In the years when Lawspirit started its business, although I always told myself to operate with integrity, there is no dishonest business, so I have to confess to God every day, the mistakes I made and those immoral activities:) Kant said: "Only the starry sky above us and the morality in our hearts make us feel awe." If there is an opportunity, I would like to be a scholar in a small town all my life, just like Kant. You don't have to be good at calculating every day, and you don't have to focus on profit.
Then why don't I want to be a businessman? I was born in a small mountain village in the northwest of Hunan, surrounded by dark leaves of wild pine and fragrant rice in Chai Men. My parents are honest and hardworking farmers. I have been encouraged to study hard since I was a child, and I will become a "big official" in the future, go to a big city and become a "national" who eats state grain. At that time, we mountain people called people who didn't have to pay agricultural taxes "nationals". Before I was eighteen, I studied very hard and utilitarian, just to get rid of my status as a farmer and hope to be a "big official" one day. Therefore, after entering the university, I am keen on politics, often reading biographies of political figures, attending some boring political meetings, organizing some formalistic activities, and becoming the president of the student union. I'm not afraid of jokes when I say it. I even dream that one day, like my hometown Mao Zedong, I will have the opportunity to "dare to teach the sun and the moon to change the sky".
Just when I neglected my studies and was immersed in school politics, my classmates recommended me to read a book, Ordinary World, which was almost available to everyone when I was a student. Especially children like me who come out of the countryside have a strong resonance when reading. This made me understand how much disaster the so-called Cultural Revolution launched by my hometown Mao Zedong brought to the grassroots people in China. However, Sun Shaoping, the hero of the book at that time, was deeply moved by his optimism and self-confidence and the spirit of fighting against fate and identity, and told me that the so-called great men might only bring disaster, corruption and dictatorship, while ordinary people, such as my own parents, would silently contribute to this country and the world!
To this day, I am no longer addicted to the dream of being a hero and a great man. The older you get, the smaller your dreams become. Ten years after graduation, I prefer to live an ordinary life, be a good son of my parents, a good husband of my wife, a good father of my daughter, a good citizen of my country, a good employee of my company and a good partner of my friends and colleagues. .........
My real college life began when I resigned as the president of the student union. At that time, I saw a sentence from Taiwan Province writer Bai Yang, who said that the main job of college students is to study hard and fall in love. So I also shifted my focus to reading and falling in love-I fell in love with a girl from Yunnan! At that time, there was no telephone, no internet, and the main form of love was going to the park. Almost every week, I will take my lover to the edge of the Yangtze River with that worn-out bicycle, joking while walking. I held the girl's hand and hugged and kissed her for the first time in the roaring river and the whistle of the cruise ship. The feeling of love? Unfortunately, I'm not a writer, so I can't express it in beautiful words. I can only say that love will make a man mature and responsible.
After falling in love, I thought I should prepare something for my future work, so I began to study hard. Reading is still very utilitarian, mainly reading books on English and computers. It has been proved that English and computer knowledge played an extremely important role in Lawspirit's entrepreneurial process. I also read some leisure books, such as Gu Zhun's. Because of my study, I began to skip some courses I didn't like, and the most important thing was to start thinking about some social problems. The most important question at that time was: What would happen in China during the Cultural Revolution? Why is there such a big difference between rural areas and cities in China? When will the hukou system be abolished in China, and when will there be judicial independence and press freedom? The more you think, the deeper the pain. Sometimes I miss being a child, carefree, and my main job is to herd cattle and chop wood on the mountain. I often stand on the top of the mountain behind my home, watching the infinite scenery outside the mountain and watching the trees on the mountain being cut down by people outside the mountain day by day. At that time, I just wanted to ask one question: what is it like outside the mountain?
Until now, I still feel that I can't integrate into the city or go back to the countryside. I don't know where my heart will drift. The only comfort is to recall my happy childhood and enjoy what Lawspirit did.
When I was in college, I was thinking about a question. When I couldn't find the answer, I asked the teacher. The teacher said that he didn't know the answer either, but suggested that I should read not only books written by China, but also books written by westerners, especially children in rural areas. I should try to read Main's Ancient Law, which summarizes the development process of human society as: "All movements in a progressive society are movements from identity to contract". Relatively speaking, China is still a static society and an identity society, and the hukou system is an obstacle to the evolution of China into a contract society. Since I was admitted to the university, my status has changed from a farmer to a cadre. You don't have to pay the agricultural tax per head anymore, you can still reimburse the doctor and get a pension when you are old. To this day, I don't think I am much smarter than my parents, and I won't work harder than my parents, but I get much more from this country than my parents who were farmers. As long as the hukou system is not abolished, China is still an identity society in essence. The biggest problem in the identity society is the inequality of opportunities.
The biggest difficulty in my university is economic problems. My parents' income in rural areas is not high, and they are not in good health in those years. There is also a younger brother in high school. So, we have to earn all the college expenses by ourselves. Fortunately, education was not industrialized at that time, and tuition was not much. In order to make money, I started as a tutor, newsboy, shopping guide and cleaner. Later, I went to Hanzheng Street in Wuhan to resell postcards, desk calendars, soaps, clothes and other parallel imports, and also sold pirated books and pyramid schemes. At that time, the school did not allow students to do business, so they could only do it secretly. Although I didn't want to be a businessman at that time, those experiences did cultivate a little business mind:)