I admit that I really didn't get any good grades this year and spent too much time on emotional pain. No one knows how sad I am, but the pain did accompany me for half a year. At first, I couldn't get rid of it. In the middle, I was tired of this shadowy haze and tried my best to get rid of it. However, the more I struggle, the more I can't get rid of the cage. Finally, I slowly learned to compromise, and I realized that I couldn't get rid of it for a while. Don't force it. Time will give me the answer. It's been a long time. I haven't completely broken free, but I no longer feel suffocated. I believe in time. No good grades, no gains. I already know how important it is to be a reassuring person. I also know how to be a person with peace of mind. Let the dead people and things go. This truth was known many years ago, but it is only now that I really understand it. It turns out that knowing and understanding are never the same thing. I want to change with my age.
Although this year has been bumpy, people around me and friends I haven't contacted for a long time have given me a lot of encouragement and troubled my friends many times. I appreciate it, and I hope they won't dislike me.
Contact the law of gravity and know the truth of the operation of the universe. At first, I thought I knew too many rules, but I was overwhelmed by them. Slowly, I learned more about the rules, and then I came out of the cage I had woven. Although it was not an epiphany, it was still a rude awakening. The energy of the universe is infinite, and there will always be echoes. Only when I really let go and feel calm will the echo be sent to me. All I can do is wait for time to make myself stronger, calmer, gentler and more powerful. As the Snow Queen said, "This move will fly in the sky and will be invincible in the world." At first, I was always annoyed. Why didn't you let me know this a few years ago? But on second thought, isn't this truth always on the lips of getting married every day? Didn't you hear about it long ago? Didn't you often laugh at them before that? So back to what I said before, knowing and understanding this is not the same thing. I know. Will it work? Don't you need time and experience for it? There has never been anything delivered to your door for free in this world. Even if I gave it to you, you wouldn't use it. You must pay the price.
Say abstract, say concrete.
From June to August, in order to work, I often work overtime until the early hours of the morning, which can temporarily paralyze myself. Although it is painful to work overtime, I can at least temporarily put aside those emotions; Although the mood will come back in the future, at least it is not wasted. I am trying to keep myself in a state of progress, although it is not particularly good, but I know I have tried my best.
On August 6, during the public holiday, I finally got out of the suffocating air in this small town that had suffocated me for several months and went out to feel the breath of other cities for a while. In a few hours on the same day, I traveled to three airports, went to Hangzhou, Hengdian, the crew and Guilin, met the people I wanted to see, did what I wanted to do, and got Leo's signature photo ... Everything in Hangzhou and Hengdian was so beautiful that I thought I had completely forgotten it. Ha, I was still sad when I came back, but I'm fine now. It's okay. Time is a good thing.
165438+1At the beginning of October, I went to take the teacher qualification examination at 5 o'clock in the morning on the premise that I had a mental breakdown and wanted to give up. I didn't do 100% in this exam, which is one of the reasons for my mental breakdown. I was not prepared, which coincided with my busy work, which led me to abandon the exam. Fortunately, I didn't give up in the end, and I bullet through three exams. The result is better than expected. Although I didn't pass all of them, I passed at least two subjects. As far as my efforts in this exam are concerned, this is a gift from God. I didn't study the professional subject I thought I was most sure of (after all, I only studied for two days), which also told me that nothing was sure. Only by doing it in a down-to-earth manner can I be sure. Koi fish and luck only happen to those who are prepared. But at least next year, I only need to go bald for a professional course. This is not a pity, because I didn't try my best.
Later, by chance, I contacted my former senior sister and received two translations. The total income should be about 1200. I haven't translated for many years, which is too crude. I hope Party A's father won't be disgusted, and will study hard to do his best in the future. Lost majors will be picked up bit by bit. There will be opportunities at any time in the future. All I have to do is move on and never look back.
People who don't love will be slowly sealed with the end of this year. At the beginning of the new year, I will also start a new chapter. There are many wonderful things waiting for me to do, explore and experience. Any bad things and emotions will end, and 10 will usher in a new beginning.