However, under the intimidation and inducement of my best friend, I quietly opened this seemingly dogmatic Life Guide. Surprisingly, it brought me a different kind of feeling and heart. At the beginning of Living Law, a philosophical question of life that I am very interested in and even want to understand every day-what is the meaning of life?
The meaning of life is to temper the soul. The warm old man didn't give us any famous words and deeds, let alone a lot of chicken soup-style indoctrination and preaching. Instead, I explained this seemingly abstruse and obscure proposition of life philosophy with my own personal experience, which was sincere, touching and convincing. To put it bluntly, life is not just a journey of self-exploration and self-pursuit.
Well, I admit, he persuaded my stubborn soul with simple language.
Come to think of it, people in this world can be roughly divided into two types. One kind of people, like me, are unwilling to be mediocre, pretending to love every day, and always want to do something earth-shattering and earth-shattering I can't wait to finish my life's work perfectly in one day; However, another kind of people live an ordinary and exquisite life. They always exist quietly with the attitude they like, but don't care about themselves with the things they don't like. They use their favorite rhythm to live high's moments.
In fact, from the bottom of my heart, I envy the latter, because I find that most of them have an extremely strong heart. They never go with the flow and have a very stable three views. They are always so gentle and patient, and always seem to know what they like, which I am eager for and can't get.
This is the best time and the worst time. Some time ago, my life was messed up because of the water. Every day, all kinds of chicken blood tweets from various app title parties aggravated my inner anxiety, and I fell into a blind diligence. In order to alleviate the guilt caused by my lack of knowledge and various bad situations, I desperately read some chicken soup articles that have nothing to do with me, listened to some inspirational courses of extreme fear, and desperately tried to escape from this swamp of anxiety, but I was not only unable to escape, but also caught in another long-awaited cycle.
Carrying such a heavy ideological burden and mental shackles every day, I lived an thoughtless life like a soulless corpse until I saw "Modern Grandpa A Bing" again at the subway entrance downstairs of the company. I called him this name because as soon as I saw him, I immediately thought of Grandpa A Bing, who was immortal because of a song "Two Springs Reflecting on the Moon".
"Modern Grandpa A Bing" is an old busker who has the same life situation as A Bing. He is about sixty years old, blind and ugly. Every day, no matter the wind, the sun, the cold and the heat, he will play the erhu at the exit B of Dawang Road in the subway on time. There is always only one piece of his music, that is, A Bing's "Two Springs Reflect on the Moon", which probably has a different mood every time he passes by, so every time he listens to it, it seems to have a different meaning. Years have carved vicissitudes on his face. He looks wrinkled, but every time I pass by him, I can feel a strong silence and tenacity.
I wonder what happened some time ago. Why hasn't the old man come for a long time? I don't know what kind of life he lives in reality, and I don't know if he has a family, a wife and children, but I know he must be a man with a story. No matter what despair and pain life gives him, he is always so calm, calm, unhappy and happy to accept every gift of life.
At that moment, my heart was deeply hurt, sad but full of respect. From then on, every time I passed by him, I would quietly put 10 yuan in the bowl in front of him. Although the money is not much, it is heavy, which hides my infinite admiration and respect.
Later, I learned that this is probably the power and meaning of life. The real strength is that no matter what fate throws at you, you can always spend every moment of your life in the most secure and comfortable way. Every minute is full of philosophy and irreplaceable.
Having dinner with a producer yesterday, I happened to talk about something that shocked the film and television circle some time ago-Qian Hu's suicide. Facing the same life, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, different people will have different feelings, and different people will have different endings.
Qian Hu is a young director with great artistic talent. His life value is to devote himself to art. On several occasions, he tried to raise funds for his film planning, but all of them died because of lack of appreciation and funds. He also published two books, which were well received by the industry, but the remuneration was meager. Although he was born at the right time, he was still incompetent.
As he himself wrote in Weibo: "This year I published two books, made an art film and wrote a new work, and got a total of 20,000 copyright fees. The movie didn't cost a penny, and my girlfriend ran away. Today's ant micro-loan is not available, and I can't lend it without borrowing it ... "
"In a bag, lying in the corner of a dark room. There are many iron fences on the back wall to freeze the bodies. " He described his life in this way, which is really cruel and full of helplessness and sadness.
In this way, a handsome guy with a height of 1.89 meters can't bear the burden of life at last. 20 17, 10, 12 On June 2, he tidied up his hair and notes, and left this world in despair with a rope hanging in the corridor for a long time. However, God really played a big joke on him. From February 2065438 to February 2008, his posthumous work "The Elephant Sitting on the Ground" won the Best Film Award in the Forum Unit of Berlin Film Festival, and film festival officials even praised it as a "master" work with impressive visual effects.
However, the world never turned again.
We can't judge whether it is right for Qian Hu to end his life in this way, but it is also a way of life, isn't it? Although he didn't find a way to make himself happy, he also honed his soul in another way and lived a legendary life!
I don't know if you have a sensitive, casual and ignorant heart like me, and always regard feelings as above the sky, living freely and divorced from reality. Moonlight people can spend a lot of money on their favorite bags, literary and artistic clothes, petty bourgeoisie notebooks, orange-pink lipstick that is warm enough to cry, Linkin coffee that is fragrant but not greasy, and their own fixed boudoir circle, but they can talk freely and unscrupulously about small things that they don't think are funny, pretend to study English diligently, and try to write an official WeChat account.
Do what you like, eat what you like, do what you want to do, talk about a love to stimulate your nerves, try to embrace life and stroll around your favorite streets. What's more meaningful than living a tangled life? Do you have to be black and white to live? What kind of life you live depends entirely on your own choice.
From today on, live simply and sincerely like a child. After all, life is a one-way trip. If you miss it, it's gone ~