There are two things I never consider publishing when writing, and I must write even if I never publish them. These are poems and random feelings. The former is my emotional diary, and the latter is my ideological diary. If I go wandering and take only the least things, I will take these two. Because they are my most authentic things, with them, my life clues will not be interrupted.

China may be a great philosopher of innovation system, but I am definitely not a human being. I have no ambition in my life. I just want to live truly, write down my true feelings at any time, and leave my footprints in life. This is all my ambition in writing. What I feel is not practical or profound, but mostly the life problems of the broad masses, such as life and death, love and loneliness. My nature is probably not suitable for profound knowledge or practical affairs, but I am easily attracted and tortured by such a big and unreasonable problem, and I can't stop.

I wrote down my understanding and confusion. My understanding is dominated by readers, and my confusion belongs only to myself. My first mission is not to write a detailed monograph on a certain topic to fill the gap in academic history; But writing my destiny to complete my life history. Because many others can do the former, while the latter can only be done by myself. I don't want to be unconventional and say something that I have never said before or today. I just want to write my feelings. As long as this feeling is my true feeling and I express it accurately, I am satisfied. I don't care if others have written something similar.

In fact, on these so-called eternal topics, human feelings have something in common, and there are not many novel words to say. However, as long as your feelings are really your own and alive, others will feel fresh when you write them down. What is valuable is freshness rather than freshness, and what is real and fresh is freshness. I was born a poet, not a scholar. I love my understanding far more than the knowledge I get from others.

Of course, I am not a refined person who refuses fame and fortune, but more importantly, I need to return to myself. I must leave a free space for my soul, a kind of inner peace and leisure. Only by maintaining this inner state can I really taste the spiritual happiness when writing.

My writing should also be my spiritual life, and the two must be integrated, otherwise its value will be doubted. No matter what threatens my cherished inner state, I can only resolutely resist it. In the final analysis, this is just a kind of weighing advantages and disadvantages, a kind of self-protection. If my writing lacks sufficient internal motivation, let me write nothing and write nothing well.

Writing without internal motivation is just a skill. I find that once a person has mastered a certain skill, it is easy to be restricted and dominated by it, and indulge in it like a craftsman, thinking that this is the meaning of life, and even thinking that this is the whole world. However, if you jump out and have a look, the world is very big, and no matter what skills you live in, you will suffer all your life. The most important thing is to have a full and complete inner life, not writing or anything else. If not, it doesn't matter what the body does outside, and writing, painting, exploring, doing good deeds and so on have no fundamental value. On the contrary, one can regard all these activities as forms of his spiritual life.

I miss the happy mood when I wrote something I didn't want to publish. I write just because I want to write, just because I like it. I don't even realize that I am writing. This is the most suitable state for writing. Later, when I wrote more manuscripts, I knew it was going to be published, so my freedom of thought was inevitably discounted. It is impossible to pretend that I don't know, so I set a standard for myself: I will write an article even if it is not published, so write it, otherwise I won't write it. In short, try to write only what you really want to write, be happy when you write, and finish what you like. Once such a thing is published, some people will like it, even if it is not published, it is nothing.

There is no secret of writing in the world. The so-called good work is nothing more than writing the work you like. For today's writers, the market is an existence that cannot be ignored. However, this does not mean that you have to write for the market. The boundary here is whether you let the market dominate your writing.

Two situations should be distinguished. One is to write what you really want to write, and then strive for success in the market. The other is to decide what to write with the goal of success in the market. I believe I belong to the former situation. So far, I have not written a book for the market. However, I am not a neat freak.

What to write and how to write it is entirely up to me. In the country where I write, I am the undisputed king. After writing, I sincerely welcome the market to serve me and be my effective minister. I never write to influence the world, just to settle down-find something to do, live meaningfully or look meaningful. What I think and write is basically to solve my own problems. Perhaps because of this, what I write will inspire people facing similar problems, thus indirectly affecting society.

Looking back, my writing path and my spiritual path are quite unified, which basically reflects my course of seeking consciousness and moving towards detachment in confusion. I used to be an impressionable person, easily trapped by feelings and unable to jump out. I am also a naturally pessimistic person. Thinking about death since childhood, it is easy to see through the world of mortals. Therefore, I face double danger, which may be destroyed by color or fall into the air.

All my life, I have been fighting against these two dangers and looking for a safe middle ground between color and space. I'm looking for a state in which I can enjoy life without being addicted and see through life without being negative. My writing is the process of seeking this state with the help of philosophy. Because I write about my own life, some people accuse me of revealing my privacy and writing important topics. These people are really narrow-minded, as if their lives were private property. I'm not that narrow-minded. In my opinion, it is through feeling and thinking that my life is no longer just my life, it has gained a universality.

Fundamentally speaking, God, God and nature gave me life. Everything in my life, including my experience, belongs to me alone. Everything can and should be the material to understand the meaning of life, so it belongs to everyone. So, isn't this a major theme? I've always wanted to write this book, and many people want me to write it. In fact, it already exists. I saw it when I opened the book of every wise man and awakened person in history. This is the fruit of my life. Please continue to eat what you choose. The rest belongs to myself, that's my best fruit. Even if I have nothing more for you to remember, I will provide you with more things to forget.