If the person I like is a non-mainstream person, I will definitely feel that I am old.

If the person I like is a non-mainstream person, he must have a non-mainstream dress, hairstyle and personality. I will definitely think he is cool, but at the same time I will lament that I am old because I can no longer pretend to feel that way. In front of him, I will definitely feel ashamed because I am no longer young, so I will feel a little inferior. Even in the eyes of others, I am still a young and fresh girl, but I really can no longer pretend to be that non-mainstream feeling. When the person I like stands in front of me, I will definitely feel that I am not worthy of him.

In my heart, if you like someone, you have to become like him, but I can no longer become like him, nor can I tell the sadness with him coolly and eloquently. text. I think I will become particularly cute in front of him. I will find that apart from being cute, I will become useless. In front of him, I will definitely sink into the dust.

I remember when I was 18 years old, I also liked to act non-mainstream. I had a non-mainstream perm, wore non-mainstream clothes, occasionally wore non-mainstream makeup, and even spoke in a non-mainstream tone. It felt cool, and I felt confident wherever I went. It felt so good to be young at that time. . Those who are older than me can't pretend to be unconventional, but I can easily control it. When I stand in front of others, I feel that I am very young, and others are uncles and aunties in front of me.

Now I am no longer 18 years old. When the person I like stands in front of me, I will definitely feel ashamed. I lament that time flies by so fast, and I can no longer change back to being a non-mainstream person. I feel a deep helplessness.