I saw a friend’s QQ signature: “There are several keys in life that cannot be touched.” I was deeply touched at that time. There are indeed many such forbidden areas in life, some cannot be touched, and some are unwilling to be touched. They are either quietly hidden in a corner of the soul, or quietly flowing in the blood.

For example, family affection. That is the softest corner of my heart, always carefully hidden.

I have written many other people’s stories, about friends, classmates, celebrities, criminals, human relationships, and sophistication, but I have not touched on the stories of relatives connected by blood.

The closer you are, the less you dare to touch easily. Isn't this the same as feeling shy near hometown?

I have few words, and I am not good at expressing family affection. Especially after growing up, for many, many years, it was difficult for me to even say "Mom". Only occasionally after drinking, I would call home and call "Mom" enough at one time. I felt that at that moment The self is relatively real. There was even less communication with my father. Even if they did meet, they would just sit opposite each other in silence. Even if they did communicate, it would be gossip that had nothing to do with family ties. Scenes like this have been happening over and over again in my life. Sometimes, I really want to give my parents a deep hug after meeting them, and then say into my mother's ears: "Mom, I love you!" But that's just I interpret it in my imagination, but once I face my parents in person, I have no way to express it.

One day at the end of September 2008, I suddenly received a call from my second brother, saying that my father was in poor health. I quickly asked for leave and rushed back to my hometown. I brought a camera back with me, and the family took a lot of photos together. Later, I sent the photos to my QQ space.

A few days ago, my eldest sister saw the photos in the space and left a message under the photo titled "Warmth": "Among the five brothers and sisters, Caifeng and I are the only ones missing. I'm depressed!" Thinking of her father. As his birthday was approaching, we made an appointment to go back to our hometown to celebrate his father's birthday together this year, so that the five brothers and sisters could be reunited.

However, something suddenly happened in the past few days and I had to rush back to my hometown early. It seemed that this year’s party was not a success again. Looking through the photo album, I found a photo of a brother and sister taken more than thirty years ago.

For so many years, my younger brothers and sisters have always called me eldest brother. Even though they have already married and started a business, I have never called them younger brother or younger sister. Instead, I have always stubbornly called them by their nicknames.

When I screamed like that, time seemed to have returned to my childhood.

My grandfather is a scholar, so the naming was all done by him. The nicknames of our five siblings are Liangrun, Liangze, Lianghe, Liangyun, and Liangying. When I grew up, I discovered that my grandfather’s name had a profound meaning. He was kind-hearted, moist and friendly, which was an ideal state of life.

Actually, between Liangze and Lianghe, I also had a younger brother named Liangtan, but he only stayed in this world for a short few hours. I was a little over three years old at the time, and I didn’t remember having such a younger brother at all. I only became aware of his existence from my parents’ memories and narratives. So far, I have never asked my parents to confirm whether the word "tan" in Liangtan is actually the word "tan". I just wishfully believe that the word "tan" is the best comment he left to the world: magnanimous and honest. Come and leave without leaving any trace.

Liangze, Xinger, Xue Rang, Zhongxun, born in the year of Dragon, only one year younger than me.

Among us brothers and sisters, the second brother has the richest experience.

According to his parents, he became ill shortly after he was born. At a young age, I suffered from acupuncture. Due to multiple injections, the veins on his arms were riddled with holes. In order to find a piece of skin that could be injected, the doctor shaved off his hair and injected needles on his tender scalp. Several times, the hospital issued critical illness notices, but he survived the crisis despite being frightened by his parents again and again.

I vaguely feel that he is suffering from nephritis, and he cannot eat salt during treatment and recovery.

He finally resisted the pain. People say that if you survive a catastrophe, you will be blessed later. We have always wished him this way.

It may be that he had too many needles as a child and was too deeply affected by drugs. After going to school, his academic performance has always been unsatisfactory. This definitely has nothing to do with intelligence. Because, in school, except for his average academic performance, he performed well in everything else, especially his ability to bully his classmates. If you want to break out of the realm, it is absolutely impossible without the support of super intelligence.

After graduating from junior high school, the second brother did not continue studying. Instead, he followed the folks in the village to work in coal mines in Pingdingshan, Xuchang and other places. After a year, I couldn't make much money, and my parents were very worried. After getting married, he stopped working in the coal mines. First, he helped his parents take care of the few acres of farmland at home, and later, he studied cooking with a young man from Qiguang. He did not receive formal academic training, but started working with a young man from Qiguang. If there was a wedding or wedding in the nearby countryside, and they wanted to entertain relatives and friends from far and near with gifts, they would bring stir-fry ladles, machetes, and spoons. , steamers and other household items to help people prepare banquets.

Although he did not become a good chef in the end, he was better at cooking home-cooked meals than I was. Now, every time the family gets together during holidays, he is always the one cooking.

Later, he and his wife went to the county town and opened a snack bar. However, due to their discordant personalities, they always bickered and quarreled. As a result, the business was bleak until it closed.

The second brother, who had nothing to do, continued to live a bumpy life. Due to the disharmony in his family life, he began to wander around the world. He went to Fujian to kill eels, went to Beijing to see a shop, and even helped others drive cars. However, he always had no money left and his life was stretched. And the long-term separation life consumes all the little love between husband and wife.

In order to get a divorce, he chose to leave the house.

It is difficult for others to understand the suffering and helplessness of a middle-aged man who has lost his home and house. Sometimes, I also want to reach out my hand and give him a hand, but I am also willing but not strong enough, so I can only watch from a distance and silently bless him.

However, the second brother survived again, with a relaxed smile still on his face. This is his character. No matter how big the difficulty is, in his eyes, it is just a small obstacle. Even though he was running around, even though he was poor, even though he was lonely, even though he was helpless, he still retained his original smile.

Now, the second brother has reorganized his family, ended his wandering life, and can take care of the future at home with peace of mind.

I believe that the second brother, who has had a battle with death, will be as invincible to any intrusion of time as his signature smile.

I still believe that if you survive a catastrophe, you will be blessed later.

Lianghe, Xingsan, named Shulin, is a monkey. After all, he was already over forty years old.

Since he was a child, he has been a bit clever, quick-witted and full of ideas. Among the three of us brothers, he is the one who lives the most nourishing life.

Like the second child, learning is not his strong point. When I was a teacher at Huaidian Middle School, I specially transferred him from my hometown school, thinking that under my eyes, he would become more attentive to learning. As it turned out, I was wrong. He seems to have an instinctive resistance to basic course studies, but he enjoys his after-school life like a fish in water. At that time, cheap grain and oil were in short supply because it was still the era of planned supply. Unexpectedly, during the winter vacation, he used his connections to buy a bunch of cheap grain and non-staple food for his family at the rural grain station. From that moment on, I had a new understanding of this little brother who is five or six years younger than me. In the future, he will definitely take care of his life happily.

Sure enough, as soon as he left school, he started his own unique way of making a living. He had never attended a formal training school, so with his little knowledge of physics at the junior high school level and his unpredictable mind, he set up a stall on Pohe Street and took on jobs to help people repair small household appliances. .

At first, everyone was not optimistic about his choice, thinking it was a bit of whimsical nonsense, but he persisted time and time again. At first, he just helped people repair small products such as clocks and radios. Soon, he started repairing TV sets...

From setting up stalls, renting houses and opening shops, to building his own houses on the street; From the repair of electrical appliances to the fine repair of various batteries, starters, generators, and car MP3 players and MP5 players, he has taken the path he originally chose and broadened it further.

Maybe, in the eyes of others, this is not a successful life, but even a small success is worth cherishing. Small success is also success. It will build up our confidence and give us the courage to accept more challenges.

Life is mostly ordinary and trivial. Peace of mind is happiness.

The main reason why I wrote this article was because of my sister’s message.

Liangyun, named Caixia, is a pig.

Because she went out to work when she was more than ten years old, so the time to see her was the least. Fortunately, recently, she has also started to use the Internet, so we have another way to communicate.

There is a rebellious element in the eldest sister’s character, and she has her own persistence and pursuit of happiness and the future. I still can't imagine how she broke into the strange and hot life in the South at such a young age. Because of her educational level, she could only start from the lowest level in the south. The noise in the workshop will be the most real background of her adolescence. How many tears of homesickness will she shed under the foreign sky? Regarding her wandering, I really didn't listen carefully. It wasn't that I was indifferent, but that I didn't dare and couldn't bear it, because I was afraid that she would go through another spiritual purgatory in the narrative.

I just know that later on, she went to the hotel to work as a waiter and worked as a foreman. For more than twenty years, I have persisted like this. More than a year ago, she moved to Shanghai from Fujian and started a new career with her many years of savings. This is the eldest sister I can understand. As the eldest brother, I have failed in my duty.

In addition, the eldest sister's love life has not been going well for so many years. Once a person has thoughts and pursuits, the pain in his soul will not let you go easily. This spiritual burden and burden cannot be replaced by others, even the closest relatives. You have to bear everything by yourself, the love and hate, the regret and pain, the confusion and perseverance.

Fortunately, a new life has opened the door to her. To have such a result, isn't it the reward for her years of perseverance?

Caixia should be a symbol. While beautifying the clear sky after the rain, it also beautifies one's own life.

In such a quiet night, there is only a gentle blessing, sent to sister Caixia who is far away in a foreign land.

Here, I would also like to say something to Sister Caixia: Pursuing a happy life is not wrong; even if you encounter many twists and turns, you don’t have to regret it; in the beginning, since you chose the path of living for yourself No matter what the result is, there is no need to complain. At least, we have a more real understanding of life than our compatriots who live without self.

In fact, life has not been unfair to your dedication and pursuit. It is worth it to have the tranquility and happiness you have now!

Among the brothers and sisters, my younger sister and I have the least communication. This must be because of our age.

My younger sister, Liangying, is named Caifeng. In my impression, she has always been that very little sister, following behind her sister, crying and making trouble, with a smile on her face.

But the fact is that she is already a wife and mother, and has an ordinary marriage and a peaceful life. No matter how we avoid it, people always have to grow up and mature slowly.

Although the colorful phoenix has not soared, its down-to-earth life, the ordinary true love between husband and wife, and the unbreakable blood and family love are like wings flying across the blue sky. rainbow!

Suddenly, I remembered the widely circulated poem by Li Shangyin, a poet of the Tang Dynasty: "There are no colorful phoenixes flying in the body, but there is a clear understanding in the heart." I feel that this poem is not only for love. , for family affection, it has the same appropriate image.

In this era, it is common for brothers and sisters to be separated from each other for one reason or another. However, the family relationship between them cannot be separated by time and space no matter how sharp it is. .

Because we are connected by blood, even if we are far apart, there is no distance between our hearts!

I only wish my brothers and sisters: peace and tranquility in the years and stability in this world!