people will always experience many times of being at a loss and thrilling in their life, but perhaps, they only have one heartbeat.
In senior high school for three years, classmate L was the monitor of our class, the sports committee member, and the class grass of our class. What's more, he went out to participate in various activities and competitions as the image ambassador of the school every year. 183-year-old, with a cold face all day, has two cute dimples on his mouth when he smiles, and there is a natural domineering between his brow. Excellent grades, good family conditions, deeply liked by teachers, super ability to handle affairs, and most importantly, he is very popular with his classmates, and can be eaten by all ages.
as for me, I am 16 years tall, with dark skin, medium build, introverted and shy, and nothing can impress others except that I can't see the seams when I smile. By the way, his grades are passable, and he ranks in the top few, which is also a good student in the teacher's mouth. I think, if it weren't for this, he would probably never have any intersection with such a good one in his life.
yes, I never thought I would have any intersection with him like that. However, the beginning of the story is so unexpected, but it seems to be expected.
In a monthly exam, I got the second place in my class, and he was the third. Because the head teacher ranked his position according to the results of each monthly exam, he naturally sat on my left (on the right is a goddess who has been occupying the first throne) and became the first male deskmate in my high school for three years.
Every time I look at the place where he sits next to me, the story of the ugly duckling and the white swan keeps coming to my mind, so from the first sentence he said to me, I obviously feel that even though his grades are ahead of him, I can't stop his upward light. As a result, the inexplicable sense of inferiority began to appear. On the left was the popular "male god" and on the right was the "goddess" that I always admired. I couldn't escape their temperament in the middle.
The learning atmosphere in senior high school is undoubtedly tense and urgent. We started our deskmate career for more than half a year before greeting and greeting. It doesn't take long to get familiar with it, so why does it take so long to forget it? I think the reason is that there are too many good memories.
After sitting at the same table for a month, everyone around us was very familiar with each other, making fun of each other and beating and cursing each other, and so was he and me. People around you often hear this conversation ...
Me: Did you steal my paper again? You said that your family is so rich, why can't you even afford to buy wrapping paper?
He: Look at your stingy appearance. It's your pleasure for me to use your paper. Why don't you thank me?
me: I think your skin is itchy, and you won't go to the house to uncover the tiles for three days.
So as a result of this conversation, I picked up a book and threw it at me, and I didn't forget to scold: Go away, I'm really unlucky for eight generations to sit at the same table with you.
You will also talk back while avoiding my attack: Same to you, who do you think is willing to sit at the same table with you, lowering my IQ.
The students around us all said, Can you stop for a day? It's either a quarrel or a fight. Did you dig the ancestral graves of each other's homes? At this time, we are united in front of the outside world. What's more, once, a girl with delicate and gentle mind in front of us said to us: You are like a husband and wife. We both rolled our eyes at the same time, blushing more tacitly and not saying a word.
So, we are tired of looking forward to the next monthly exam, and at the same time, we secretly compete with each other, and naturally compare the next grade as the object. The funny thing is that his English is poor and his mathematical thinking ability is strong, but I just seem to be against him. His English is particularly good and his mathematics is just so-so. So every time I have to take an English test, I will laugh in front of him in an ostentatious manner. He will silently recite the word and occasionally gnash his teeth and ask me: How to pronounce this word?
time is long, but the years are innocent.
We waited for the results of the next monthly exam. Unfortunately, he was still behind me, and we still sat together. I don't know if we were enchanted. The position of our third row has never changed for half a year.
Day after day, in the suffocating atmosphere of senior three, we can also find the same pleasure, that is, gossiping.
I asked L: Have you ever liked anyone? Like this one next to me? In the face of such a boring problem that is purely gossip, you are also willing to put down your pen and tell me your heart. You know, at that moment, I was heartbroken. I thought you would still yell at me fiercely, and I would sneer at it and continue to do my homework. Who knows, your words not only opened your heart, but also opened mine, but I didn't want to say it to you.
It turns out that you, who are as bright as sunshine in my memory, will have worries that ordinary people can't imagine. Therefore, you treat me as a bosom friend who laughs and laughs at people around you all day, but is as cold as ice to others. At that moment, I was really happy.
when I treat my friends, I always adhere to the principle that I will give them to you as long as I have them.
The way we get along with each other has changed slowly. I still remember that 2-minute recess when you took out your mobile phone and plugged in your headphones. I thought you wanted to enjoy quiet time by yourself, so I took out my diary and decided not to disturb you. Just as I put pen to paper, a white hand reached out. I froze for a second, turned my head and saw your smile. I took it, plugged it into my ear, and then a long music started. I dare not turn my head to look at his side face. I'm afraid I will lose control. It turns out that he will have such tenderness. So, there was such a day and such a scene in my notebook. It happened that the sun was shining and the breeze was just right. I never liked music, but I suddenly found that music can be so exciting. Just, the last sentence in the diary, I will never say to you.
in the future, I no longer want to run away from you, but to be close to you. In the past, we were afraid that we would still be deskmates next time, but in the future, we were afraid that we would no longer be deskmates. There are some things we know.
however, the more familiar two people are, the more conflicts will arise because of some trivial matters, such as you and me. It's no big deal to know clearly, but you have your pride and I have my insistence, and it's a big deal to return to the state of initial strangers and final strangers. The tangled knot of fate opened quietly. I don't know if God has been watching our story and kindly helped us out of this tangled confusion. One month before the college entrance examination, we were no longer deskmates. Maybe from now on, there will be no intersection because of contradictions. On that day, I was calm, tidied up my thoughts, went into battle lightly, pretended to take a casual look at you during the break, and then you and I hurriedly avoided at the moment when our eyes crossed. Yes, I can understand you, and your signature was changed to: Finally, goodbye. I can narcissistically imagine this sentence. Are you talking to me?
I thought we would never see each other again. As soon as the college entrance examination is over, you will go your way, I will cross my bridge and live a good life, and we will no longer know each other.
On the day when the college entrance examination ended, you drank a lot. Because you are the monitor, you must take the lead in honoring all the teachers and students. It's my turn. I thought we wouldn't have words at this time. But when you picked up the glass and let me out, I still expected what you would say. You looked at me for a long time, and I waited for a long time. In the end, you only said one sentence: lifelong friend! Say that finish your toast and turn around, I smiled and cried.
Two years are almost over. During this period, we never have redundant greetings and greetings, just like when we first became deskmates. I heard that you have been admitted to a good university, that you have recently made a girlfriend, that you have come to my city, that you have earned the first bucket of gold in your life, and that … all this is just mentioned by others. I see, we used to be just friends. Thank you for accompanying me through that wonderful time with you.
Maybe you are no longer the bright and sad teenager, and maybe you will tell others about your troubles. All this is possible, but please keep that story and that memory well.
I wish you sunshine, bright and not sad.
The rest of my life is very long. May you cherish it.