Do you know why there are evil thoughts? People are human because they have feelings. Secular desires are human nature, saints, greedy and evil thoughts. One's life is not to release evil thoughts, but to control them. Begging for death is only a unilateral solution, and your family and friends will be sad because of it. This is called conservation. If you are happy, someone will be sad. If we want to achieve a win-win situation (everyone is happy), we must create conditions by our own efforts. Yes, there are tests and difficulties everywhere, but the obstacles are for yourself. It is as difficult for a baby to learn to walk as it is for you to overcome difficulties.