1-He is 32 years old, from Beijing, has no fixed occupation, and calls himself "Da" and "Writer Zhang Bin". In order to enjoy this name in public, he went to the police station to apply for a name change, but was not approved. Although he is called a "great writer", he does not have any books officially published by the publishing house, and he lives hard on the 200 yuan his mother secretly gives him every month. If you search for "great writer Zhang Bin" on the Internet, you can find many comments about him: some claim to be his admirers; some lament his misfortune and are angry; others believe that he is just a man with multiple personalities and serious delusions. Psychiatric patients.

With the help of a 486 computer bought for 535 yuan, he started to build his own website bit by bit more than two years ago, and looked for popular forums to publish his "masterpieces" everywhere. There were a lot of boos and IDs were blocked again and again.

Even in the hustle and bustle of the Internet, his loneliness is still obvious. And many people don't know what kind of life is connected behind this loneliness.

The room is full of advertising elements

In the darkness of the corridor, behind an easily overlooked door is Zhang Bin’s home. Pushing open the door panel, a voice came through the corridor full of debris: "Don't be afraid, come in."

This apartment located near Xizhimen, Beijing is a public housing unit of Zhang Bin's mother. Pay rent. In addition, Zhang Bin’s monthly food and phone bills of 200 yuan are also borne by his mother. Mom has never been here since he moved in. She didn't want others to know that she had such a son. But every few weeks, her mother would call Zhang Bin and ask him to come home for dinner and give him next month's living expenses.

Compared with the dilapidation of the corridor, the interior of the house is surprisingly neat. The room was not deliberately tidied, and the surrounding walls were neatly covered with slogans written in red letters: "The great writer Zhang Bin is signing books." On a wooden partition next to the bed, there are books he made himself. The paper cutter on the ground has witnessed the birth of each book.

Zhang Bin sat in front of the computer between the crib and the window with his back to us. On his white T-shirt was written in big blood-red letters: "Great Writer Zhang Bin". The same slogans were written on the washed jeans: "Great Writer Zhang Bin" and "Pooping Power Book".

Every corner here shines with advertising elements, but unfortunately the audience is often only one person, that is, the "great writer Zhang Bin" himself.

After a few minutes, Zhang Bin started to get excited. He took out the "Plan for Traveling with the Great Writer Zhang Bin", which listed in detail his plans for the next period of time, and strongly suggested that we should travel together. He understands very well and even has some superstitious beliefs about the power of the media. One of his quotes is: "Whatever the media promotes will become popular in society." He wants to become rich and famous as quickly as possible. Maybe this is everyone's latent desire, but Zhang Bin expressed it much more eagerly than others, and this desire to get ahead arose several years ago.

The "stinky repeater" in the university

In September 1992, Zhang Bin was admitted to the communications major of Nanjing University of Posts and Telecommunications. At that time, there was only one enrollment quota for this major in Beijing. Not an easy task. Like all other college students, Zhang Bin started college life with a lot of dreams.

But only one month after the school started, an accident changed him - he was asked to write a check because he did not get the teacher's approval for going out for the National Day holiday (he and his classmates left a note of leave for the teacher, but at that time Didn't get the teacher's signature?

"I have never written a check before. I felt it was a great insult to me." In order to avoid the teacher, he fled from the classroom to the library and from Nanyou University. He fled to Nanjing University and stopped attending regular classes. Half a semester passed quickly in a hide-and-seek relationship with the teacher. At the end of the semester, he had no grades and had to repeat the grade, becoming a "bad repeater". The attributive word "stinky" is added in front of it, because for him, repeating a grade is a more shameful thing.

After such a humiliating incident, he has to find a way to "turn things over". During these days, “I just thought about how to get ahead, make a lot of money, and how to save face.” During this period, he made many small inventions, planned, and even contracted the small auditorium next to the school. Showing movies to students, but the result was a huge loss.

In the eyes of the students around him, Zhang Bin was actually one of the more outstanding students from Beijing at Nanjing University of Posts and Telecommunications.

He had strong hands-on skills. At that time, it was very popular on campus to make small inventions and assemble speakers. The things he made were always better. He even won an excellence award in an invention competition organized by Radio Magazine. According to the memories of his college classmates: "At that time, Zhang Bin did not have the big beard he has now. He was tall and thin. He was actually a handsome young man."

The three years ended quickly, because the general manager Because he didn't attend classes and missed a grade, he couldn't graduate normally. And, "hatefully," the school notified his mother that he would not graduate. A year later, his mother was diagnosed with cancer. "Everyone thought I was the one who made my mother sick."

He once again missed a grade, and the school arranged for him to attend the second grade with classmates two grades below him. In this way, he studied at a three-year university for five years without getting a diploma.

From Zhang Bin to "Great Writer Zhang Bin"

"It is difficult to find a job without a college diploma." Zhang Bin's first job after graduation was to work for a television production company Program planning, "Because planning does not require a diploma, and the money comes quickly, once a plan is completed, you can get tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands in commission." But among the planning he has done, the highest bonus he has received is only 1,000 yuan. , but he was fired soon after.

He is obsessed with planning work. In his eyes, there are opportunities for planning all the time in the world. Even when he was so poor that he made a living cleaning toilets in hotels, he could not let go of his passion for planning. I clean toilets during the day and write plans at night. After working day and night for a week, he submitted a plan on how to attract customers to the company boss. However, the suggestion was not accepted and he lost his job cleaning toilets.

A college classmate with 7 years of marketing experience saw one of his planning projects and concluded that "there is almost no possibility of practical operation." But Zhang Bin has never doubted his ability in this area: "They are jealous of talents and are worried that if I do too well, I will take their position in the future."

Unsatisfactory work makes his family unhappy. Trust him again. His younger brother scolded him for being lazy: "I am in my twenties and almost thirty years old, and I still have to support my seriously ill mother. I don't know how to be ashamed."

So he set up a street stall and sold thermometers and light sticks. . But at the same time, he began to plan for himself. He wanted to be famous. Zhang Bin became a "great writer" in an instant.

One night in 2001, after selling his personal serial diary "The Story of a Hero or a Liar" at a street stall for a day, Zhang Bin accidentally shouted on the small stone bridge: "I am selling the autograph of the great writer Zhang Bin. Book!" From then on, he found another reason to admit himself-"I am a great writer, and I want to sign and sell books." And the names of the books he wrote are also various: "Golden Sky", "27 Years Old", "The Power of Shit" and more.

Since then, he has frequently promoted his opinions in various online forums in the name of "Great Writer Zhang Bin", and from time to time he has signed books and sold books on a flyover in Beijing while wearing clothes with his name on them. ”—Although maybe not a single copy will be sold.

Lonely Life

The principle Zhang Bin adheres to is: if you want others to affirm yourself, you must first affirm yourself. But it is undeniable that while "affirming himself", his happiness is only limited to his own world.

Although his mother silently supported him, she never went to the streets with him, nor took the initiative to visit him in his hut. For several years, she had told her neighbors that her son worked at the telecommunications bureau. Zhang Bin is afraid of seeing his younger brother because he will be scolded whenever he sees him. Even if he occasionally visits his mother, he will choose to do so when his younger brother is not around.

He has no friends, and his life consists almost exclusively of him. It is difficult for him to remember the last time he had a face-to-face chat with someone, and this loneliness may even cause him to temporarily become speechless at times. The Internet did not bring much change to his life. Several times he thought he had found friends, but he was always disappointed.

A few years ago, there was a kitten named "Huahua Pig" who kept him company, but was later given away by his mother. Because the little sparrows often visit, his window sill seems more lively than other homes. Compared with his animal friends, in real life, no one seems to be like-minded with him.

He cherishes the rare opportunity to talk to people, regardless of whether others are willing to listen. "Give me one more minute to finish this. It's hard for anyone to talk to me, so let me finish.

"The tone was almost pleading.

When I said goodbye, I had already reached the stairs and heard a voice from upstairs shouting: "Next time you come, I will give you all my books. set. ”

2-Acheng’s surname is Zhong, and his real name is “Zhong Acheng”. This name seems unfamiliar to most people. At first glance, you might think of him as a wonton seller. In fact, this young master is a Qingjing Sanren from Huangcheng's roots, who got his start by playing cockfighting and walking dogs. In his book, Acheng himself explained that his parents were both members of the People's Liberation Army that besieged Peiping. , named after "Acheng", means to commemorate the encirclement of the city by the countryside.

This is a very interesting statement. It is not difficult to imagine that Acheng is an interesting person. His reputation is not great. Not many. In a few years, he will probably be forgotten by the public. Moreover, he has never written any long novels, and there are only a few novels. However, this does not prevent Acheng from becoming the first in China. A first-class writer, what is called a "big master" in Beijing dialect.

It is naturally difficult to become a "big master" just by being highly productive.

No, you have to have some aura. Otherwise, even if you write one novel a year, it will still be like Qiong Yao Haiyan, and not first-class. Of course, there are many types of writers with aura, including Wang Xiaobo's cleverness and others.

Su Tong's talent and style, but the intelligence of these people is obvious to everyone.

In comparison, Acheng's aura is far from perfect. The kind that is calm and hidden, to use a line from Lu Xun's poem

to describe it, it can be said to be "listening to thunder in a silent place". To put it more popularly, it is the common saying "it can bite." "Dogs don't bark." When I read his novels in the early years, there were no twists and turns in the plots, and the words were all concise

. I read it in a hurry and didn't think much of it. But after thinking about it again, I realized I feel that Acheng's narrative is actually very meaningful and has a long aftertaste.

It is simple and contains natural wild charm. This kind of writing is rare nowadays.

Shen Congwen. Wang Zengqi, Sun Li, and Acheng can all be regarded as the top masters of this school. Their works are not long, but their words are carefully refined, unlike today's novelists who write millions of words at once.

The name, either way, made me blush, my heart beat, my neck thickened. After reading it, I could only say angrily like Ah Q, "Mom, I've been fooled again!" ”

Acheng’s thoughts are very mixed. I don’t know whether he believes in Marxism or Lenin. Anyway, he likes things from Confucianism, Taoism and Zen. The general view is that he is closer to Taoism. . Many critics believe that the novel mentioned above contains Chinese Taoist culture. You may still have an impression of the "chess nerd" Wang Yisheng in the book. He also plays Taoist chess and pays attention to it. Strike later. The character Wang Yisheng also embodies the highest ideal of Taoism. His attitude towards life is two words: "Inaction". It seems weak and weak, but in fact, he is strong and does everything without doing anything. Instead, all his opponents were defeated by him.

Dr. Hu Heqing from East China Normal University made a very detailed analysis. This Dr. Hu committed suicide by jumping off a building ten years ago, which shocked the whole country.

It has also been forgotten by people now. He had a very good book called "The Book of Relics". When he died, I went to look for it and remembered that several recent writers were mentioned in the book. The Taoist school, such as Su Tong, Ge Fei, and of course Acheng. Now that I think about it, it’s a pity that this book has been long gone.

I like it. There are many people in Acheng, and of course there are serious criticisms. For example, Mr. Kong Qingdong, a doctor of literature, wrote several articles specifically criticizing one of Acheng's books. This book is some of Acheng's short stories. This collection uses the writing method of ancient notebook novels. It is probably too pursuit of conciseness, so there are basically no personal subjects in the long descriptions, which made Kong Qingdong read it.

For a long time, I didn’t know what Acheng wrote. What is it?

Not only Mr. Kong is dizzy, but I am also dizzy. For example, these sentences are: "It's night, there is a rustle, put on your clothes." Kong Qingdong then criticized: "Is it an autumn night or a spring night?" What

People are up? What rustles? Who put on the clothes again? "(I don't have the book, so the quotes are not from the original text, this is the general idea from my memory)

Finally, let's talk about Acheng's essays.

The more famous ones are two collections, one called "Talking about Chinese novels and philosophy". They are written fluently and interestingly and are well worth reading. The other one is called, it contains some travel notes from his travels in Italy. He drew some Venetian illustrations himself, and paired them with his witty remarks.

They complement each other perfectly.

Acheng likes to play, calligraphy, painting and antiques, and even assembled his own car. His travel notes were written casually, naturally, and he was much better than Yu Qiuyu. Lao Yu's game is called "Bitter Journey", and I haven't played it yet.

First, I need to bring a box of reference books to prepare for the eight-part essay. Acheng is not like that. He just plays and has fun, so he just writes a few random articles.

What does Lao Yu lack compared to Acheng? I think it's just three words: "normal heart

". It's easy to say, but how many people can do it?

3- Derrida said, I am just fighting with myself. In the history of literature and thought, my country's Lu Xun once did this, and Europe's Kant, Nietzsche, Schopenhauer and Foucault also did this, and there are probably very few people who do it again. The funny thing is, I tried to do this for a while, but failed. I was always defeated by myself and was completely defeated. Sometimes I even lost the courage and strength to fight again. But I just said to myself, stand up and keep fighting until you defeat yourself instead of being defeated by yourself.

In many people’s lives, this may be a destination that they can never reach. But we need to work hard to get closer to it, as long as life has not completely abandoned us. No, even if life abandons us, we cannot give up, and we still need to work harder towards it.

I originally wanted to talk about Zhu Tianwen, but for some reason I started talking about Derrida. A writer will inevitably bear many imprints as he grows up. His life-long creation is nothing more than finding different embellishments in these imprints, and then carving them into his own skin to become a unique world. This is another form of fighting against oneself.

Zhu Tianwen’s novels come from two worlds, which are beautiful spaces constructed by a pair of lovers, namely Hu Lancheng and Zhang Ailing. Needless to say, from "Memories of Flowers' Predecessors" and "Childhood Past" to "The Capital of Hot Summer" and "The Gorgeousness of the End of the Century", Zhu Tianwen was enjoying the shade of his ancestors' grandfather and grandmother. It was not until "Notes of a Deserted Man" that the narrow door to a new life for her novels had just opened. The appearance of "E World" was indeed surprising and surprising. Suddenly, I discovered that novels can be written in this way. As Taiwanese writer Wu He said, Zhu Tianwen's "obsession with things" is the characteristic of her novels, but I think that no longer sticking to the original universe and trying to satisfy her desire to name novels prompted her to Zhu Tianwen became addicted to witchcraft. Starting from "Notes of a Desolate Man", Zhu Tianwen's "Witch Time" and "Underglaze Blue" have been picking precious fruits in a kind of "witchcraft" world, and they are colorful and wanton under the sky of Taipei. The ground is in bloom. She is simply a witch, as if everything in her world has been enchanted and reassembled under the command of her pen. All the original DNA orders are destroyed, extracted under the high temperature of pottery, and finally When the fire goes out and the colors emerge, a new order of word dance becomes apparent. The house of literary life has been dismantled and reassembled at will by her, and she is embarking on rebuilding a house about novels that are different from the previous one. It is said that she is currently writing a novel "Witch Words". The first sentence begins like this: It's like this, I once met a traveler who was not traveling with him. Just this sentence triggers our endless desires. It's like the first time I saw the title of the movie "Stork", I searched frantically throughout Nanjing for this disc until I found it.

Now think about it, who said novels can’t be written like this? Who stipulates that the world of novels must not be maintained like this? Isn’t this how creation begins to unfold? If all thinking space is restricted by existing restrictions, how can the needs of human spiritual society and cultural world continue to develop?

In the face of all excellent novels, any explanation and analysis are pale. They are unrepeatable, and every writer is different, but in summary, it seems that in recent years Taiwan and Hong Kong writers have been trying to explore the literary meaning and order that truly belongs to their own personal space. This is a new voice that is different from mainland literature, but it is It is a manifestation of the vigorous vitality of Chinese literature. In mainland China, there seems to be a Han Shaogong who is fighting for a new order of novels. We will wait and see.

Attachment: A brief introduction to Zhu Tianwen

Zhu Tianwen, female, was born in Linqu, Shandong Province in 1956 in Fengshan, Kaohsiung, Taiwan. She graduated from the English Department of Tamkang University. Born into a literary family, his father Zhu Xining wrote the novel "Iron Slurry"; his private school teacher was Hu Lancheng, and he was deeply influenced by him. His sister Zhu Tianxin is also a famous Taiwanese writer and author of "Ancient Capital". He once edited "Sansan Collection" and "Sansan Magazine" and now specializes in writing. He won the third place in the first United Daily News Novel Award and the Outstanding Short Story Award in the fifth China Times Literary Award. In 1994, he won the first Times Literary Millions Novel Award for "The Deserted Man's Notes". . He is the author of many novels, essays and film scripts. "Witch Words" is a novel he is currently writing.