Let me talk about my feelings about work. Since March this year, I have started a part-time job. When I was in the third year of high school, I encountered great setbacks, so I was always depressed and confused. I felt like I was going to collapse. I am not in the mood to find a job at all. I want to hide when I see work. I have no confidence in myself and feel that I am not good at anything. Because at that time, I was still a very frustrated person. Actually, I worked as an intern in a bank before and did international settlement. My name is nice, but my job is really boring. I am in charge of bank remittance and remittance business. I check whether the customer's bill is correct every day, and then check the SWIFT code. If I'm not sure, I have to call the customer, or I'm familiar with the banking system, and everything on the computer is fixed. Every day is to enter, check and enter numbers. . . I'm falling apart. If you remit money, you have to fill out the documents and give them to SAFE every day. Because it is a state-owned bank, its efficiency is very low. And everyone is responsible for one thing. There are many women in the working environment and many intrigues in the department. Suddenly I feel that outsiders look very glamorous. They wear white shirts and go in and out of the office building every day. But in fact, I can't learn anything, and if I want to work here, first, undergraduates must work as counters for two years, and second, you can't be promoted if you don't know people in state-owned banks. I just don't like state-owned banks anyway. No matter how many bank stocks are encouraged to buy now, I have a feeling of disgust. I don't understand how such an inefficient job came about. Moreover, if it is not the head office, even for international settlement, there is actually no right to review documents and instruct LC, so some branches are unnecessary. The most important thing is that I don't adapt to the intrigue here. I admit that I am a very simple person and just want to work hard, but in many cases, the more things, the slower the promotion.
I met my sister in the bank and have been working for two years. I am a person who likes to ask questions, but some of them still don't know some very professional financial knowledge. So I don't think there is any added value in staying here, so I offered to end my internship. Although many people think banks are very good, it may be my own reason. I think these things are of little value. I prefer things that are challenging.
After that, I interviewed KPMG and Deloitte. KPMG didn't do the final interview, Deloitte gave me an offer, but I was afraid to work late every day and said I would take a taxi home every day 12. There is no time at all on Saturday and Sunday, only work, work, work. There is a reason for not choosing, because I still plan to go to graduate school, but I want to get in touch with the society for a while, face the helpless reality of the society slowly, find my own direction, then study hard and concentrate on what I really like. I was confused at that time. I didn't know what I wanted or what I was good at. I feel that I am a liberal arts student, and nothing will fail. Besides, I am the first English major. Although I am a legal translator, I am not interested in translation. So I gave up.
The feeling at that time was that I wanted everything and nothing. Actually, I was lazy and didn't go for an interview anywhere. I just had two or three interviews. Fortunately, a company in Shenzhen asked me to have a second interview. At that time, I told myself to give myself a chance to leave Guangzhou and forget those unpleasant things. So I told my family that I wanted to work in Shenzhen. At first they all opposed it, but I don't know why I insisted. I just want to escape from that place. . So I went to Shenzhen for an interview.
Strangely, this company and I have a special fate, because I passed the second interview, and I still clearly remember the interview topics at that time: 1. CAPM model explains everything from assumptions to formulas; 2. Sharp ratio; 3. Real estate industry analysis; 4. International index. I was lucky at that time, because I took CFA. The company called me two or three times and I said hold, but I went in the end because I thought they were sincere.
The final interview also went well. The dean said I was suitable for this job, but let me practice. So from March, the internship career began. Of course, undergraduates are very wronged in a department full of graduate students and doctors. At first they didn't know where my level would go, so they gave me a lot of chores to do. I still remember how those two months passed. I have to write papers and work, and there is a lot of work! There is no internet access in the dormitory, so I have to start writing papers after working in the office.
Get off work at 8 o'clock every day and leave the company at 1 1. This situation lasted for two months. Moreover, I am constantly on business trips in Guangzhou and Shenzhen, because the teacher has to revise the thesis, and there are still many things that have not been done well after graduation. During that time, I was very tired. I only slept for three or four hours every day. Sometimes I wonder, what keeps me going? I think it's Will. Only a strong will can keep me going in such a strange environment. But I met many people who helped me in Shenzhen, my roommate and my colleagues. I really appreciate it. I didn't expect so many people to help me.
Internship can be described as depression. My first task is to sort out more than 1000 documents of the department, totaling 20 projects. I just copy and paste every day, and sometimes I feel like I'm about to cry. But whenever I work alone in the office until the afternoon 10, I tell myself to hold on and not give up so soon. Don't embarrass undergraduates. So I sorted out more than 1000 company documents in a week and wrote my graduation thesis! I leave the office every night 1 1, feeling very tired, but full. Steve Job once said, If you can't find your way, work hard! This is my situation.
After sorting out the documents, I almost became a department aunt. I have been to almost every department of the company from ordering newspapers, receiving contracts, making phone calls, checking printers, writing bills, delivering express delivery, running errands and sorting out invoices, and sometimes I get angry. Once I went to the government to apply for something. However, those civil servants are really full and full, and they also make irresponsible remarks about the application I wrote, saying: Don't you understand such a simple thing? And an undergraduate! As a result, it took her two hours to get my business done. Fortunately, I am a strong person at heart. I kept smiling at her, thinking about the famous snack in Guangzhou: vermicelli sausage, and imagining biting her. I was in a daze for about 2 hours, and then I walked out of the government gate. I think this is my first time to see the society, but I still think these are things that are not taught in the textbook. I want to learn! The second time, when the employees of the finance department put the blame on my side, they were also very wronged. Fortunately, my mother is an accountant and taught me to keep good evidence when I come out to work, so I copied the bills I filled out and the invoices I sent and received. Finally, these things saved my life. I think these are also things that books have not taught me. The third time was the staff of the exchange. Because of work, they often have to deal with the exchange, but their attitude is really bad, not only fierce, but also unreasonable. It seems that if we lose the payment, they can argue irrationally and refuse to give us the invoice. The finance department will think it's your fault. For an undergraduate who has not graduated, it is actually quite a headache, because I have never encountered such a situation.
Now I understand that there are difficult interpersonal relationships in this world besides textbooks. But I have persisted in all these, because I have adopted the mentality of returning good for evil, which is what the Bible says: love your enemy. I think the so-called enemies are all your own projections. If a person has a high EQ and a good attitude, I think everything will be fine. Just like the finance department. Although they blamed me that time, the next time the finance department made a mistake, I didn't blame them. I took the initiative to help them do things well. As a result, they were very satisfied, so they had some respect for me in the future. I think in fact, people's hearts are all made of meat, so it's better to avenge their grievances by comparing their hearts. Now my internal force is very strong. I can face an angry person without any fluctuation, because I often think of him as an interesting thing, such as a bear, an elephant or a character in an cartoon, which may have helped me through so many difficulties.
During my internship, I also found my own strength, that is, my ability to multitask is very strong. I can clearly remember many things that need to be done, and how to choose the best way to deal with them may be to constantly improve the allocation of time. This ability surprised me. Someone once told me that it is because you have no way out that you will take a chance. I don't know why I want to stay in the company. Maybe it's because of my colleagues. Their financial knowledge is profound, professional and meticulous. I want to be as strong as them. Moreover, more importantly, people in our department get along very well. In fact, I want to say that there are many boys in our department, and they are all geeks. We don't quarrel for interests, which suits my personality very well. I don't pay much attention to material interests. I just want to learn more knowledge. When I go out to eat at noon, everyone is talking and laughing. Everyone sat together regardless of each other. Maybe it's because of the department environment where I stay, because here, no one discriminates against you because you are an undergraduate, and no one does not give you support because you are an undergraduate. They are very enthusiastic. Tell me their knowledge, and the communication between liberal arts students is smooth. I feel that I am still respected. Although the leaders do not think so.
The leaders of our department especially like science students and students majoring in mathematics, statistics and physical chemistry, while most of our liberal arts students are handyman. I still remember that the boss said a lot of things that made me sad the day I became a regular employee. You are not a master student. Look who you are. Although you are an undergraduate, I am from Nankai University! And have work experience. All these words were said when talking about salary. In a word, the leader hinted a lot. First, you are not a master student. Second, your brand is not loud enough. Third, you are a liberal arts student. In short, when I walked out of the office that day, I accepted a very helpless reality that the brand of newly graduated undergraduates was not loud enough = the salary was low. I cried on my way home. I think this is a reality. Now I feel nothing. Although I can still remember what happened a few months ago, I am calm now.