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In 2006, Mr. Wu was transferred to our class, so this is 1 1 year.
Most transfer students transfer because of poor grades or crimes committed in previous schools. At that time, teacher Wu and several other transfer students in the class were sitting at the back of the classroom. Later, when the post was transferred, Mr. Wu was transferred to the row behind me (I always suspected that he could only sit in the front row if he gave gifts to the head teacher, hehe), but even so, I didn't pay much attention to him.
It was not until a few months later that he turned from the ninth from the bottom to the positive that I fell out of the top ten for the first time and got the eleventh place. The strong contrast made me notice him and secretly blamed him-his aura must have failed me. God knows what happened. Gradually, I think he is a little handsome and interesting who is five degrees darker than me.
He always asks me English questions, and I always ask him math questions. His handwriting is as ugly as mine.
He carries a pack of tissues every day. I am a slovenly person. I never bring a tissue, and I always borrow it from him when I need it. He said, "At least six tissues I bring with me every day are for your use." Then I looked disgusted, but I still didn't have the habit of bringing paper towels. His habit of bringing paper towels has been maintained until now.
02
Later, he liked a thin, tall, warm and gentle girl in his class. This girl is very beautiful.
Teacher Wu is very rogue, and often ridicules idol dramas and says, "This kissing scene is too rubbish, and it hasn't lasted as long as I did." Adolescent boys always seem to be proud of knowing more.
I felt sour in my heart, but I still scolded him as a rogue, and then turned around and continued to pretend as if nothing had happened to sort out my homework. I advised myself to be less fucking melodramatic.
Love a person who has no identity, even without the qualification to be jealous. How much you like it, how sad it is.
I thought my acting was ok, and I didn't give away the clues. Until one day I confided to my deskmate, and I said I liked Mr. Wu very much.
My deskmate said that the whole class knew.
I vomited blood and died on the spot. I said how is that possible? I never said that. My deskmate said, do you think everyone is blind?
In the face of Mr. Wu, I can't hold back. Once, the teacher changed seats and put me in the same row with him, and a person was stuck between us. Once I was reading extracurricular books in class and saw a very funny joke. I turned to him and said, let me tell you a joke.
Before Mr. Wu could answer, the Chinese teacher said, "TXY, WBH, stand up for me." What are you talking about? "
That time, I felt very embarrassed, because it was not the scene described in the youth novel that boys and girls stood up and everyone coughed and hissed, because his girlfriend was sitting in the last row.
It feels like all your troubles are suddenly exposed in front of everyone, and you don't know what to do to make it look less embarrassing.
03
Then the two of them broke up, not because of me, of course. At that time, I was an insignificant passer-by in his heart, because the class teacher knew and put pressure on them.
I only remember that every book in my diary was about him, and I wrote his name better than my own.
At that time, Nokia could only save 200 short messages. I always read them over and over again, and I couldn't bear to delete them. When they were full, I copied every word in my diary, even the punctuation marks were the same.
At the class meeting on the day of junior high school graduation, many people cried, so I cried on my desk and became a dog. I know I can't see the person I like as soon as I turn my head, and I can't talk to him by asking math questions in the future.
After the class meeting that day, our group stayed to clean up. I looked at him for a long time, and with great courage, I still didn't say the word "I like you".
Later, Mr. Wu came from the other end of the corridor. As before, I continued to play jokes on him. I said, "I may never see him again …", but he suddenly gave me a hug before I finished.
In my memory, the hug was very long and lasted all day. I've been thinking about it. Many people are saying goodbye and blessings, but in my heart, there is only that hug.
I guess Mr. Wu knows that I like him, but he can't give me anything except a short graduation hug.
I thought it was a polite refusal, and I didn't say the words "I like you" until the end.
After two years of inner drama, I can't say "I like you"
Do you know how hard it is to keep it in your heart?
I am not cowardly, timid or afraid to love. It's just that in my heart, teacher Wu and I won't have a result at all. In the end, I can't face this reality directly, so I can only keep this feeling in my heart.
04
After the senior high school entrance examination, I went to No.1 Middle School and he went to No.3 Middle School. There are two buses from my home to school, one is 1 and the other is No.2. The first bus is faster than the second bus, but the second bus can pass by their school gate, so I only take the second bus after school.
do you believe that？ I can always find him in the crowd at the crowded school gate just after class, and I can even tell at a glance that he is wearing new glasses.
I also found out when he goes to school every day. I can see him three or four times a week, but I feel happy when I see him far away on the bus. That kind of secret love makes me feel very satisfied.
At that time, a friend accompanied me on the second way to school every day. Many years after graduation, she would still mention to me, "TXY, you know, at that time, I'll never forget the way you took your glasses out of his school gate every day."
Last semester of senior one, Mr. Wu sent me a message saying that he was not doing well and was very sad. He said something that made me feel painful, and I finally decided to confess. Teacher Wu said, "I used to like you, but now I don't like you."
A cruel sentence, because I don't even know when I was liked, or even when I was declared out.
In fact, I have been very playful since I entered the best middle school in the city, but that day, I cried for half an hour, suddenly relieved, wiped my tears and began to study.
I'm not jealous, I'm not thinking, I'm not waiting for you, I'm tired, I can go with whoever I like.
For two months, I studied at one or two o'clock in the morning, got up at 6: 30 in the morning to recite, recited books for half an hour before lunch break, and even carried pamphlets when I went to the toilet by bus. I hold my breath in my heart and have been trying to be excellent. In two months, I rushed from the penultimate to Level 40, and took the exam at Level 26 a month before the summer vacation.
05
The story is far less Marisol, and life is not like the idol drama Why Shengxiao Mo. You can wait for someone who hasn't heard from you for years. Fall in love in the summer vacation of freshman year. I feel that I have forgotten him, just like a person with a deep memory. I won't be sad if I don't think hard.
I got 62 1 in the liberal arts college entrance examination and went to Beijing to go to college.
When I was a sophomore, I broke up with my first love peacefully because of my life plan. This is very strange. After breaking up for a few months, I seldom think about this relationship. At that time, I was probably more accustomed to first love than I liked it.
One day, I didn't know what possessed me, so I got up the courage and started to contact Mr. Wu.
Chatting was too tense at that time. Every time I go to the battlefield, I have to think about what expression I have made for a long time. I had to send every word he said to my girl friends for their staff to translate. It's silly to think about it now.
I thought I didn't care so much, and I didn't miss it so much, but whenever Mr. Wu appeared, I knew he had won again.
After chatting for a while, he gave me snacks to eat. I thought I had another chance, so I tried it carefully for fear of being poked.
Everything he says will be over-interpreted by me. He told me to concentrate on my study, which I would interpret as "forget it, we can't";
He said to study hard and take the postgraduate entrance examination, which I would interpret as "Don't disturb my study".
It's too tiring to guess like this I live in fear of losing every day. I didn't contact him and he didn't contact me again.
See, the person I like never thought about taking the initiative, so I lost contact for a whole year, from waiting for news every day to not expecting it.
06
Senior year, I went abroad, and people are more emotional in a foreign land. I sent him a birthday wish without much thought on his birthday.
The conversation lasted for five months. Nothing goes beyond the boundaries of friendship, I just share my foreign life with him.
Once he told me that I dreamed of our junior high school classmates. I asked him if he had me, and he said, you occupy me for more than ten hours every day during the day, so leave me alone when you dream.
Start changing the signature of WeChat every day, which is the kind that can only be seen by clicking on the homepage. One day, I suddenly found that he began to reply to every signature of mine.
I really felt that the days were super sweet during that time. I have my own ideas, and he just understands mine.
I once again impulsively confessed to him, but he said that he wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination and didn't want to be distracted at the crucial time.
It's really hard to digest, just like a big drama directed and performed by myself finally ended, but I didn't get the ending I wanted.
I went to Greece to play the next day, only to find that chicken soup is deceptive. The chicken soup says that you must earn money well. When you are sad, you can cry in London, Paris, Milan or whatever. It's really nonsense. I flew from London to the Aegean Sea to cry, but I still cried ugly and not handsome at all.
I changed the signature of WeChat: "I just like you, not love you, and it has nothing to do with you from now on."
I don't know what possessed Mr. Wu, but suddenly I changed my signature: "am I late?" Can you wait until the end of the postgraduate entrance examination? "
History is always strikingly similar. I always fall in the same place, and I actually agreed.
When I was in Greece, I changed my circle of friends.
As a result, Mr. Wu pulled out a photo with similar angle from my circle of friends and posted it on himself and sent it to me.
Look, he knows what I'm talking about.
At the end of May last year, I returned to China in the summer vacation and flew to his city to find him. We are naturally together. Naturally, I can't believe that the person I like so much actually stood by me and became my closest person.
He changed from a cold male god who can only say "Oh" and "Hehe" to a mentally retarded person who can stomp and pout.
I don't think I can meet anyone who can make me feel my heartbeat like this except Mr. Wu. When youth dies, many things will be unrecognizable, so we will cherish each other more.
Mr. Wu is not a graduate student, but he has found a job with a good annual salary in Shanghai. I have graduated and returned to Shanghai. For the first time, I feel that my fantasy life is so within reach.
07
In fact, feelings are like this, and sometimes they are welcome. No one should love you because you love him.
If your love is not returned, then there is only one thing you can do, and that is to strive to be excellent.
The person you like may meet other people who like ta better. What you can do is to compare them all and become a person who can always be on a par with ta.
If you still can't get his attention, then all your efforts and feelings are just touching yourself. What you have to do is to be an excellent person, and when you appear next time, you can let him see you at a glance in the crowd.
Fortunately, Mr. Wu saw me, and after eleven years of persistent waiting, he finally responded.
From then on, the corner is you, and the rest of my life is you.
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