She not only shared my pain, but also gave me a lot of comfort and encouragement. ...I walked in and saw her face, and all the dark clouds in my mind dissipated. I can confide any grievances or complaints I have to her. ... She constantly comforted me, expressed trust in me, and felt unfair for me. ...Today, when I think back to the scene at that time, her tear-stained face is still vivid in front of my eyes. How willing I am to let her tears disappear and the smile reappear on her haggard face, even if I lose a few years of my life in exchange for a peaceful night in our family life, I am willing to do so!
She left me for twelve years. Twelve years, such long days and nights. Every time I come home, a smiling face appears in front of me and a friendly voice greets me. However, when I walk into the yard, I only see some tall and short green trees without flowers. When I got up the steps, I looked around. The scene of her leaving home for the last time was still vivid in my mind...
I seemed to be standing on the steps waiting for the car to approach, waiting for someone to come back. Such a long wait. Twelve years. Even in my dream I couldn't hear her clear laughter. All I remember is the children carrying her urn home. This urn was originally placed in my bedroom downstairs on the chest of drawers in front of my bed.
Sadness is useless. I have to end all those dreams. I should cheer up, even for the last time. The urn is still in my home, and my dear face is still imprinted on my heart. She will not leave me and has never left me. Having been a "cow ghost" for ten years, I don't feel alone. I still have the courage to take steps towards my ultimate goal - death. My relics will be dedicated to the country, and my ashes will be mixed with her ashes and spread in the garden as fertilizer for the flowers and trees.