The last article in Shen Kaini's growth diary is good night and heartache? Will there be any updates in the future?

This should be the last chapter or the beginning of Shen Kaini's growth diary II.

Diary of Shen Kaini's Growth II-Preface-Keep me warm

The night when I first wrote Shen Kenni's growth diary was also this time last year.

At that time, I was in my father's office and Shen Yulun was in a hotel a few kilometers away from me. He came to my city to find me at that time. I had just finished treating depression and returned to my dad's company.

I went through the most terrible period of my life. I either frantically explain to people around me what depression is, or draw the curtains and cover the sky with my thoughts. I was disgusting and tried to explain to them, "I'm not pretending to be crazy, I'm not being melodramatic, I'm just unhappy."

That day, my best friend looked at me with contempt. She still doesn't understand. Her eyes were confused and pitied. The moment she bowed her head, I knew she thought I was schizophrenic.

This look completely hurts me.

So, after the treatment of depression, I packed my bags and left there, returning to the most unhappy place in my life-home.

I don't want to contact anyone again. Depression makes me extremely difficult to get along with.

One day, I suddenly wanted to contact my former lover. I think, after all, we love each other, and they may understand me. In fact, I have had several lovers, and they will all appear in the growth log in the future.

Before I got in touch with Shen Yulun, we had completely lost contact because of years of entanglement and mutual harm.

I took my mobile phone and told him in the garden of my dad's factory: "I'm sick, and now I'm going back to my dad to recuperate." I have returned to China. I'm sorry. "

He hung up the phone and rushed to my side. He hasn't changed at all, and he can turn the world upside down for me.

But the first time I saw him, I started to get angry with him, which was mean. He didn't know me, and then I left. That night, that is, the night when I started to publish my growth diary, my personality was incomplete. Many people didn't like me because of my complicated handling of feelings, which I know, but even so, I was still me.

I think, Shen Kenni, you need to tidy up, these years, these things, so many people, so many relationships and feelings.

During that time, Shen Yulun was always by my side. Last Spring Festival, we began to quarrel again. When he punched the elevator, I suddenly felt bad, because I punched him right away, and then he said, "My Lord, forgive me!" " He grinned and smiled strangely again.

He said he would take me away, but I refused. I feel that I have wandered in so many places in my life and have never been home. Maybe my destiny is to finally return to my parents.

During that time, my relationship with my parents eased a little, and then I had my own company-of course, my parents prepared it for me, and the company that produced mechanical engineering came from my father's side; My mother thinks that I have a background in studying abroad, and import and export is my handy job. She funded me to set up my own company. She said, "From today on, you need to support yourself. This company belongs to you alone, and your competitor is me-your mother. "

At that time, Shen Yulun and I talked on the phone every day.

Of course, during that time, a large number of Kenny appeared around me. One of the things I do most every day is to read the information they give me. Finally, love really cured everything. Thank you!

More and more people say to me: you should be with him. How many years have you been?

A Niu (my nickname), there can't be a second Shen Yulun in this world. Your biggest loss is that you are not with him. You want to make money, but what you need most now is to grasp the person in front of you.

Shen Yulun and I used to be together, but later it became irreversible because too many things happened between us, such as he burned cigarette butts on my arm, which reminded me of my dad constantly.

Of course, the premise is that I deliberately provoked him, or I don't want to say "I love you".

Love can destroy him, I have long known.

For another example, I thought that the coastal area after my life would be the Atlantic Ocean. At this time, the ocean not far from him is called the Pacific Ocean, and we are separated by continents and oceans.

Earlier, last summer, I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, the boy you saw kissing me in the video. I tried every means to torture him, such as adding a lot of QQ trumpet to him and creating an illusory and luxurious space for him. Watching him fall for it again and again, my revenge became addictive because he slept with my best friend. I want to tell you that this is really not a dog blood story, but for many Kenyans, it is no secret.

The day I know, I was in England. A very good friend of mine is called "Bashu Fish" (the name I gave her) and she will take the IELTS test that day. I called her early in the morning and said, "Bashu, I didn't sleep until now. They went to bed. I told you, I shouldn't make wild guesses. In the end, I guessed right. I logged into his account on Taobao and saw the chocolate he sent. He admitted having sex. Do you know how disgusting I am now? This feeling is like making you a cup of air-dried octopus milk tea. How fishy! I don't know who else to turn to. Can you come to my house to accompany me? "

The hard part is that I can't cry.

Really, not a tear.

So after all this, I feel that my life is nirvana. I have seen all kinds of goblins and ghosts, and I have a feeling that I have finally become a Buddha in the western world after all kinds of hardships.

When Shen Yulun asked to be together again, I suddenly felt that I might not need it. I just want to make money.

Then, we talked on the phone every day, and the bad thing happened was that I always called him carelessly: "Husband, help me ..." One night in May, I went downstairs, lay on the ground of the community and saw this sky.

If you go to see my Weibo, you will know that I was watching the sky that night, alone, wearing short sleeves and slippers. The community is beautiful, full of green trees, streams, and the grassland in Kobanawa. There is no one there.

At this time, I went back to another city to visit my friends.

A few days later, I made a decision: to live with Shen Yulun, whether I marry him or he marries me, whether I marry him or he marries me, I need him, and only he can bring me back to life.

I don't want my company. When he is ready to sacrifice for me again and then give up (he is ready to transfer the company to me), I decided to give him a lifetime, only one person. I ran to the airport and told him what my hair looks like today and how he needs to appear.

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We live together.

Later, my desktop (his photo) was exposed in the post bar. That night, he said he would accompany me out to see the world. He cancelled Tencent and came to Sina. Then, you met him. I am glad that most of you like him very much.

Later news?

If you are in a hurry, you can see my Weibo; If you are not in a hurry, please wait for the update of Shen Kaini's growth diary!

At the moment, I'm sitting in the upstairs room, banging on the keyboard, trying to write Shen ⅱ, and now he's downstairs teasing our cat and dog.

The update of "God II" is destined to be carried out in such an environment, but I will still restore all the specific situations at that time, which may involve every relationship of mine, so things may not unfold smoothly and sweetly as you expected.

But thanks to all those who care about Shen Kaini's growth diary, I will continue to write my story for you. Time back to the end of senior one:

My name is Shen Kenni, AB blood type, Capricorn. Less than a year ago today, I came to this city and began to experience spring, summer, autumn and winter. The weather here is different from that in my hometown. At home, the sky is always high and the wind is always clear. Such an environment always gives people the illusion that it will not be pushed down. But this city is not. The sky here is often gray, and the smog has turned into a huge tent, wrapping the whole city. It is doomed that we can't see the moon and stars in the center of the city.

I am madly in love with someone. His name is Li Haoran, my noble brother.

On the afternoon when the house was full of gold, he raised his mouth on the platform. His mouth was still warm when his eyes met. For a boy like me, these gentle attacks are fatal.

I long for such gentle care, when my father starts to pull my hair against the wall again;

I long for this temperature, when my mother suddenly gave me shoes that didn't fit me, two yards smaller;

I am eager to hold such tenderness in my arms, after not contacting my family for nearly half a year.

Maybe only he can cure me again, otherwise, how can I be willing to jump from the second floor to the first floor, shake hands in the cold wind, meet him for the first time, and I won't be able to speak for a long time after my dad scared me to incontinence in front of him for the first time.

Anyone who sees this scene may not be like this, but that person happens to be Li Haoran.

Then there was silence for a month. The first sentence actually tore Shen Yulun's heart into pieces: "Haoran brother, don't go."

He had a girlfriend named Sydney before, and the day before school started, they parted ways.

I got up the courage to confess to Li Haoran during recess, and he always reluctantly responded to me. He doesn't hate me, at least we can have an intimate relationship smoothly, although only once.

He is always angry when he mentions Betty, but he still thinks about her. Otherwise, there will be their photos at his bedside, and there will be no photos of her in the computer file. It's ridiculous that a boy likes a boy who has another girl in his heart now.

The way of love, there is no retreat, even if the torch is lit and the moth is put to the fire, we must go forward, unrecognizable, burned, bloody, fragmented and fragmented, which may be the best sacrifice of love. Maybe it is love to love in this way.

Of course, it is also possible that one day, he Li Haoran can really say I love you, Shen Kenni, which will be the best trophy in this love battle.

In this school, I also met another boy. His name is Shen Yulun. When he first said to me in the dormitory, "My brother is pure 1." At that time, I tried to let my guard down and communicate with him, hehe, it turned out that I could meet the same kind so easily.

His face and mood change quickly. One second, he can kindly hand you the strawberry cake he prepared for you, call you baby, take off your clothes and let you touch his muscles, and then invite you to his birthday party.

The next second, he can make a hullabaloo about and cut open the protruding blood vessels on his arm with glass fragments to force you to speak. The next second, he is already staring at you with red eyes and disappointment. His eyes are not sharp at all, and he becomes absent-minded and non-aggressive.

He can kneel on the ground and beg for mercy with a fake smile, or he can declare war on the world for you with a solemn expression when you are hurt. Compared with what he pays, what he wants is actually very little.

He can take care of you all night, or he can be the last person to lose for you. Beneath his cold face is a simple heart. His love is solipsistic, overbearing and intense. Love can easily destroy him, but in order to get the love he wants, he can go to heaven and earth like the jade emperor.

So, one night, we walked from the bar to the street together. In the dim light, when we were kissing on the ground, I couldn't remember the warmth of Li Haoran. At that second, I knew that my entanglement with him in my life was doomed, because I was fascinated by that comment:

Time back to the end of senior one: