It is said that green apples are sour, astringent and sweet, just like the first love in life, with sweetness and heartbreak, because they mature prematurely... It is just a beautiful landscape, absolutely Not a shore to rely on for anchorage. Inscription

The spring sunshine shines warmly on people, and the branches and leaves outside the window are stretched out, as if they have slept all winter and stretched themselves out, full of energy, the leaves are green and shiny, and the flowers are red. Like fire... Spring is the most active season of nature, and youth is our youngest wealth. The grass has withered, but there is still a time when it will be green again; the flowers have withered, but there is a time when they will bloom again; the tide has gone, but there is a time when it will rise again; the hair has become white, but cannot be black again, that is because of nature. The four seasons can take turns. After night, it becomes day, after winter, it becomes spring, but the years are gone forever.

Times are like running water. We have experienced spring, summer, autumn and winter. Everyone has to endure joy and pain. The long road of life has been smooth and bumpy. We all have a blue sky...

Clouds, Min and Ying sat on the school lawn, quietly bathing in the spring sunshine, letting it kiss their lips, warm and soft; the golden light caressed their hair, smooth and floating. Floating. The three of them were admitted to the same university from the same middle school. They are not only high school classmates, but also college classmates. They are fellow villagers and roommates. To be honest, there are not many people like them who can be together, so they also Cherish it twice as much. Every corner of the campus has left traces of the footsteps they once walked together, and left behind the smiles they shared happily together.

There was also Lin who entered this university with the three of them. Lin is a boy with a sunny temperament, with fairer skin than girls, tall stature, delicate facial features, and cheerful personality. He is very similar to the handsome man in the novel, and his grades are also first-rate. When I was in high school, I was the crush of many girls. There were a lot of love letters received, but he seemed to take them very lightly, and was surprisingly calm, just like a spider web, gently wiping them away...

Since entering college, because he is an old classmate, So I often hang out with the three of them. For example, hanging out together, shopping, eating, etc. Everyone is very happy together, and there seems to be endless things to say and talk about. However, Ying is a bit introverted and usually doesn't speak much. She just listens carefully to what they say and then laughs with them. The only person who made her a little uncomfortable was Lin, because she felt that Lin looked at her differently from other people. After all, girls are more sensitive.

At night, the moonlight shines softly, and she walks forward in silence. Ying lies quietly on the bed alone, thinking alone. In fact, the three of them are very good, and there are not many suitors around them, but not For some reason, they didn't accept it. When we talked about these things together, they all said they were too young and would wait a little longer. They were not afraid of not being able to get married, so they just laughed it off. We have been classmates together for so many years, and we can actually guess what each other is thinking. When she thought of Lin's strange eyes, she was a little excited, a little excited, but she also frowned, because it didn't make sense. It was Chen Xiaochun's song "I Don't Have That Life" that sang her heartfelt voice: "I don't have that kind of fate." Damn it, there is no reason for him to fall in love with me. Heroes and beauties belong to the same country. It’s just that the lover is too good and the opponents are too few..." That song kept making her fall asleep...

One day, Lin came to their dormitory again. Ying was standing by the window sill reading a book. Suddenly she turned around and met Lin's eyes. Lin's eyes were not very big, but they were very sharp. They were hard to understand and confusing. She looked at ease, but she quickly looked away again. She felt that his gaze was very hot and would make people's faces turn red. In order to break this embarrassing situation, she said in a panic: "Look for them, they I just left." Unexpectedly, Lin said, "I'm not here to find them, but to find you specifically." After saying that, he grabbed her hand and ran out, and Ying couldn't help but follow him. She had a premonition that something unusual was going to happen.

Ying followed him to the foot of a big banyan tree. Lin looked at her affectionately, took her hand and said, "Ying, promise me, be my girlfriend.

At this time, a young mother walked by Ying with her cute little daughter. The little girl looked at Ying with her big eyes open and said to her mother: "Mom, let me give the umbrella to my sister. My sister's hair is They're all wet." Her mother smiled... At that time, Ying's heart was shocked. For a stranger, a child could do this. As for me, she thought of what Min said: "Although we are not biological sisters, we are Closer than biological sisters..." Thinking of what Yang Yang said in "Yang Yang's Three Marriages": "There will be a husband, there will be bread, and everything will be fine." Ying decided... At this time, the sky. The floating raindrops are no longer as disorderly as before, and seem to become very regular under the movement of the breeze.

Ying was still deep in thought and didn't want to be woken up by a shout. She turned around and saw that it was Lin. Lin's hair was also wet, and she didn't know whether it was rain or sweat dripping down his cheeks. He also held an unopened umbrella in his hand. Said: "I heard from your roommate that you didn't bring an umbrella when you went out, so I..." As he said that, he opened the umbrella for Ying, and Lin took her cold hand and silently said to Ying under the same umbrella. As she walked forward, Ying's eyes immediately became wet, and tears mixed with raindrops fell down. She rushed out. She was unwilling to stay under Lin's protection anymore... Lin chased after her in horror, and Ying said expressionlessly. : "Lin, I'm sorry, please forgive me. In fact, I don't love you. I only accept you because I am so strong. Ever since I was a child, I have always pursued the best. I am a very strong person. The more I don't get, the worse I will be." The more I want it, the more others want it, the more I will fight to get it. Now you understand, I don’t want to deceive you, but..." Lin was stunned, standing there with a bloodless face, and he didn’t know what was happening with the umbrella in his hand. The time had already been blown away by the wind... Ying left without looking back, but she didn't know that she had already burst into tears.

After returning home, Ying fell seriously ill due to being caught in the rain. Min and Yun took care of her carefully, as if nothing had happened, and she returned to the past. A month later, Ying recovered and was standing on the sunny balcony when she received a text message from Lin: "That lingering and pathos love story has been silently brewing into wine in my heart, and when I was drunk, I broke myself..." Ying Hui said: "When a bird flies by, there will be no trace left in the sky; when a fish swims by, there will be no trace left in the water. Everything has passed."

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Time flies so fast. Two months of summer vacation passed by in a flash. On the first day of school, Lin saw Yun and Min, but not Ying. When he asked them, they shook their heads and said it was a long time. I haven't been able to contact her at this time, and I don't know what she is busy with. She didn't even come when school started.

It has been three days since school started but Ying has not been seen. On the fourth day, Lin received an EMS containing Ying’s diary. It was very strange and she couldn’t wait to read it:

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Saturday, April 8th

I accidentally saw the diary written by Min that day, and suddenly realized that Min and Yun also liked Lin very much. He was so good, so I was very lucky to be chosen. Lin was selected. At that time, I really felt so happy and felt that I was the happiest person in the world. However, the better Lin treats me, the further away Min and Yun are from me. They deliberately alienate me. Whenever I see Yun and Min talking and laughing happily together, my heart hurts like a cut. That day in the rain and Lin said some lies to him, which may have hurt him all over, but I am really helpless. I am also scarred. Who will see my true heart...

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Sunny Friday, May 8

It has been a month since I broke up with Lin, and I have been sick for a month. Now I am finally better, but the pain in my heart is still so helpless. medicine. Min and Yun have taken good care of me over the past month, which makes me very happy. After all, my efforts have not been in vain, and they are still my good sisters. In fact, they don't know much about my relationship with Lin. If I don't tell them, they won't ask.

The three of us had a heart-to-heart talk together that day. Although they didn't say it explicitly, they still told me implicitly that in their student days when they couldn't distinguish between affection and love, they just had a good impression of Lin, not the so-called love. They figured it out. I recognized it, but I blamed myself, which made me feel even more sorry for Lin, but I still insisted on my position. Maybe it was because I had lived so smoothly in the past twenty-two years, so God punished me. That time It is unusual to be sick for a month. That time I went to the hospital alone to get the test results. The doctor told me that I had leukemia...I suddenly felt dark and dark. I thought about it for a long time and felt that the people I felt most sorry for were my parents. I didn’t want to cause any more trouble. One person, that is Lin, he still has a good future, he should not be allowed to endure so much pain, I like to see his sunny smile...

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Sunny Sunday, June 12th

That day I was sitting quietly by the river and saw an old leaf falling. Suddenly an old man came over and said, "What are you looking at? You are so lost in thought." I When he asked me about looking at an old leaf, he asked me what I saw. I said: "It is riddled with holes and has been eaten away by insects..." The old man shook his head and said, "You are too negative. I am different. I saw many new leaves growing slowly. Although this old leaf fell, I can still see it fighting tenaciously with the bugs when it was on the tree. Until the last moment of its life, it fell, but it also It can turn into spring mud to protect flowers..." Yes, an old life still has a young flower season, let alone me...

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September 1st is cloudy Monday

They all started school today, but I was lying in bed unable to move. I really wanted to see Lin for the last time, but I didn’t want him to see me in such a mess. The most beautiful image remains in his heart, and I don’t want to make him sad until the last moment of my life... Today I couldn’t bear the pain I caused to my parents, so I secretly took an overdose of sleeping pills... I closed my eyes ...gave up the whole world...

Lin burst into tears and shouted: "Ying, come back quickly, why don't you let me accompany you until the end." He shouted and ran out, leaving Lin alone. Staggering on the road, why are there always some regrets in life that cannot be made up for? Why do you have to lose her before you know how precious she is? If there is an afterlife, a next life, I will meet you again, and we will be together even if we die. This Pang Long's "Two Butterflies" sounded in my ears: My dear, you fly slowly, be careful of the roses with thorns in front of you, my dear, open your mouth, the flowers in the wind will make you intoxicated... I will linger with you. Flying, leaping through this world of mortals will always be with you, chasing you all my life, loving you without regrets... When the autumn wind dies and the autumn leaves fall into piles, I will have no regrets if I can stay with you...