In fact, suicidal tendencies are the most common symptom of major depression. Before falling, he wrote in a note: "Depression, thank you all friends, thank you Professor Melefife. This year has been very hard, and I can't bear it anymore. Thank you, Mr. Tang, and my family." , Thank you, Sister Fei. I have never done anything bad in my life, why is this so?"?
In his suicide note, he thanked all his friends, Mr. Tang Hede and his doctor. Agent Chen Shufen later confirmed that he was suffering from depression. He tried hard to treat it for more than a year, but still committed suicide due to his condition getting out of control. Professor of Medicine Lin Wenjie said: "I firmly believe that his final behavior was not "voluntarily" or "controllable" by him.
First of all, Leslie Cheung knew the seriousness of his illness and actively sought medical treatment, and the words at the end of his suicide note “I have never done anything bad in my life, why is this so? "It also expressed his extreme helplessness and willingness to linger on this world." Leslie Cheung's suicide has become a big mystery
There are constant speculations from the outside world, but in the end it was announced that he suffered from depression. As for why he got this strange disease that does not seem to be terminal, but it is terminal, there are a lot of discussions from the outside world. Among them, the majority of them believe that Leslie Cheung is under great pressure from public opinion, and that outsiders are involved in the drama too much, which leads to a tragedy. .
Afterwards, the eldest sister Zhang Luping confirmed that the truth behind her death was due to depression. Depression is divided into two types: physical and mental. Leslie Cheung fell into the first type, which was caused by an imbalance of chemical substances in the brain. Before the incident, Leslie Cheung also asked Chen Shufang to meet in the lobby of the Mandarin Hotel, but he failed to realize that Chen Shufang witnessed Leslie Cheung falling from the 24th floor of the hotel.
Generally good people have the feeling that "it is too cold to be in high places". When a person's status, achievement or realm reaches a height that ordinary people cannot reach, not many people can understand his troubles and pain, and it is difficult to find true friends. Loneliness has become the norm. If it cannot be resolved normally, depression will form over time, and depression is difficult to deal with. recover. Therefore, we must maintain an optimistic attitude. People also need mutual care, communication and warmth. Who drove him to a dead end?
I think my brother’s alienation from his parents and family since he was a child has had a great impact on his life. Because of the lack of family ties since childhood, he has been very insecure and needs to constantly work hard to show his best side and win the approval of most people. From Mao Shunyun's interview with him, we can clearly feel the desire for family affection.
So, he has always had high demands on himself, pursuing perfection in everything he does, and he is very concerned about the outside world's evaluation of him. He is often in a high-pressure life, especially for the extreme requirements of work and for others. The art of stage performance advanced the aesthetics, but was distorted and criticized by the media (2000 concert), which had a serious blow to him, and he once expressed his dissatisfaction with the media in public.
In addition, the later films "The King of Guns" and "Alien Space" are all about characters dealing with depression, and the songs in the later period are mostly darker tunes, which deepens the understanding of his depression. influence. To sum up, my brother suffered from depression due to his long-term high-pressure work life and accumulated dissatisfaction with various unfair realities. I think a big part of the reason is that he is too perfectionistic
Because he is perfectionistic and has too high demands on himself and requires himself to do well in all aspects, so whether he is a good artist or a good son, A good friend, a Chinese who serves the country proudly, demands perfection.
It is not necessarily a good thing for a person to be burdened with too much perfection. First of all, you will live very tiredly, and secondly, you will attract the envy and jealousy of people around you. His depression was also blamed on some unscrupulous media. They maliciously distorted the facts and made false claims. I have always believed that only kind-hearted people suffer from depression
Because they feel that they are sorry for others, have failed others, have done something wrong, or have never done well enough. After a person suffers from severe depression, he will feel like a dead tree infested with worms, watching the disease gradually eating away at him but unable to get rid of it. They are very pessimistic, feeling that they are hopeless and the world is hopeless.
They will get angry, smash things, hit people, or they may be in particularly good spirits and feel particularly confident, making you mistakenly think that they have recovered from their illness. I heard that my brother's manager Chen Shufen said that Tangtang suffered a lot of injuries while taking care of his sick brother. I think the reason why my brother chose to commit suicide was, on the one hand, he wanted to end this painful struggle, and on the other hand, he didn’t want to be a burden to others, and he didn’t want to be the cause of his family’s pain.