There was a time when I was a child, and I was very afraid of death. Probably everyone had a time when he was a teenager, and he had a fear of death. I used to have a very old-fashioned alarm clock, which was the kind of wind-up clock. It sounded loud when it walked, just like "ke ka ke ka ke ka". That year, I was about nine years old, and I was lying in my bed at home and heard "ke ke ke ka". Even if I do, how many seconds are there in my life? Then I was very scared at first. I began to cry in that dark night. I felt that if I counted all these numbers, I would die, so I was afraid of life, and I thought it would be lost.
In p>1999, I took a picture of [April day on earth], and I had a heart attack. When I was admitted to the hospital for the first time, I still remember clearly what the doctor told me. The doctor said: You have to be hospitalized now, because you may die suddenly at any time. I was 28 years old that year. I didn't expect that the concept of life and death suddenly became very close to me. At that time, my heartbeat was only thirty-three times a minute when I was sleeping. Later, people often asked me: How is my heartbeat now? I said it's still dancing! Just a little slow. Then I remembered what Xu Zhimo said before: As long as the heart still beats.
Time flies (piano)
When I live in (anzhen hospital), I can't sleep at night. I suddenly think, at such a age of 28, I suddenly wonder if I will face all this again tomorrow. I ran downstairs. There was a garden in that hospital, and there was a small artificial pond. It happened to be late autumn, and the leaves on the persimmons turned yellow, and some persimmons formed. I was under the persimmon tree, sitting on the edge of the small pond, smoking a cigarette. I knew that heart disease should not be smoked, and then I thought, it may be over, but at that time I didn't have a very exact understanding of how I should go again.
Time flies like water (harp)
Get less, and then make your life shorter. When you may no longer hope, the inevitable pain will accompany you to leave. I didn't say how bad that era was. I think today is wonderful. I also think it is a very happy thing that we can survive. But the question is how to face your life? Me, too. I used to hope that I could get more and more. Of course, I have that kind of firm persistence in life.
Time flies like water (piano+oboe)
One thing I really want to do today is to be able to exchange something to go back to a place you really want to go back to. I hope a magician will make an exchange with me and trade the last ten or twenty years of my life for that moment. I will definitely change. I will exchange all my later life for him and sit with you for a moment. I hope they will all be generous and considerate to me. Everyone loves me deeply, including some people who are no longer there.
Three-fourths of love
I met my first girlfriend in a shopping mall almost ten years after we parted. When we were in love, we always wrote love letters. At that time, both of us would put the letters in the same mailbox, and then the postman would give them to each other. Because it was a love letter, the love letter must be mailed, stamped and postmarked, and when we met in the store ten years later. I told my girlfriend that I just met my first girlfriend, and she said yes? I said we were all going to buy writing paper, and she said yes? I said, but we will never write a love letter for each other! She didn't speak, and neither did I.
I used to have her home phone number. I firmly believed that this number would never be forgotten in my life. Now I can't remember any number. I used to think that we would be together for life. We have been together for less than a year, and we thought about life too simply. At that time, I could not sleep, eat or do my homework every day, but I can't stop thinking about her. Today, I can't stop thinking about her every day.
Three-fourths love (piano)
I remember at that time, it was very cold in Beijing. We watched a movie together. It was so long, it was a Taiwan Province movie. I forgot its name. It was ugly, and it was not scary at all. So she put her frightened hand in mine, and I seemed to hold her hand as if nothing had happened. Then she said, Your hand is good. Then say that a kiss is equal to 3 calories. When we were in that snowy night in Beijing, the street lamp was miserably white, but the light at the far entrance was warm, her clothes were white, and she stood in the middle was golden. She turned around and said, Why don't you go? I stood in the most handsome posture I could imagine at that time on that snowy night, with one foot on the ground and one foot on the bicycle, and then my head held high. I felt very proud, like a nobleman, like coming to Montov or Pushkin. I said, I'm waiting. What did she say? I said calories. That smile is brilliant, the most brilliant smile you have ever seen in your life, that hug is the most urgent hug in your life, and that kiss is also the most wonderful kiss in your life. But I just forgot her home phone number, yes, that's it.
Three quarters of love (harp)
I remember that we walked into the corridor of the girls' dormitory. We were ridiculous. We were like a crazy teenager. The summer wind blew all the curtains of the doors, which were pink, blue, red and green, and all of them were blown up, like waving flags, welcoming my arrival. You walked through the corridor of the girls' dormitory.
Encounter
When the leaves in Beijing fell all over the floor, they were all poplar leaves. The cleaners piled them into mountains and swept them into piles. In my childhood memory, they were about three as tall as me and dozens as big as me. My parents tied the key to my house to a shoelace and hung it around my neck. The first thing I did after class was to follow my friends, Fox. My father borrowed a bicycle from a neighbor and took me to the leaf. My father and son moved the pile of leaves from this position to that position over there, but they didn't find the keys. Then, my father beat me up, because I lost a lot of keys, and the locks at home changed. After beating me up, I didn't feel sad at all, but felt very happy, because I found out for the first time that my father could ride a bike. It's almost autumn again, and the leaves are about to fall off. I don't know which leaf is the one I remember, and I don't know if the key made of aluminum has turned into soil. I don't know if I can still have a key to open my happy door.
Encounter (piano)
What is my happiness? Childhood is my happiness. In other words, I am happy when I don't know myself; I was happy when I wanted to know myself; I was happy when I didn't know anything about myself. When I was young, I didn't have a watch at that time. I would come with a ballpoint pen in the morning. Before going to school, I would draw a watch with a dial, hands, scale and bracelet, all of them. Then I would write a time, draw a time, then I would go to school, carry a schoolbag, and then I would suddenly walk, just like a psychopath, I would stop, and then I would lift my sleeves and look, but that was clearly me. This is my memory of happiness.
Encounter [harp]
I was a muddled teenager. When I was a teenager, I never recalled or fantasized. I just faced the wonderful world every day, and everything was new to me. I wanted to go anywhere. At that time, I was probably able to climb once and climb where I could, and then I did the bad things. I said I don't know. I didn't expect what I did today, and I still don't know what I will do tomorrow, but I know why I think so today, probably because of my personality. Today, I understand that it is like a train, which is going on a long journey. I don't want to sit at the front, I don't want to watch anything, and I don't want to stand at the rear to see the road. I just want to sit in the car.
Encounter [Affectionate]
I'm a little convinced that my best is over. Although what you see today is my best, it's not. When it comes to you, you don't know it. You just want to grow up quickly. I'm not ready to grow up either. This is the key, but I'm starting to grow up. Now I'm a little ready to face it. It's a little over, and the rest is nonsense.
Encounter [String]
Probably after I went to college, I felt that I had lost all my memories of childhood and adolescence. I only lived in the present. I just faced every day's life and then thought about what I should learn. I felt that I should grow up, get something, earn something, and be a good son, a good student and in what way.
what to do after meeting guitar
One day, I had a bold idea, which is actually very easy to realize, that is, to earn more money and then go to farm. We are all thinking about some strange things, because we don't know what we can think, and we know for sure that we don't know what we are going to do at all. The answer is no, I am one every day. But I am also a pessimistic optimist, and I think I am better than a pessimistic pessimist.
Meeting Guitar II
I am thirty-one years old this year. After many moments, I met my current girlfriend, and when we have been together for so many years and are ready to live a lifetime, I went to look back. I think every paragraph was wonderful and I will never forget it. But every paragraph is vague and I can't remember it completely, but I believe that all those things existed in a certain paragraph of my life. I'm not that me, I'm a lot of me, and we're just a shell with a lot of me in it. I was a child, I grew up slightly with rare words, I hated myself, I thought I was self-righteous, and I started to look at myself.
once
Plato wrote a book called "The Republic", in which it was said that there are several things that can drive human thinking. There are three kinds, one is to act according to desire, the other is to act according to emotion, and the other is to act according to wisdom. Those who rely on desire are greedy, those who rely on emotion are blind followers, and those who rely on wisdom are happy. Happiness is neither proportional nor inversely proportional to having, because it doesn't matter at all. Therefore, the owner is also suffering, and the owner is also suffering. Therefore, the owner is also happy, and the owner is also happy. It is as simple as that. Between them, there is only a moment, a moment has existed, and then it becomes called the aftertaste of happiness and the yearning for happiness.
Once upon a time (piano)
Actually, everyone's experience is very complicated, but we suddenly have a pair of eyes, and what we see is not the world that our eyes see now. We are looking at another world, which you have experienced in knowledge, but has been transformed by your thoughts and emotions. You will look at it with another pair of eyes, and you will be particularly fascinated and devoted to it. I'm thinking, if one day I see an old man, very old, sitting at his door, it's already dark, maybe I'm one of them, how do you know what he's thinking? How can you know what kind of life he has experienced? Our self-righteousness, our affectation, we all think that we are very familiar and happy people. I don't think so, and I don't think so, so I have to thank my life. These people I met can listen to or understand each other, and I also try to understand them in a way.
once (string+flute)
We accidentally fell in love with our first love, and we accidentally fell in love with a wonderful moment; Accidentally falling in love with a son, accidentally falling in love with a family, accidentally falling in love with stability, carelessly, all by accident, all by accident, not by a teenager. I think everything in the world starts when you are not ready, and ends when you are ready.
The classic dialogue at the end of the film
stayed here all my life, and I really got to know everything here.
I finally understood why you came and why you left that year.
The beauty here is lost and desperate.
It is the trace left by the passing of time.
In fact, our names have long been engraved on the monument wall of Wuzhen. It should end like this.
We loved,
In the past years of youth, we cherished that love,
and tried to prove that love is something that can have no reason, no distance and no answer.
At least we did it, and not only we did it, but so did they.
There was a poet named Nie Luda,
he said.
Isn't it true that our love will not be as clear, brave and strong as the branches in the northern winter until the frost-dyed moss passes away?
We are all in a water town in Ceng Zui,
Time is like water,
Time is like water (soundtrack):
I hope I get less and less, and so do I. About all my impressions are in the gap between every job and that job. For example, in 1995, I was filming "A New Midnight Song", and then, after a few months, I was arranging school plays, and then I