However, the author believes that Lao Zeng's letters from home are written for himself to relieve the pressure, just like people who drink loudly at night, not to scare ghosts, but to give themselves courage.
The interpretation of Zeng Guofan's personality is influenced by his parents, and he is a sulking person.
Everyone knows Lao Zeng's inspirational quote: Knock out your teeth and swallow your blood. Suffer setbacks and grievances, endure one breath and strive for another. This is a positive interpretation. However, on both sides of everything, we are sulking while accumulating emotional garbage. People who endure and live up to expectations are often people who like to sulk.
The nature of Lao Zeng is first analyzed from Zeng's mother generation. Lao Zeng's mother, surnamed Jiang, lived well in her family and married the Zeng family, but she was very unhappy financially. This Jiang Tai has a strong personality, so he likes to give himself courage and strive for self-improvement. At the same time, I also had a lot of sulks.
However, his father is a coward, and he is often scolded by his grandfather. I guess he also had a lot of sulks.
Some negative factors in Zeng's parents' personality still have a negative impact on Zeng's eldest brother. Zeng Guofan also admitted in his letter 1 1 854 dated 27th: Since I joined the army and handled military affairs in recent years, the center has often been depressed, and my mother always pointed at her children and said,' There is no place to vent'. It can be seen that Lao has been influenced by his parents and is a sulking person.
The grievances behind the letters show modesty, while Xianfeng says he is hypocritical.
Lao Zeng is competitive by nature, but likes to show a gentle and polite attitude. Everyone is not stupid, you like to pretend, and someone always pokes you. For example, in the fourth year of Xianfeng, in 1854, the Xiang army conquered Wuhan, which was a great event. Lao Zeng also mastered the real power. He is in charge of the Hubei side-acting as the governor of Hubei. On the one hand, he has financial power and personnel power, and he has soldiers in his hands. Should he show off in an ostentatious manner?
However, Lao Zeng thought very far. One thought he was in Dai Xiao, and the other thought he wanted to show off the virtue of modesty, so he wrote to resign from the court. I thought Emperor Xianfeng would praise me, but I didn't expect Xianfeng to be a wise man. A decree punctured Lao Zeng's hypocritical modesty: I knew you would resign. I know you're upset. Resignation is expected. A good name is too small, and the crime of violating the law is great. Scold Zeng Guofan's reputation is strict and straightforward, and the nature of the matter is very serious-disobedience. Therefore, officials should be removed from their posts and severely criticized. This is a stick that Xianfeng gave him. Can you answer the emperor's criticism? Sulking is doomed.
Zeng Guofan has a summary of sulking in his life. Let's take a look at the diary: Yu Geng was reviled by the powerful people in Beijing during the Xinhai period; Ugly Jia Yin was reviled by Changsha; Yi Mao Ice City was reviled by Jiangxi people. They are reviled, scolded by powerful people in Beijing, and can't talk back; Being scolded by green camp in Changsha, you can't talk back, and you will die if you talk back; Raising food and grass in Jiangxi was scolded like a beggar, but he couldn't talk back.
Lao Zeng has always endured, and the disaster has not been provoked, but his anger has come up and accumulated in his heart. This is not speculation. Zeng Guofan's own voice is evidence: he never makes any noise, but he is patient. I'm angry, stop talking, bear it. Obviously, I'm sulking, so depressed and uncomfortable. He likes to sulk. How can we get rid of him? How to turn it into positive energy?
Letters from home have become a channel for catharsis, making the pain real.
When I am angry, I can't help it. I have to try my best to be strong, which is a long-term thing, but there must be a channel to clear my immediate emotions. At this time, I have to rely on words.
For example, Zeng Guofan mentioned earlier was denounced as a good name by Xianfeng, and Lao Zeng's emotions were vented in a letter to his fourth brother in September of that year. He wrote: Who is better than me for a good name? Everyone has a good name, and everyone is like me. Obviously, it was written in response to Xianfeng's criticism and to pour out his grievances. But you can't complain about long live grandpa in your home letter, can you? So I explained to myself that I have a good name, so people must have an ugly name, a far from beautiful name. In contrast, it is embarrassing.
The emperor called Lao Zeng a good name, but Lao Zeng was embarrassed. But from a dialectical point of view, if I have a good reputation, someone must take the blame for it. There is a simple reason. Your ability shows the incompetence of others. In contrast, people are more embarrassed than me. Lao Zeng was in a letter from home, and this contrast reassured me. Then, Lao Zeng rose to the level of personality cultivation: my brother was just cautious and always cautious. Be cautious and modest in the future, and hide your tail deeper. Then it became an idea of future work: it can quickly clear the river and destroy thieves. We can wipe out the Taiping rebels on the Yangtze River and pacify this mutiny. The uncertainty in my heart has been eliminated, that is, I am not afraid.
Originally scolded by the emperor, my heart was weak. But when I wrote this, my anger dissipated and I found a way. I give myself courage and am not afraid. It can be seen that the role of Lao Zeng's letters is great, which can not only solve the sulking, but also improve the quality.
What bothers you, just write it out, put it in words and materialization, and become an object that can be observed objectively, that is to say, it is actually a good idea to objectify the subject to outsiders from which corner of the mountain it faces.