"Walking through the same street, we returned to two worlds" To those young days that can never be returned

At this moment, the sound of roommate S's snoring is heard all the time. Regardless of the fact that I yelled at her to show that I was sleeping happily, I admitted that I talk in my sleep when I sleep. Although I have been apologizing for my unknowing sleep talk, my roommate S is always mocking me overtly and covertly, but she She seemed completely uninterested that her own snoring would still make it difficult for others to fall asleep.

Today I met a good friend whom I haven’t seen for almost half a year. I used to be able to talk in front of her, but now I have become silent. She who had become silent in front of me before became talkative. Yes, time is a very strange thing. It can transform people, smooth them out, make them silent, and make them good at dancing. When we got into an argument over one sentence, I said when did you become so eloquent? She said I have always been like this. Look, many people are not aware of their own changes. She said she was silent with me before because she didn't want to discuss the topic I was obsessed with. Because I wasn't interested, I didn't quite understand it at first, but during the few hours she talked to me, I also discovered that sometimes, when we were discussing a topic, we chose to be quiet, not because we were persuaded by the other party or something. We are also willing to discuss it with each other, perhaps with disdain. Maybe if I say this, my best friend will be angry with me, but there is nothing I can do about it, just think that I am too bookish and smelly, and cannot learn to be diplomatic in dealing with things in society, because I also disdain it.

In fact, sometimes I feel that I am very timid, especially when faced with some strange people and bad situations. It takes me a long time to adapt. This may be the reason why I am a homebody. I don’t like to meet new friends. Maybe as the Broomstick (a best friend’s nickname) said in high school, I have low self-esteem, but I dare not admit my low self-esteem. I feel powerful, I feel like I can do anything. This is not the case. I feel that I really need a lot of courage every time I take a step forward. For example, when I worked at Lianjia before, I didn’t know anyone when I first entered the store. I disguised myself as a person who is harmless, popular, will not get angry, and is happy. A good and helpful colleague. (Actually, I am also such a person, but I often get angry). Everyone gradually accepted me as a person who had no sense of existence. My goal has been achieved, because I don’t want to be high-profile as soon as I enter the company and want everyone to know me. I'm used to being a low-key person, but I don't do things in a low-key way. I am also a slow-warming person. Once someone becomes my chosen friend, I really can’t get rid of them. So much so that when I left my job to go to graduate school, I still felt that all the people I had known for less than five months were my relatives.

I actually discovered some changes in myself, no longer so angular, no longer so reckless. Learned to be tactful, learned to be tolerant, and learned to suffer losses. Today my best friend asked me, why don't you have a boyfriend? In fact, this is also a question I have been avoiding. Yes, although I have a crush on others at the age of 25, I have never been in a serious relationship, so I said Not to mention the first night, even the first kiss. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me. Why haven't I got a boyfriend yet? I like people who don’t like me, and I don’t like people who like me. And I have a quirk. If I know that someone I don’t like has thoughts about me, then I will basically break up with him. I will treat you as a friend. You dare to have unreasonable thoughts about me. This may be the reason why few people express their feelings to me. My roommate’s snoring continues. I may not be able to sleep tonight, so let me tell you a little story.

The story happened a long time ago. The male protagonist was named Zhang Xi and the girl was named Xiaoqi. The two officially met when neither of them was admitted to the best high school in a certain city, so they chose to repeat their studies in the same junior high school. Sometimes God's arrangement may be the truth, and the two of them get along like friends. Later, the girl Xiaoqi was admitted to the best high school, and the boy was admitted to an ordinary high school. Then the boy chose to drop out of school in the second year of high school and went to a technical school to learn what he liked. Originally, Xiaowu always thought that Zhang Xi was a The childish boy not only looks innocent and harmless, but also gives people the feeling that he is like jade to a stranger and an unparalleled gentleman. In today's terms, he is just a little fresh meat. So Xiaowu always regarded him as his younger brother, even though they were about the same age.

Until that day by chance, I was probably in the first half of high school. The two met on the bus back to school. When they were repeating their third year of junior high school, they talked about everything, whether it was which boy in the class fell in love with which girl, how the two of them got together, or The teacher asked so-and-so to go out to talk again, and found out that they were in love or something. A year later, the two of them had nothing to say, and everything was changing. Zhang Xi still wanted to talk to Xiaoqi as much as before, but the half-hour drive seemed far away. Not nearly enough. So, Zhang Xi followed Xiao Qi to the door of her school and got off the bus, still mumbling. In fact, Xiao Qi could not remember what he was talking about. She only saw Zhang Xi talking all the time, and then his lips burst and started to bleed. She said your lip was bleeding. He said it didn't matter, the weather was too dry, and then he stretched out his hand and wiped his lips, and finally the blood was wiped on his chin. Xiao Qi just handed over a piece of paper. He sent Xiaoqi to the campus, and he said that I would write to you. We have a holiday every Saturday afternoon and will come to see you when we have time. Then he left with his bloodshot chin and his schoolbag on his back. As a result, after waiting and waiting, Zhang Xi's people did not arrive, but a letter from him came. The letter only said that he had a lot to say after meeting Xiao Qi, but he didn’t know where to start. He asked Xiao Qi how her summer vacation was spent, how was school, and how was her relationship with her classmates? She also made a note later, saying that you are so popular. People get along well with anyone. I also asked if the food in the cafeteria was delicious. Continue to note, for a person like you who is not picky about food, he can eat any food. At the end of the letter, Zhang Xi wrote to the community, "I miss you..." Although the seventeen-year-old Xiao Qi has read the Book of Songs, she has always regarded boys as friends, so for the so-called reply Symmetry wrote "Missing you..." in the reply to Zhang Xi. Then the letter seemed to have disappeared. Xiaoqi was in a key high school and was busy with the task of learning people, so she gradually forgot about writing letters. One thing happened, when Zhang Xi was about to graduate from the second year of high school and was about to enter the third year of high school, Zhang Xi came to Xiao Qi's school to look for her. By then, he was no longer the same height as Xiao Qi. At that time, he was really a young boy who was a classmate of Qia. He was in his prime, 18 years old, and had grown to 1.82 meters. The delicate appearance of a child had also turned into what girls said, "Wow, so handsome." With his arrival, his His height really made Xiao Qi look at him with admiration. The first thing Zhang Xi saw when he saw Xiao Qi was, "You are so short now." In fact, he was embarrassed to say that after two years of not seeing each other, you were already fat as a ball. At that time, adolescent girls, especially little girls in school, were actually very happy when they heard someone in class say that there was a boy outside looking for you, especially a tall and handsome boy. There are several boys in the class who have a good relationship with Xiaoqi who would joke, "Hey, Xiaoqi, who is it..." That ah can always adjust from one to four channels, ah, one minute. How could I know about Xiaoqi Chapter? When I saw Zhang Xi when I went out, she looked like a complete stranger. "What's wrong, you don't recognize me anymore," Zhang Xi's words brought Xiao Qi back to reality. "No, it's just that you are too tall and scared me." The two then walked out to the campus playground. In the playground, Zhang Xi told Xiaoqi that he had gone to a technical school in the provincial capital and was no longer in high school. Xiao Qi couldn't remember what they talked about in the middle. She only remembered that Zhang Xi gave her a mobile phone number. Since not everyone had that mobile phone, Xiao Qi felt that the two of them were really in love with each other. It's getting further and further away. Zhang Xi's arrival this time may have been just by the way, or inadvertently, but it made Xiao Qi deeply emotional. Who said that era was not an era of good looks?

Later, Xiao Qi tried to call this phone number from a public phone. After each call, Xiao Qi could not calm down for a long time. I remember one call, Zhang Xi asked Xiao Qi if he could get into the same school as him. If he could get into a university in the provincial capital, he would stay in the provincial capital to look for a job. With his grades in Primary 7 at that time, it was impossible to get into that university, although he did not get into that university with his final college entrance examination results. During these casual phone calls, Xiao Qi fell in love with Zhang Xi, just like Feng Jiu loved Emperor Donghua, she liked him very much. But Xiaoqi didn't tell the whole world that she liked Donghua like Fengjiu. At that time, her love was hidden, hidden deep in her heart. . Then time passed like this, and finally after the college entrance examination. Xiaoqi went to a decent university with a pretty good score. However, Zhang Xi did not come back to open his own 4S store after studying as he had said before. Instead, at the age of 19, he started his blind date journey in that small town. At that time, QQ already existed.

During the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, her mother also bought Xiaoqi a mobile phone, so Xiaoqi and Zhang Xi also restored their contact. But every time Zhang Xi tells Xiao Qi about his blind dates, whether they are ugly, beautiful, tall or low. It was like discussing a piece of clothing. In fact, Zhang Xi never knew how cruel it was for Xiao Qi, who was in love for the first time, to discuss his blind date with the person he had a crush on. Fortunately, they had a relatively unforgettable summer vacation. They would meet up to go to the city to play together. Although they were with other classmates, it was still a date. The most unforgettable outing experience was probably the two of them riding bicycles for seven days. That time, Zhang Xi couldn't find a bike and rode a women's bicycle. Xiao Qi rode a unisex bicycle. Later, Xiao Qi saw that Zhang Xi couldn't even bend on such a small bicycle. She just swapped with him. She didn't even think about the price she had to pay for exchanging bicycles. After riding a bicycle that couldn't stretch her legs, she rode for another seven hours. When she got home at night, Xiaoqi's legs hurt all over. At night, I really didn't sleep all night. They were really chatting and laughing all the way. Zhang Xi would deliberately bump the front wheel of his bicycle into Xiao Qi's bicycle. This should be the current way of flirting with girls. Maybe Xiao Qi was born with a lack of nerves, and seemed to be angry, scolding "What are you doing?" Zhang Xi just smiled, how can you say Xiao Qi has no brain, because sometimes it is true, she only lives in her own world, No consideration for others at all. When the two were about to separate at a crossroads. Xiaoqi told Zhang Xi that she wanted to say a word to him. Zhang Xi joked, "What are you talking about? It's so formal." The last thing she wanted to say ten thousand times was still not uttered. Xiao Qi left a sentence on her bike and left quickly. After riding less than 100 meters, she looked back at Zhang Xi who had turned into another fork in the road. Xiao Qi sent what she had always wanted to say, "Zhang Xi, I have four years left to graduate from college. If you can wait for me for four years, then I will marry you immediately after graduation." After sending the message, Xiao Qi kept saying It took about ten minutes to wait for Zhang Xi's reply. Xiao Qi received a text message from Zhang Xi, "If I am not married in five years, then I will marry you." Later, Xiao Qi contacted Zhang Xi on QQ or text messages, and Zhang Xi both Not much reply. Xiaoqi called him once, and another boy answered the phone, saying that Zhang Xi's mobile phone was being repaired. At that time, the silly Xiao Qi believed it. In fact, thinking about it now, if the mobile phone is being repaired, how can it be connected? It must be that Zhang Xi doesn't want to contact Xiao Qi anymore. But at that time, the innocent Xiao Qi was waiting for this so-called wishful first love. Later, Zhang Xi’s QQ signature was changed. Change it to "Walking through the same street, you return to two worlds." Xiao Qi is still keeping the five-year agreement. When Zhang Xi told Xiao Qi that he was engaged to his elementary school classmate, Xiao Qi kept it. When he uploaded photos of traveling with his fiancée on QQ space, he waited until he was unprepared. He posted the wedding photos of him and his fiancée on QQ space. Xiaoqi cried that night. She told all the things she had confessed to Zhang Xi. As well as the fact that Zhang Xi is getting married, he told his best friend Xiaoqing. Xiaoqing said, don't be stupid, his five-year agreement is just to coax you, he doesn't like you at all. Yes, the most powerless thing in the world is that the person you like doesn't like you, so what can you do? Later, after crying and making trouble, slowly, Zhang Xi’s name changed from an extremely important position to a dispensable person. Time is really a good medicine to heal pain, and later, later , Xiao Qi seems to have slowly started to travel while taking advantage of his free time in college, and then met another like-minded boy during the trip. If you want to know what happened next, let’s listen to the next chapter. (My roommate’s snoring seems to have become quieter, maybe I should go to sleep)

Let me add that in the flower-like secret love between Xiao Qi and Zhang Xi, it is not that nothing is gained, but the one who gains the most benefits The person should be Xiao Qing, because after listening to Xiao Qi’s confession and the story with Zhang Xi, she was bored and wanted to try what it felt like for a girl to confess to her, so she confessed to her classmate Xiao Fei, and then, Her life seems to be much better than Xiao Qi's, and her happiness seems to be based on Xiao Qi's pain. Always, Xiao Qing did what Xiao Qi failed to do. Xiao Fei accepted Xiao Qi's confession, and The two got married as soon as they graduated from college. Now Xiaoqing should be peacefully raising a child, but now Xiaoqi is still alone and continues to study alone. But Xiao Qi is still grateful to the world and God for allowing her to have a relatively perfect boy at her most beautiful age, allowing Xiao Qi to rest her youth.