Taking steroids can cure colds. What should heartache eat?

All right, put a band-aid on your heart.

By the way, one may recover slowly, so post two.

I was startled when I looked in the mirror.

My face is paler than usual, my eyes are swollen and bloodshot.

It's ugly. Is this me?

You must stop being ugly.

Start my new life beautifully.

Yes

Put on pajamas first.

This white robe makes me look more like a ghost.

I am old before I grow up.

So I decided to make up for my adolescence.

From now on.

My name is Ceekay.

16 years old.

I like black.

Long nails.

I am a promising child.

I smoke more than some adult men.

I have dark circles.

I don't think happiness is that easy.

I am lovelorn.

I ...

I slept for a while.

Even with alcohol and sleeping pills, I woke up.

I must admit that I still feel pain.

But it's normal.

I give myself a day. One day at most.

We must become better.

I came home at 3: 30 in the morning and started to keep a diary.

Excited and a little disappointed to plan my new life.

It would be more perfect if it were cloudy tomorrow.

I'm going to have my hair cut in the morning.

What can I do without me? They will degenerate and grow messy branches.

Then cut your nails.

Not at all.

Cut it all off.

I've kept it for a long time, and now it's a little annoying.

For example, every time I wear contact lenses, my nails are too long and I almost pull my eyes out.

By the way, maybe I should buy some silver eye shadow.

My dark circles will not look so good after a long time.

Cover it up.

If my emotions heal faster, I should reward myself.

Kissing in the mirror or something.

Then call Blackie and tell him I'm fine.

When I am crazy, only he will be scared crazy by me.

He's old. Every time I scare him, he gets older.

Like last night, I squatted on the street corner crying at midnight 1 o'clock. I called him and told him I was going to jump into the river.

Blackie's voice trembled with fear and she began to stammer.

That poor old guy.

What would he do without me?

What would I do without him?

This is all I have left.

My best friend, Blackie.

I really want to hold him. It's disgusting.

I should learn to run.

You know, as a big star in the future, it is impossible to work hard.

You have to run to have a big lung capacity.

How much I love music.

Music will love me too.

How nice I am.

Fools don't like me.

Before that, I was just unlucky and fell in love with a fool among fools.

You see, how miserable I have tortured myself.

Now I'm getting better.

After all, there are not many fools in this world.

Just don't meet any more fools. The whole world belongs to me.

In fact, lovelorn people have the most right to lose their temper.

But how humble I am.

I have to sign a contract for that fool who broke my heart.

Forget it.

generous ...

Write it. After all, stupidity is not his fault.

Fuck it.

This is the first day of my adolescence.

I'm awake.

I want to forget what I should forget.

That's the decision.

The big stars of the future finally began to thrive.

Come on, come on. ! !

-

—2004.4.26

At lunch, Aunt Liu said that Mom and Dad were having trouble again.

Mom will come back to see me in a few days.

I gave Liu a helpless smile. What else can I say?

Ran Ran's cram school is almost over, come back soon.

The family suddenly became lively. In the afternoon, she likes to invite some of her classmates to play at home.

Ran Ran will miss her for a long time when she is away.

It's noisy now.

This is what people do. It's weird.

I have stopped taking medicine for three or four days.

Drugs that have no effect on detoxification except making people sleepy. Just don't eat.

And that black and white gram, it makes me edema badly.

The injection stopped at 300 ml, and the body was still very excited and depressed.

I tried to smoke at night, but I was shaking all over. There is still no way.

I forgot to sterilize the needle these two days, and I couldn't stop bleeding after I finished playing.

I read the report that someone was injected with venous sclerosis. A little scared.

Stagnation has come. Go to see Dr. Tang the day after tomorrow to prescribe medicine again. Come and have an intravenous drip.

Still don't want to hit the left hand. The right arm is full of pinholes.

Dr. Tang said that he was a little anorexic and his immunity was much worse after a long time.

But nobody mentioned that topic. I should thank him.

Panda's good friend had an accident and left.

Things have changed.

Very lively girl. Only seventeen years old. Her parents found the panda on the day of the accident. I cried my eyes out.

The panda couldn't react for a long time. She said it was like a dream.

She has been very sad these days. I don't know how to comfort her. I can only say that she should be left alone.

Do you know that pandas cry and say idols on QQ?

I still feel like a dream, thinking that I can see her after school and that the newly bought DVD is still waiting for her to come to my house to watch.

Yes, be good, it's okay, it's okay …

It's no use feeling good about yourself. Can't even comfort a person. ...

Life is very strong, but a sudden accident will make life very small and fragile.

No one can resist.

Beibei ... Don't you think so?

-

I was flustered in the afternoon.

Something really happened at night. This is the fourth time, the first time it was her, and the second time it was a miscarriage.

The third time is you, and the fourth time is fish.

Four stitches in the car accident. She was afraid of being scolded by her grandmother and was dirty when she came to my house.

I fell asleep with her, and suddenly I was afraid. Thinking of panda's friends, life is so fragile …

Fortunately, the fish is fine.

Watch Zhou Lili MV at dawn.

Very quiet, desolate singing involves auditory nerve, drinking water and smoking for two hours.

I don't feel bad about wasting time like this. When I miss you, they become close to me, which makes me very happy.

Dear, I do these boring and interesting things every day.

I am always absent-minded when you talk to me. But I never let my heart leave you for a second. Really.

When you sleep,

I often walk around the empty room in my pajamas and look very busy. But nothing was done.

I'll leave my computer on and the music won't stop. Or sit in front of the computer and watch movies most of the day.

Looking over and over at Suzhou Creek, and cherry granules.

I'll click on your head in a minute. Open it, then close it. Open it, then close it. Nothing will be said. This seems to be a habit.

She is no longer so brave when she was in Suzhou Creek. I've never been able to amplify happiness like cherry maruko.

If one day, I do it, will you love me more?

The heart will suddenly become transparent at a certain moment.

I have seen all our changes.

I will analyze this point slowly, but I will always be interrupted by some sudden happiness or sadness.

You love me. You don't love me.

These have become sensitive factors to control my emotions.

When tears are about to fall, I look cold and indifferent in front of you. It is the thin and fragile shell of mollusks.

I forget when you started to form this habit. When you feel heartbroken, you will put a band-aid on your heart.

You always laugh at me and call me stupid.

There are always hallucinations. I felt someone knocking at the door in the middle of the night.

When the curtains were opened at dawn, the sun suddenly flashed in without warning and slammed on my face.

At that second, you can still hear tiny dust particles tearing in the air.

I closed the curtains, and my eyes were closed for a long time and I dared not open them. A little dizzy.

I told everyone who asked me about my loneliness that I should learn to enjoy it. So I am very happy.

But I know I'm scared at this moment. I just want to tell you. Only you, I love you, but you have given me a deep unspeakable loneliness.

I can't and I don't want to resist.

Because that's part of the love you gave me …

But Beibei, will you be lonely for me?

-

It's been two days.

Still in a trance, a person is stubborn and silly in his dream.

Nothing seems to have changed, it seems that the next second you will appear and say that my wife is coming …

I am peacefully immersed in my dream.

I think you just went to bed, one hour, two hours later, in short, you will get up, you never left.

I sat in front of the computer, imagining that I was just waiting for you to get up.

Just waiting for you to get up. ...

You must be too tired to sleep this time. When you wake up, I will pretend to be angry and tell you that I am a little sad to wait.

Then, then, as usual, you will say, all right, Shao, be good and stop doing it.

I keep telling myself, don't be afraid, and so on.

You should get up at once.

-began to pay attention to a boy.

Added my QQ and hardly talked to me.

In the diary of my beloved blog for two months, it's all about me.

I saw it occasionally, so I began to form a habit.

He always goes to read his diary when he is in a bad mood.

Make yourself a little happier.

I am very happy.

At least someone likes me.

Maybe I'll never talk to him, and no one has looked for anyone.

But the gentleness of this stranger made me in a trance.

What kind of feeling is this?

At a loss, warm, vain, slightly short of breath.

Ceekay, you are great.

Don't be so insecure.

I told you, you are a good girl. Don't believe any slander that discriminates against the opposite sex.

Don't you feel your heart beating?

-

On the Mid-Autumn Festival in Long Ze, something happened in Changsha.

Xia Bo was a little scared when she called me and told me that night. At that time, she was recuperating with her grandmother and couldn't get away.

Sent a text message to Xiaoyan.

I don't know what my mentality is, but I'm probably in helpless anxiety and want to find someone to worry with me.

I ended up doing something stupid.

A girl has been thinking endlessly since the Mid-Autumn Festival, worrying about our dragon master.

Let my already anxious heart be infinitely anxious.

But what can we do for you now?

If you do something wrong, you will always be punished.

Isn't that right, Long Zeyu?

The company has a new security guard.

It's called Xiupu.

Xiupu keeps a very cheap cat.

I heard it's only been more than two months.

You laugh and scream at everyone. Thought it would be scary or something.

Xiupu feeds it dried fish every day. Rib rice

Eat luxuriously.

Xiupu was on a business trip yesterday afternoon. Before going to work, she asked a colleague to help feed the kitten.

Later, my colleagues were busy reporting the plan, and I happened to be idle next to her with a sad face.

So the task of feeding the little female cat fell on me.

Then tragedy happened.

I just reached out and handed the fish to it, and my expression was cool.

Probably accustomed to the warm eyes full of maternal love at ordinary times.

When I didn't react, I bit my index finger and scratched a small hole.

Don't forget to pick up the dried fish and swallow it when you finish biting it.

Well, it's not so shameful to be bitten by a two-month-old female cat.

Shamefully, because of this, I was dragged by my colleagues to get a tetanus shot.

When the doctor in the clinic asked me why, I really didn't have the courage to say it.

I won't complain much.

Depressed to silence.

Please look at the original picture of the murderer.

-

National Day is only three days away.

The day before the holiday, there happened to be something wrong with the company's computer switchboard software database.

Resulting in data loss for nearly half a month.

So I was called to the company to work overtime.

Two afternoons in a row, plus a whole night.

The holiday was ruined.

I'm here to thank all the people who said happy National Day to me.

Or a serious lack of sleep.

After all, from 1 to now, I have hardly slept for three hours a day on average.

I can probably hold on for a few days until the rest day and have a good sleep.

Last night, I stayed up all night and finished recording this song with Guang Guang.

I swear I've never cried so hungry in a song in my life.

This made me realize in hindsight that I didn't succeed in my gender change in the end.

What a poignant fact.

Then Guang Guang introduced this song on his homepage. This song is a surprise. I heard the CK sound that I don't usually hear.

That's true.

Guang Guang's classmates devoted themselves to the production of "The Last Night", which clearly amplified the sniffling in my crying track.

Sure enough, it is the voice of CK that you can't hear at ordinary times.

Can't sleep.

There is also flammability. There is a saying on Q, and there is no gossip.

Take a fancy to his new three snakes.

More beautiful than the lizard that took a fancy to his family a year ago.

Sexy as hell.

The gap between hell and heaven is really big.

Losers are bitten by bitches and cats, and happy people are surrounded by lovely snakes.

I plan to go back to Long Ze Yu in Changsha in a couple of days, and see if I can get from Flammable Home A to Black and White Snake King. (It seems to be the name of this bird)

It's really not easy to get something from a flammable classmate.

We must think of a good way.

For example, 1: If you don't give me a snake, I will sing instead of giving you a female voice.

2: if you don't give me a snake, just XX your mother.

Something like that

The night is long, plan first.

Wash your hands and wait for me. Thank you.

To show my sincerity, I posted a photo of my goal here.

By the way, I have to mention that Xiao Shao's sexy eyes are rare, which tempts me ... If you don't bring your snake, you will be too sorry for your expectations for me for many years.

Keeping a diary recently is like keeping a running account.

Really mentally ill.

Why are you so tired and sore all day? I am too lazy to think about things.

Old e said the role of alcohol.

Maybe this is right.

I'm really going to become a bucket.

By the way, add a happy birthday to little T.

All right, it's done.

-

I am really busy. I haven't even had time to take pictures of the couple.

This is the back of a happy word taken in a ridiculous float on the way to pick up relatives.

It is not easy to explain for a few friends who are clamoring for more wedding photos.

Or, I really don't want to film that boring salute.

Attended a terrible wedding.

As a bridesmaid.

The groom is a childhood friend, Brother Huo Zi, who grew up in the same big yard before he was six years old.

The bride met for the first time.

Ordinary looking.

But the smile is sweet. People are also kind.

Old people have many rules.

Western-style weddings should worship heaven and earth from beginning to end.

Neither fish nor fowl.

The maid of honor chosen by dopted mother for me is really afraid to wear that yellow skirt.

Pretending to forget to bring it, I wore a short military uniform. At least not stumbling.

Old people don't whisper less, what a scandal. Nothing serious.

Jokes.

You became a scandal, but you made a mess of the wedding.

The bride and groom are stiff from beginning to end, and their expressions are stiff. They are afraid that an carelessness will destroy your manners.

How tired. How boring.

Maybe this is the wedding night, and you must stand by and manipulate what posture they should use.

Just writing ideas.

It was basically silent that day.

Except for the unsatisfactory appearance of clothes, everything else should be decent.

From five o'clock in the morning, I will send the bride to Xiangxiang to pick her up, return to the groom's city, take an umbrella and accompany her upstairs. After the ceremony, I will help the couple make the bed and light candles with the best man.

No mistakes, barely passed.

2008- 10- 10 04:05:42

-Han Kerui | Reply.

[10 floor]:

I met Yaya at the wedding reception.

Pupils.

Three years in the same class, to be exact.

Preschool, grade one, grade two.

Until the third grade, I transferred to another school and left.

I grew up together.

I was bullied badly at that time.

Yaya used to be a strong child.

I always take some girls from my class with me. Tear up my exercise book, pull my hair or something.

I don't know how to complain. At first I just cried, but then I held back my tears. Bear it silently.

So the children became more and more excited, amused and bullied.

Yaya is the standard little devil leader among those children.

I haven't seen you for years.

I almost didn't recognize it.

A girl with fine features, petite figure, petite face and watery spirit.

Act like a lady.

Hook my arm and tell me how to hit me when I was a child.

I put on a hedgehog head and a man's coat and stood next to her, smirking with a crooked mouth.

There are as many men and women as you want.

-

Go home.

Lack of sleep, plus several short trips in two days.

See stars.

Take a bath with heavy makeup on your face.

COMB called me to get MAYA's sound card for dinner.

When I hurried to the orange concept, I finally met COMB.

Thought it was an old man.

I didn't expect to wear a pair of black-rimmed glasses, just like a literary youth.

I brought a notebook. Standard professional posture.

After eating for two and a half hours, I talked about music, work and his girlfriend.

I took a sound card and some recording and arranging software given by COMB.

I can't believe I said it was time to go home.

How rude.

I'm just so tired.

Otherwise, I really want to be invited to play video games together.

Supplement:

I forgot to say something important when I went home.

Thank you.

Make up here.

He was very busy, so he took time to send his sound card and invited him to dinner.

A little sorry.

Record four.

The physiological period came on the wedding day of Huozi's brother.

How auspicious.

Big red.

How happy those old men and women will be when they know.

My stomach hurts again, hurts, hurts, hurts.

It's time to start recording songs of peace and light.

His part has been recorded.

I have put it off for a long time.

I'm really sorry for the delay.

The tongue is petrified.

Abdominal colic.

The more I want to record, the more I can't enter the state.

Although the lyrics are erotic, I hope to record them sincerely and seriously.

Time.

I need time.

A little more time.

Forgive me, naked wife.

-

Woke up this morning, will be the peak of physiological abdominal pain.

It cannot be moved.

Can't go to the company.

Wages have been rising.

This month's new drug commission and bonus have flown away.

My terrible savings plan.

I really hate myself for being such a stubborn donkey.

But no regrets.

Struggle once in a while I feel very keen about myself.

I have to pay my debts this month.

Otherwise, my fantasy master will sell me to the Red Chamber. He said it was called a brothel. )

Recently, I like to play crying Cinderella for my master endlessly.

Then save enough money before the end of the year to make me happy and then think about my future life.

Well, a cold joke is not a cold joke if it is not cold.

You must buy important things for important people.

Finally let me imagine.

Finally, I saved a huge sum of money on my own powerful and invincible strength.

Take grandma to live on the moon.

Just me and her.

Cure grandma's cancer.

Record six.

We agreed to cut our hair short last month.

The time has been set.

And then I forgot in a hurry.

Do your hair before the end of the month.

Aunt has used a warm new adjective like Mei Chaofeng this month.

For world peace.

I don't mind shaving my head.

-

I logged into an old MSN account that I haven't logged in for a long time.

32 emails.

27 of them are yours.

Just like you said before.

I may really be missing a heart.

Always forget so many important things.

It seems like a lifetime ago.

I just don't have the faint joy of receiving candy yesterday.

Joe (name) ...

How long has it been since we talked?

So that now I am still habitually retaliating for harm.

You are still habitually tolerant of giving in again and again.

Your friends are starting to hate me.

Even, maybe even my friend.

Our friends.

Long Zeyu, Cindy Lee, Lao E. ..

They always ask me, are you enough? Joe, that's pathetic.

That's enough.

Actually, it should have been enough a long time ago.

I just got used to it before I knew it.

Forgot to leave. Forgot to stop.

I forgot to tell you clearly.

I know, always know your mood.

Profound, like the slap in the face that was burned in my face.

I never deliberately ignored the shock and regret in your eyes that day and that second.

I only choose to remember that I'm going crazy.

You are so gentle.

I trust you completely.

Give me so much warm you.

Fragmented.

Just like the set of crystal cups that were broken that day.

If you hurt yourself, you will be hurt.

Then I will hurt myself and laugh at the same time.

Stupid?

number

Only you and I know.

I did it.

Bad guys.

How can you force me to quit these?

Those, let me see her spiritual food?

You should know best that all the things that make you afraid and disgusted are the forces that once supported me to continue breathing.

You see, I always bring this up with an aggrieved tone.

This is also a habit of yours.

I don't need to apologize.

Just because you hurt me first.

Whatever your starting point is.

I just want to say that all this has stopped.

I will finish it.

I obviously can't go back.

Obviously, I lost myself in the process.

This is the punishment I deserve.

We're even, okay?

Starting today, pull me out of your world.

As you promised before, you can't leave me or ignore me without my permission.

Remember?

You used to laugh like a fool and swear like that.

So now, I allow you to leave.

Make you happy.

-

I have a stomachache.

Weird posture froze in the soft chair.

Sweating all over.

Probably hungry.

I stood up in high spirits and went to find some baking soda cookies to eat.

My stomach is cramped.

Rush into the bathroom and retch.

I can't spit anything out.

I can only habitually squat down and pick my throat.

When I put my finger in, I felt sick.

Finally spit it out, and the gastric juice lubricated the esophagus.

I just want to get rid of this discomfort.

Digging for a minute or two, the fingertips are getting harder and harder.

There are blood drops on the white tiles.

I don't know if my nails hurt my throat or I have a nosebleed.

In short, the throat and nose began to spray blood, mixed with stomach acid and filth.

Your face and hands are covered with blood and saliva.

I am hysterical. I just want to throw up everything in my stomach, so I will feel better.

My eyes are black when I stand up.

Stumbling against the wall for a while.

I stared vaguely at myself in the bathroom mirror.

This scene is repeated almost every year.

I'm so tired.

What festival is it today?

It seems to be New Year's Eve.

Fireworks were set off everywhere, and the night outside the window was like day.

Ears, but can't hear any sound.

The nosebleed is still running.

Slip through the corners of your mouth, drop down your chin and drop on your collarbone and chest.

Sweet smell of fish.

Wash your face with cold water at will.

He cocked his neck motionless and finally stopped the nosebleed.

Go back to your room.

Go online.

The dim light of the computer.

Look at her signature and make fun of Mr. and Mrs. White.

After watching her for a long time, she is still a door.

Suddenly I cried.

These are just some remnants of her diary. ...