Let's just say that if there is, then she is thinking about her past, the people she loves, and the beauty of the past. But now that I'm with you, I admit, I don't want to regret it. It is a helpless default for you. You can talk to her. Since she can write, she doesn't have it in her heart. You can try talking.
If not, then you are really in a daze, wondering whether it is good to be with you in the end, and so on. You don't know exactly what you want, so you can talk it over.
You can't say for sure about this kind of thing.