can be so sensitive, cautious and let go of herself, and write a love story of Lin, one of the four talented women.
From then on, Zhang Ailing was like a broken-winged angel who lost her aura. Her works are no longer so popular, and her life abroad has become extremely poor and lonely.
She has never been back to the mainland in her life, and even if her favorite aunt died of illness, she never went back to visit.
Perhaps, her heart has been extremely disappointed with the once colorful hometown of Shanghai, or perhaps, the love that has been deeply rooted in her heart has long been the most difficult pain to erase in her heart, which she can't face.
In a word, she didn't go back. She had never seen a man named Hu Lancheng in her life.
Finally, I want to send you a sentence: if you love, please love deeply, if you love deeply, please choose the right person!