I love you, which was given to me by fate. It is a fate that neither of us can escape.

01.

A long time later, Su Qian recalled her first encounter with Sanji. The first thing that entered her mind was the bright white moon that night. For a moment, in the dim moonlight, she thought there were only two of them in the world.

Su Qian was 28 years old and living in Beijing temporarily. Beijing is a bustling city with tall buildings and a constant flow of vehicles. Every winter smog and spring dust storms here make the environment even worse.

Su Qian always wanted to leave Beijing, but couldn't find a more suitable place. She works in a Japanese company. Working overtime and eating takeout for a long time made her face pale and without any blood. Her already thin cheeks looked even more abrupt, and she looked malnourished.

Su Qian has been thin since she was a child, with prominent cheekbones on her face. Many people say this is a sign of Kraft. Su Qian didn't believe it. She never believed in fate.

At the age of 28, she is already what others call a “leftover woman”. Su Qian was not in a hurry at all. She had dated several boyfriends without any delay, and none of them lasted more than a year.

When not working overtime, Su Qian goes to night school to study accounting. She likes to sit against the wall, which gives her a sense of security.

She has always believed that if a girl cannot find a sense of security, she must create a sense of security for herself.

02

It was the first time for Sanji to go to night school that day. She saw the position against the wall at a glance, walked over, and sat down gently. She didn't notice that Su Qian, who entered the classroom after her, was following her.

As soon as Sanji sat down, Su Qian sat down next to her. Sanchi was wearing a bright red cotton shirt and an ethnic-style ankle-length skirt. That kind of red is too dazzling under the light, making people feel dizzy.

Su Qian especially likes this kind of bright red, which is a symbol of strong vitality. The two of them quickly became familiar with each other, hiding behind books and exchanging each other's secrets.

Jisang said, Qianqian, you know how to be a good husband.

Everyone who has ever met me says so.

Are you afraid?

Don’t be afraid, I never believe it.

After saying that, the two looked at each other and smiled, pinched each other's hand and started reading palms.

Sanji’s hands were soft and mellow, exuding a light fragrance, like a blooming flower.

After class, they decided to take a walk to the subway station. The moon that night was white and bright, like a bright lamp, reflecting the slender figures of the two people.

Sanji told Su Qian that she had a boyfriend she had been dating for many years and it was time to talk about marriage. She called him Gu Yuan.

Do you love her? Su Qian handed Sanji a cigarette.

I don’t know, maybe love!

Will you definitely get married?

Probably.

Sanji looked at Su Qian and showed a faint smile. Su Qian was silent and lit the cigarette several times before lighting it.

03.

Su Qian has been waiting for the person who can bring her a sense of security.

When Su Qian was a child, Su Qian's parents often quarreled in front of her. After the quarrel, her parents always pulled her to accuse the other party, never considering that she was just a child.

Finally, when Su Qian was 12 years old, her mother ran away with a man, leaving her and this broken home behind. After my mother left, my father became addicted to alcoholism. He came home drunk every night, and occasionally brought different women home for the night.

Su Qian witnessed all this without any resentment and just wanted to leave this place quickly.

She does not believe in men and does not believe that marriage can bring happiness to people. She just wants to be a noble woman and live in the world of her own imagination.

With good grades, Su Qian got her wish and left her hometown and came to Beijing to study and work. Never returned home since.

04.

It was half a month later that I met Gu Yuan. He comes to take Sanchi home. Gu Yuan has slender eyebrows and slightly raised corners of his mouth, and his handsome face looks like he has returned to his school days.

Sanji took Gu Yuan’s arm, Gu Yuan, this is my best friend, Su Qian.

Su Qian looked at Gu Yuan with half-closed eyes, do you love Sanji?

Love.

You definitely don’t mean it if you answer so quickly.

Sanji laughed, Gu Yuan, Su Qian is joking with you!

Gu Yuan also smiled, your friend is really interesting.

On the subway back, Sanji held Gu Yuan in one arm and Su Qian in the other. She said that she had love in her left hand and friendship in her right hand.

Arriving at Sanji’s house, Sanji must ask Gu Yuan to send Su Qian home. The two houses are not far apart, only 800 meters apart on a street.

Su Qian walked very fast, and Gu Yuan followed behind, stepping on Su Qian's shadow step by step.

05.

Sanji is going to Shanghai on a business trip for half a month. Su Qian begged, Sanji, can you take me with you?

Be obedient and let Gu Yuan accompany you during my absence.

But, I want to go with you. I hate the sandstorms in Beijing in the spring.

I can’t take you there this time. I’ll invite Gu Yuan and we’ll go together next time.

Sanji hugged Su Qian, touched her head, then turned and entered the security area.

Su Qian likes to have her head touched by Sanji. It feels like when she was a child, lying in her mother's arms and being touched by her mother's gentle hands, and then she could sleep peacefully.

Next month, Sanji will go back to his hometown to meet his parents.

Su Qian thought of Gu Yuan and took a taxi to Gu Yuan's apartment. Gu Yuan lives in a new community in the East Fifth Ring Road. There are many small windows like pigeon cages, and people from all over the world live in them who come to Beijing to find their dreams.

When Su Qian entered the house, she took off her shoes and stood on tiptoes, trying not to make any noise. In the darkness, she heard the shouts of drunken men in the distance, mixed with the sobs of women. It reminded her of her parents.

They always argued day and night, and no one cared about her shivering in the corner. They yelled at each other and even struggled with each other. When it was over, they all left. No one looked at her, no one held her and said they loved her.

Gu Yuan hugged Su Qian tightly, and his heavy breathing surrounded Su Qian.

Do you love me?

Well..., love.

Why hesitate?

I'm afraid you won't believe me if I answer too quickly.

Su Qian laughed and stood up. Wearing a bright red cotton shirt and a long ethnic-style skirt, she went out barefoot, carrying her shoes, like a cat.

Walking on the street, Su Qian tightened her skirt that was blown by the wind. The wind at night in April is still a bit bit bit bit bit bit bit bit bit bit. The wind hit Su Qian's face, and she quickly forced tears out. Su Qian lit a cigarette and let her tears flow freely.

When they reached the intersection, Su Qian called Sanji's cell phone, and heard Sanji's confused voice.

Su Qian, why are you still up so late?

Sanchi, I miss you.

I just arrived in Shanghai today?

Well, I know, I just miss you.

06.

Sangji told Su Qian that she would reconsider getting married. She discovered that there were stockings left by another woman in Gu Yuan's house.

Su Qian did not tell Sanji that she left the stockings on purpose.

No man is reliable, and everything he promises you now is illusory. After getting married, you will find that you are completely different from before getting married. Su Qian said.

Gu Yuan is not such a man. We have known each other for many years and he always does what he promises.

But can you guarantee that he will always love you like this?

How do you know he won't? Sanji's eyes were staring straight at Su Qian, like the wind in April night, cold and biting.

Sanchi, come with me! I have found a job and a house in Shanghai.

Why? Sanji shouted, retreated to the sofa, curled up, grabbed his hair with both hands, and trembled all over.

Because only I truly love you. Su Qian hugged Sanji and stroked her back over and over again.

When Su Qian saw Gu Yuan for the first time, she felt the burning gaze from Gu Yuan's eyes.

I didn’t believe in fate before, but I do now. Some people are destined to be together, like you and me.

Some people are destined to be separated, such as you and Gu Yuan.

Su Qian said lightly, as if this was all arranged by fate.

07.

Gu Yuan is going abroad. He said he fell in love with two women at the same time. He didn't know how to choose. He only learns who he truly loves when he gets on the plane.

A week later, both Su Qian and Sangji received emails from Gu Yuan.

Sanchi, I have loved you for so many years. I'm very sorry. I want to say I'm sorry.

Su Qian, I fell in love with you at first sight. I can go back anytime if you want.

None of them looked back at the email. After Gu Yuan left, Sanji quit his job and stayed in the house all day. The whole person was haggard and decadent. He went to bars and nightclubs at night and got drunk.

Su Qian went to the hotel to find Sanji and took her home. She held Sanji in her arms, smelled the light fragrance of her hair, and let her fingers run through the layers of hair.

Sanji, we are going to Shanghai together soon.

But, I don’t want to leave with you.

I said, only I love you, this is fate. You must go with me.

08.

At three o'clock in the morning, Su Qian took a taxi to the airport with Sangji. There were not many people at the airport in the middle of the night. Su Qian found a position against the wall and helped Sanji lie down.

Su Qian wore headphones and played Ah Sang's "Always Quiet" on a loop. The song sings: I want to find someone to express my feelings in the empty street scene. Making this decision is lonely and I am my neighbor. Our love is like the scenery you pass by, it keeps going, but the steps never stop for me...

Su Qian listened to the song and almost fell asleep. She touched her hand but did not touch Sanchi. Su Qian suddenly shuddered and felt a chill coming from her.

The airport broadcast announced that the flight to Shanghai was about to depart. Su Qian stood up in a hurry and looked for Sanji. Suddenly hearing a noise in front of him, Sanji quickly ran over, peeled away the crowd, and saw a woman lying on the ground, wearing a bright red cotton shirt and a long ethnic skirt, barefoot, motionless, as if she was asleep. Same. There was a policeman standing nearby.

Sanchi drank too much wine and a lot of sleeping pills.

Su Qian struggled and threw herself at Sanji, kneeling on the ground, smiling stupidly, with tears falling down. Su Qian believed in the theory of fate again. She believed that she was destined to never get true love in her life.

Gu Yuan never sent another email. As for whether he had returned to China, Su Qian never asked.