This word shows that the author meets a girl, but it is midnight, but his lover can't wait for a long time. Facing the bleak night scene, the author feels anxious and lonely. This shows that their love has been blocked and interfered by powerful forces, which indicates that the future is unknown.
[Huanxisha] In the five-character poem, the eyes are at first sight, and the disabled are taught to fold the scholar, and the hand is caressed by nepotism. .....
The author expresses complex inner feelings by recalling the tryst scene. Although the "caressing" action of "stroking one's nepotism" in the tryst showed a happy and sweet scene on the surface, at that time, the heart was full of bitterness and guilt. This should be taken as an indication that the author has not made progress in their love and has fallen into a depressed and troubled situation.
[Queqiao Fairy] is tired of collecting flowers and hanging down the curtain quietly, hoping that Yi Deng will be red and small, so he will be born with the fragrance of Boshan, and how much fame he has won! Is it thin? Is Nong Qing shallow? Is it better to grind more? Don't rush each other if you don't leak cold? Why don't you just sing like a chicken?
They stayed up late reading together, and even forgot to tidy up the open books. They turned down the light and couldn't wait to enter the hanging gauze tent, completely ignoring the ridicule and reputation loss that might be caused by this. Although it was full of happiness and joy at that time, after all, it was a secret engagement, and we could not become legal couples. We were helpless about this reality, and our hearts were uneven. We could only whisper to the girl in a rhetorical tone. Is this our "shallow relationship"? Or is it "a lot of good things"? Time flies, and it's almost dawn. I really want to put my heart on the line and let the chickens crow. They just let people talk and never part. This should be a sign that their love has reached the highest stage.
The love experience between them is like this. It quickly developed from the initial love at first sight to the stage of intense affection. Although it was full of ups and downs, their love was sincere after all, but such a pair of congenial young people failed to "jack shall have Jill", leaving endless regrets and resentment. In Nalan Ci, although we can't see the direct cause of this situation, we can be sure that in the face of powerful feudal forces, although they tried their best, they finally failed to break through the feudal barriers, and they obeyed on the surface, but expressed their resistance with their inner depression and dissatisfaction. In the above-mentioned [Linjiang Xian] Xiaque, he directly wrote: "It was Qutang Hazama jade who blocked it, and it was wrong to teach people to hate heartlessness. A few heartbroken places, wind-driven flower bells. " Here, the author uses the dangerous and unpredictable natural phenomena to imply that what they are facing is an insurmountable gap. Although at that time, he also wrongly accused his lover of failing to stand up, he finally understood that this "wind" was the culprit that caused several heartbroken. Formally cut off, but since then it has fallen into a long-term painful acacia. In a song "Waves on the Sand", he wrote: "The red shadow wets the secluded window, and it is as thin as spring, but the sun sets outside the rain. Who sees a thin shirt with a low bun, but also makes people think. Don't be sad, hold on to it early. Thinking about what broke people's intestines was once a glimpse of the cloister in his spring dream. " In a sad mood, the author recalls the secret appointment with the girl in the cloister at that time, but times have changed, leaving only a heartbreaking dream, fully expressing the suffering of lovesickness. In a poem [Young Beauty], he said, "It's been a decade's journey to spend a shadow on the back of a lamp and the moon." This should be the "ten years" after he wrote that he was forced to break up with the girl, and he kept his bitter thoughts on his sweetheart all the time.
He not only lovesick painfully, but also deeply blamed himself. In a [Magnolia] entitled "Imitating the past and rejecting Cambodian friends", he wrote: "If life is just like the first time, why do you paint a fan in the autumn wind? If you wait and change, you will lose your heart, but you will lose your heart. Lishan dialect stops at midnight, and tears and rain will never complain. If you are lucky, Jin Yilang, you will be more willing than the wings. " The poet tells the story in the tone of an abandoned girl, full of sadness, beginning with "just like the first time", showing the complex psychology of love and hate for ungrateful people. With the love story of Li Longji and Yang Guifei, he accuses "Jinyilang" of being ungrateful and ungrateful, which violates the oath they made that day. These words stand in the other side's position and show his remorse. He said in a poem "Youth Tour": "A fickle feeling turns into an affectionate and tired one, and the music is heartbreaking". It also shows the pain in his heart and the unspeakable necessity. He wants to relieve mental stress or get relief by blaming himself. The more he blames himself, the more he shows the degree of his inner pain.
In his poems, he also expressed strong dissatisfaction and resistance to his own experiences. There is a song [Zhao Jun complains]: "Who will cherish the deep ban on good spring?" At dusk, the Yao steps stand, and the orchestral sound in the other courtyard is unclear. It's another pear flower to thank, embroidering the back of spring tonight. Silence locks Zhumen, and dreams are gracious. " The author has been in and out of the palace for a long time, and deeply understands the pain of the maids in the forbidden palace, and puts her feelings in the background of their pain. Not only that, he said in a song [Ruan Langgui]: "One generation and two people in a lifetime, fighting for two ecstasy, lovesickness does not look at each other, who is the spring?" It's easy to beg for pulp from the blue bridge, but it's difficult to rush into the blue sea. If you allow me to visit Qin Oxford, I will forget my poverty. " In the first verse, he angrily asked God to divide a couple of lovers into two places, which made them lovesick but unable to date each other. Who can enjoy the beautiful spring in nature? In Xiaque, he used three allusions to show that he would pay any price for love, even if there is a gap between heaven and earth, and even would rather abandon the existing wealth, fame and fortune in exchange for being "poor and together" with his sweetheart.
Of course, for the love experience mentioned in the above words, we can't completely conclude that it must be the author's personal experience, but it's not important. From this, we can see Nalan Xingde's personal attitude towards love, which at least shows that he has expressed great sympathy and praise to those young men and women who dare to challenge for freedom of marriage and personal happiness and are desperate to break through the shackles of feudal ethics. It is also commendable that a "noble son" like Nalan Xingde can have such an understanding and attitude.
Nalan Xingde also wrote many words to express the love between husband and wife, which can also show his love view. He had two marriages in his life, and the original match Lu died very early. We know very little about her family and personal situation. It is only from the four-line "Yan Ge" written by Nalan Xingde at the age of 19 that there are poems that describe the secret plot of husband and wife, such as "I have a short sleep in the middle of the night, and I have a half-romantic night". From his mourning words, Lu died in the late spring of the sixteenth year of Kangxi, when Nalan Xingde was 23 years old. From this, it can be inferred that they only lived together for four or five years. After that, Nalan Xingde continued to marry the official surname of the steproom. We don't know the details of his two marriages, but it can be seen from his poems that he recorded and described his married life that he was deeply attached to Lu and Guan's husband and wife, and their married life was sweet and happy. For this reason, he wrote many poems that showed his beautiful life and his husband and wife's love.
Nalan Xingde, as the favorite bodyguard in front of the temple of Kangxi, often has to go to the palace on duty or patrol and hunt with the emperor, so there is not much time to stay at home together. Therefore, he often fills in some poems that miss his family. For example, "Meet Huan", "weiyun is a remote peak, which is cold and soluble, just like a personal thrush. Red candles and tears, green quilts, heavy water, but listening to the west wind in Huang Mao wild shop. " On the top of the poem, the author recalls the scene of deep affection with his wife at home, while on the bottom, he actually writes about the loneliness of the guest. Another example is written in "Looking for Grass" entitled "Dream of Xiao Temple": "How did the guest night live? With the dream, the window sings and sings, and Bo Chen pretends to laugh: If it is not desolate, will you come? If you come and go in a hurry, you must wait for the dawn bell to break. At first glance, people, a flash of snuff, but against the glass fire. " This first word clearly shows that he stayed in a Buddhist temple and met his wife in a dream. His wife blamed him with a thin smile, and realized the sweet happiness of husband and wife's snuggling and lingering affection. But when he woke up from a dream, he felt even more desolate and disappointed when he faced the "sulfur glass fire" in the Buddhist temple. He also expressed his feelings by imagining his wife missing himself, which made his feelings more prominent and real. There is a poem [Nanxiangzi] entitled "Dao Yi" which reads: "The mandarin duck tiles have been frosted, and if you want to send cold clothes, you will hurt yourself. It is said that the recruiter is easy to lose weight, so you should measure them carefully when you come back in your dreams. The pillow is empty, and the moonlight is wiped clean. It is already late autumn and lonely night, and it is even more heartbroken in the southwest. " This word describes the sad mood and desolate scene when the husband is away from home and the wife is alone in the room, missing the husband.
In the couple's life of Nalan Xingde and Lushi for several years, the affection they established has always made him unforgettable. After Lu's death, he wrote many eulogies, in which his sincere feelings and sad style were equally tearful. For example, in "Golden Melody", he said, "I have been dreaming for three years, but I should wake up after a long dream, and I don't expect the world to be boring." "I have turned to the side since the end of the night, and I have to listen to Xiang Xian." In "Breaking the Huanxi Sand", he said: "How many drops of residual red wax tears will dry." Even years later, he still wrote: "This feeling has become a memory of itself, and it was a dream eleven years ago." It fully shows that his love for Lushi has never been weak.
From the above-mentioned poems expressing the feelings of husband and wife and mourning, we can see the valuable quality of Nalan Xingde's loyalty to love, but the sad mood of his poems also left a deep impression on us. This raises a question, is there another purpose in writing love so sorrowfully? Nalan Xingde has won the essence that Ci is graceful and graceful, and he should not be superficial. Therefore, will he express his deep meaning in his ci by means of writing? Or is there something else to send? All deserve our deep thought. We know that even in feudal society, too many poems expressing extramarital love will attract people's criticism and even condemnation, but it is another matter if they express the love between husband and wife. As for the mourning works, they can express their inner feelings as much as possible. It is not impossible for him to express his true feelings by thinking of Lu. Such problems need further discussion.