Su Nianan, a talented and proud rural educated youth, never imagined that her life would have a lifelong complex with the arrogant little Numan, who was born in a generation of red peasants, and the biggest secret of her educated youth was the little Numan. However, for me, in the late autumn of 1976, when I heard Ann's name, there seemed to be a fate.
The love of youth is commendable, and I want to give this article to the same-sex love of that era.
Background: Educated youth, referred to as educated youth for short, refers to educated youth in a broad sense. The title of a specific historical period refers to a group of people who voluntarily went from cities to rural and remote areas from the 1960s to the end of the 1960s. Due to the characteristics of the times, a large number of urban youths who didn't go to school or work after the Cultural Revolution responded to the call to support rural construction, seek value, solve employment, and earn their own living. )
1977 resumed the college entrance examination, and most rural educated youths tried their best to return to their hometowns. (Most people who return to the city get places through the channels of relationships. )
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Memory is useless. It is said that after only seven years, the body cells have changed again and can't stop. I don't know how many seven years have passed, but Mu Ran Jr. has long forgotten Su Nianan. Forget it? It's not true, but the appearance is vague, but the name is engraved in my heart. Worst of all, the name Su Nianan is no stranger in this area, even familiar.
About us, the story is not long, it is a magnificent short period of rivers and mountains, which is not worth mentioning but an unforgettable educated youth-small.
The second child is small, and he has been a farmer with loess back in Xiayang Village since his ancestors. After the Cultural Revolution, farmers turned over and sang, poor and white, and they were glorious for generations. In addition to inheriting poverty and simplicity, the Xiao family has always kept in mind the heavy responsibility of children. Above Xiao is Xiao's sister, Xiao, who implicitly calls her brother. However, Xiao was unexpectedly greeted, but Xiao should have been called Xiao Diandi, but fortunately, when he was named, Xiao's son preference really provoked grandma's dissatisfaction. Grandma is the daughter of a landlord near Xiayang Village. She can read and later married a poor family. Coincidentally, when Joe was born, when she visited, she gave me the peach wood in the Book of Songs and also rewarded me with the word Muyao in my sentence. Somehow, when registering the population, I couldn't remember the specific word "Yao" for a while, but called it.
Callous, callous, in the old society, a man named Ear was called a dog egg, and Erwa was also called, which was much better than calling Di. Although Fu Xiao is obsessed with finding a man, he also loves his daughter as a filial son-in-law. However, influenced by feudal thoughts, he was flattered by his mother-in-law. Then he had a third sister, Xiao Re-nan, and the Xiao family was not "complete" until the little one was born.
Compared with the wrong title, it is far from safe. What's wrong with not seeking wealth but seeking peace? Because An Sheng came to be "rich" and only hoped for peace, Su Nianan was the only girl in the Su family who struggled for it.
When Mu Ran Jr. first heard Su Nian's name, he thought this man must be the palm of his family's hand. Nianan ~ my thoughts are free and I can't help rereading. Zi Longsu told her this name. When he went to the countryside, he wrote three vigorous and powerful words in the diary he carried with him, and then showed it to her with coquetry eyes. Reluctantly pointed to the name on the paper draft with your index finger and recited it again. A name written with a pen, like a signature, is not written by yourself.
Zilong Su is a member of the educated youth. He has been in Xiayang Village for almost a year. There are many educated youths who come to Xiayang Village. Maybe Xiayang Village is special. There are many people and vast land here, and the conditions in the village are better than those in other places. Many mountainous areas are basins, at least you don't have to go hungry to produce more food. With the history of the Red Revolution, educated youth always come in batches, as if to cross a bitter soup, and as if for this place. Others don't want to do anything. After all, it is a rural area, and Rao can't catch up with the city because the conditions are better. Some people came less than half a year and left in tears. Some people stay in high spirits for months, running around just to get back to the city. Zilong Su is different, and there is no reason to be different. Zi Longsu, like many educated youths, came with glasses, a pen and a book. Many educated youths appeared different when they came, but later they became unhappy "educated youths" in small mountain villages. Zi Longsu talks less, like a deep mountain accumulating soil and expanding mountains. He holds a pen well and works well. After being assigned to Xiao's family, he is willing to teach Xiao's sisters to read like a big brother. Of course, at best, he is ruthless. The elder sister and younger sister have to help take care of their younger siblings, contract housework and go up and down the mountain to study, while the third sister and younger sister are as the name implies, like a boy. Little Cai Cheng, younger brother, is just like Third Sister. They are only one year apart. They are the most speculative and aggressive. Although I studied with the educated youth teacher in the village school, my grades were very ugly ... Therefore, the children who were taken care of by my grandmother often asked Zilong Su questions. At that time, Zilong Su was 2 1 year-old, consistent with her older sister, younger 19, younger 16, and younger 15.
Xiao is curious about Su Nianan, not entirely because of this meaningful name, but because Zi Longsu, who is silent, mentioned the unconscious doting of An Shi Rebellion, which is quite different from Zi Longsu's calm image. Also this time, she learned that Zi Longsu's sister Su Nianan was one of the educated youth who came to Xiayang Village that year. ...
In fact, for people who grew up in rural areas, educated youth are all princelings, and princelings and educated youth are equal. They come here to suffer hardships, which is just another form of enjoyment for the people here. After all, the policy is there, and the living conditions should not be too heavy and harsh. Even so, people who can't eat bitterness will still cry for their parents. And Zilong Su's careless way of working has really won the recognition of the local people, especially, he has the momentum of recognizing him as his adopted son. It is also courage for intellectuals to afford hoes. With Xiao, he has different views on the upcoming Su Nianan.
I'm afraid that Su Nianan didn't know about it at that time, and people heard about it before they reached the name. After graduating from high school, Su Nianan did not seek self-worth everywhere like the idle "princelings", but became a neet at home. Naturally, Su Jia wants her to stay at home safely. On the one hand, Fu Su Su Mu, who is in an important position, can stay with her and have no time to take care of her. On the other hand, her grandparents and grandparents are both military families. Su Nianan is a princeling, and the older generation can't bear to let her suffer in the countryside. At home, the two brothers who should have advertised their work first were sent down by their parents without pity. Besides, the number of educated youth sent in the city has met the policy requirements and the rural labor demand, so Su Nianan was left behind. Unexpectedly, the girl stayed at home for only one year, and then she strongly demanded to go to the countryside. At this time, the registration of educated youth in rural areas was mostly voluntary. Sue's family and Shenyang's parents know that Su Nian Anna is in a bad temper and want to go to the countryside to experience the feelings of educated youth. She lamented that this boy didn't know how hard it was, but it was good for her to think that Su Nianan would suffer. After all, the two families came from the war, which the four old people can't forget. They discussed it and let it go. So that Su Nianan felt that she could fight for a while ~ It was Fu Su Su Mu's turn, and her attitude towards her elders was naturally agreed. Fu Su was even worse, and Su Nianan's privileged thoughts were completely denied. He is not allowed to care about Su Nianan's birth and treat him like an educated youth. Although the colonel did it, he left a show and assigned Su Nianan to the educated youth brigade in Xiayang Village. No privileges, but it's convenient. After all, Zilong Su was there.
Subsequently, Zilong Su saw Su Nianan in the list of educated youth received by Xiayang Village Office, and after confirming with the village party secretary, he was particularly satisfied with Xiao.
However, before meeting her, Mu Ran Jr. didn't remember what Su Long Nianan was like. Although she is Zilong Su's sister, Xiao doesn't have any friendship with her except for some praise from her brother. Mu Ran Jr. is like this. Although she knew that Xiao's family was much fairer to her children than others in the village, Xiao's position in Xiao's family remained unshakable. She knows that Zi Longsu is different, but she only thinks that this person is talented and promising. She knows she's with these. I also know what I want and what I don't want. If grandma looks at it, it is the dance of the breeze and the bright moon, which is as cool as the breeze and as bright as the bright moon. Of course, this is the praise of later generations to Xiao Moran.
Little Mu Ran still remembers seeing Su Nianan for the first time. Zilong Su told him that a week later, a group of educated youths came into the village in trucks sent by the city. Like the educated youth in the past, they wore red flowers on their chests and military green clothes envied by rural youth. They were decent and clean ... As usual, the village Committee took the lead in welcoming the educated youth who came to support regional construction, and the first meal was often the best in the village. In order not to scare away a bunch of 17-and 18-year-olds on the first day, although the meals of families in the city can't be compared, fortunately, the freshness in the countryside is better than the current good meals, and everyone is happy. Educated youth entering the village, like a pool of stagnant water being re-injected into a clear spring, will always splash waves, which is interesting and lively.
Big sister took the initiative to help cook in the brigade. In addition to taking the initiative to help, many people also came forward to help in order to watch the fun. Most of them are the same age. When people come, little Mu Ran never leaves. Because of this, she doesn't like to join in the fun, and she doesn't like to give special treatment to educated youth. In her opinion, although they come from different backgrounds, they are still equal. Are educated youths still willing to be watched like monkeys? Zilong Su couldn't wait to pick up Su Nianan, so he borrowed his book and read it indoors.
Before Xiao guessed, Zilong Su returned to Xiao's home with Su Nianan. After eating and drinking enough, there should be a bonfire party, but it happens that a group of young talents are willing to display their talents around the fire or make friends, and this bonfire should be lit. Xiayang Village belongs to the center of this area. After dinner, a large number of educated youth will be assigned to work in a smaller and more partial village below Xiayang Village, but obviously Su Nianan stayed in Xiayang Village.
After greeting Xiao's mother, Zilong Su took Su Nianan into the house, and Xiayang Village was electrified, but the light was really weak. Little Mu Ran lit a candle and put it on the table. Zilong Su and Xiao live in the same room. Xiao will only die before going to bed, so Xiao is comfortable reading in the room.
"Is it a bird collection?" Without Zilong Su's introduction, Su Nianan has taken the lead in asking questions. This person has a feeling of being caught in a philosophical family with light and candles.
Not ready to be asked, suddenly, little Muran poked his head out from behind the heavy book. I saw Su Nian Ann standing next to Zi Long Sue, but I knew it was Su Nianan in a moment, not to mention who else would be assigned. Just the looks of the two people let people know that Zilong Su is very handsome with clear eyebrows, but similar to Su Nianan, who is very good-looking. When I was a child, I couldn't think of any words to describe it. I felt that I still read less books.
"How do you know it's a bird collection?" Little Mu Ran looked at the book in his hand. This book has no cover and no logo. She couldn't help wondering how Su Nianan could see it at a glance.
"Because this book is mine, the cover is still on my desk, which was brought by my second brother." Su Nianan looked at the book with no cover, smiled at Zilong Su, and then explained.
"Indeed, it is in Ann. I forgot the cover before I left in a hurry, but nothing happened. Comrade callous, you can finish reading it. This is my sister, Su Nianan. " Zi Longsu felt that Miss Sister was too frivolous, and some refuted her face to face. She put the book aside and didn't read it, but what about Su Nianan? He had to be a little embarrassed and novel.
"Hello, Comrade Nianan, I'm Mu Ran Jr." Mu Ran Jr. spread the book on the table and stood up to introduce himself to Su Nian Ann. When she saw Su Nian Ann herself, Mu Ran Jr. felt that she was both expected and unexpected. She is different from Yu Zilong Sue, but she is more lively. After a long time, Mu Ran Jr. never changed her first impression of Su Nianan.
"Comrade callous, hello, Xiao callous. May I ask if the wind is rustling and the water is cold, and the strong man is gone forever? " Su Nianan stepped forward over Zilong Su, stretched out his right hand on Xiao Muran's outstretched right hand, smiling, quite serious.
Little Mu Ran didn't expect Su Nian Ann to speak. She heard the story of Chu Han from her grandmother, but her memory was not deep. She also vaguely knows this sentence. When she reached her mouth, she suddenly felt that Xiao was a little more heroic and nodded and said, "I should."
Comrade XXX, in such a passionate era, nothing is more important than giving each other the greatest respect. In fact, Su Nianan doesn't like to call people Comrade XXX, and he always seems too solemn and unfamiliar, just like this person in front of him.
"Can I call you elder sister callous? My brother says you are one year older than me, and so are you. Just call me Nianan. " Su Nianan didn't want to call this person Comrade callous in the future, so she asked again. In fact, she really wants to directly scold him for being heartless, but she thinks it is better to be polite when she is new here. Although she is very tired, she must say something first.
"Nature" shaw nodded.
Zi Longsu thinks that Su Nianan is really capable and can't get a word in. The man got used to being small after three or two times, and he felt fine. He honestly escorted her back for a while so as not to be exhausted.
"There is no spare room at home. I'm afraid I have to sleep with me and my sister when I study in Ann. " Small see Sue's hand BaoZiLong, a little embarrassed to say.
"Yes, they are all educated youths, not special." Sue solemnly promised. He really thinks so. Although he also loves his sister to come here and suffer, he can't get the privilege if he is troublesome enough. This is his father's repeated orders.
Does not mean that Su Nianan feels at ease. She really hasn't slept with anyone at her age ~ but my second brother said so. Besides, she was really tired that day, so she silently followed them to Mu Ran's room.
I thought Zi Long Sue's room was simple enough, but I didn't expect a small room with a lower limit. A bed is almost as big as the one at home and smaller than Zilong Su's. She doesn't think it's enough to get out. How can the three of them sleep? Except for the bed, there are only two benches, a square wooden table, half a candle on the table, a floor paved with blue bricks, and a wooden wall, and one side is still a mud wall. I feel sorry to see Su Nian's peace of mind.
But speaking of which, Su Nianan is still so comforting. Anyway, she can't help going home after three days. Before coming, she boasted about Haikou with four little old men.
Xiao Muran has had a panoramic view of the changes in the expression on Su Nianan's face, but she didn't say much. She should have been ready before she came, thinking she was coming for an outing. However, Xiao Muran really finds each other difficult, which makes her a little more tolerant. She thought the other party would be picky. After all, many educated girls are like this, but she doesn't. Look after a change, Su Nianan seems to accept the status quo.
If he is not admitted, Su Nianan is too tired, from the provincial capital to the counties and cities, and then to Xiayang Village. God knows how tired she is. She just wants to sleep.
After settling down, Sue did not leave Zilong safely. By the way, he left the unfinished bird collection and went back to his room. He will work tomorrow morning and go to bed early.
Su Nianan, who packed her things and lay down, was a little sleepy. She didn't see any sisters. She asked Xiao, her sister Xiao Re-nan slept in the same room as her little mother, but she shared a shop with the little boy Long Su. Fortunately, the store is bigger, and three big men can still sleep. However, Su Nian was grateful. She knew it was Xiao's family trying to stay comfortable.
"Where did you see the bird collection?" Su Nian lay, glanced at Mu Ran, who was still reading and didn't light a candle, and asked easily.
"Humans build high walls for themselves." Little Mu Ran wondered why Su Nian Ann suddenly asked this question or answered it truthfully.
"Invisible walls imprison thoughts". According to the truth, Mu Ran should answer the page number, but her eyes stopped there, and she unconsciously answered the export. Su Nianan didn't care about anything else. She turned to lie prone, looked up at Xiao Xiao and put the pillow on her head to express her feelings.
Xiao callous eyes a bright staggered glanced at Su Nianan's book, see each other some listless, then didn't speak, actually appreciate Su Nianan's words.
"I like another sentence, let life be as gorgeous as summer flowers and death as beautiful as autumn leaves." After a long time, Su Nianan mumbled another sentence, as light as that one.
Mu Ran Jr. was attracted by Su Nianan's words again. He turned his head and buried his head under the pillow. His sleep is a little cute. Little Mu Ran didn't pay much attention to it, but he searched the favorite sentence that Su Nianan said at the bottom of another sentence, and some doubted whether Su Nian Ann would carry birds.
Mu Ran Jr. wrote down what Su Nianan said. She once heard an educated youth often talk about this sentence, but she never thought deeply about it. Now she feels that Su Nianan is comparable to Zi Longsu, and even arrogant. She turned a page and covered the desktop. After washing, she is ready to sleep. She just looked at Su Nianan who slept peacefully. Mu Ran Jr. remembered his infant brothers and sisters, closed his clean eyes and showed a little light.