I am about the same age as you, I am also very lazy and find life boring.
Negativity and confusion are actually common to many people, but it doesn’t matter. What’s important is that you can find the direction. As a man, you must have a goal in life. This goal may not be a great ideal, but it may be an idea that has been brewing in your heart without even knowing it.
You don’t have to live a great life or a wonderful life in this life, but you must live a meaningful life that is worthy of yourself and your family. You must think highly of yourself!