Text/Zou Yu (An Ying)

After the college entrance examination, I began to read Zhang Ailing's Half Life. I am not fascinated by it, but I will cry when I read it. I was heartbroken because of a novel, but in the end it developed into a heartbreak in this book. I knew that there were people and things that didn't exist, but I felt so distressed, as if everything I had experienced, wounds, sisters and desires, watching love miss in front of time and ran aground in silence. ...

Suddenly I feel that the world is cruel, and sometimes I even fall in love with the right person, but there is no fate to go on together. We struggled with each other in fate, and after many years, we all became a pot of spoiled leftovers.

So that's why I wasn't fascinated when I first saw the fate of half-life. I'm afraid of that kind of love. I'm afraid to see them get hurt and become victims of fame and fortune. But it was not until one day that I read "You are my dust settled" in another book that I found that there is no so-called obstacle in love, only you love me.

? I began to recall the love that made me sad and moved, such as Lu You and Tang Wan, Lu Xun and Xu Guangping, Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman, Shen Congwen and Zhang Zhaohe, San Mao and Jose, Qu Qiubai and Yang Zhihua ... I know that in reality, love sometimes seems so small and empty, but its power is so immeasurable.

Just like I used to like the phrase "hold your hand and grow old with your son", but gradually I found that these are all false. One of the two people will always go first, so the dust settles deeper. When the bones of two lovers turn into dust and blend together, regardless of you, me and each other, this is the companionship of life.

Suddenly I remembered a good friend of mine, whose love I witnessed and even participated in. At that time, she and he were separated by a city, a long road and several mountains, but they loved each other very much. Distance is nothing, girls always go to see boys by train on weekends, and girls always give boys many gifts.

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I remember once on Valentine's Day, a girl wanted to give a boy a bunch of roses that she folded, so she asked me to teach her. We bought a lot of materials. She studied hard and stayed up late. I was a little unfair to her. I asked her why you had to pay stupidly by yourself. You were so tired from your studies that you insisted on seeing him, but he was indifferent. As a result, the girl smiled and said, I don't understand. At that moment, I saw her smile, which contained a feeling of happiness. I had to keep silent, and she was very happy.

It wasn't until I read Jiang Yang's The Three of us and Jiang Yang and Qian Zhongshu that I realized that sometimes, loving someone is not just to get the other person's love, so much effort is just to see him live well and be happy, so I retreat behind the scenes and don't ask for anything in return.

As for what happened to that girl, I don't know. It can be said that I lost contact with many people after graduating from high school, but I believe that such a good girl deserves someone to settle down.

When I first went to college, I also saw the love of many people. Some people fall behind, others run aground halfway. In fact, every encounter is just for our better growth.

I once met a couple and broke up today. That was before the first Christmas of freshman year. This is a very festive day, and there is a happy atmosphere everywhere. I saw a beautiful girl, so beautiful that even though her face was covered with tears and her makeup was like oil painting, she still had delicate eyes and was lovable. She squatted on the ground, holding a boy's hand, but the boy shook it off again and again.

I watched her fall to the ground crying, and the boy left without looking back. This is the reality, what a beautiful festival, some people are happy and others are sad.

I have never liked people who treat love lightly, because there is no rule that whoever owes is who. Since we are all equal, others have no right to hurt us.

I used to like reading novels, whether it was books or the Internet, long stories or short stories ... Many times, I would laugh when I looked at them, not because the plot was funny, but because the writing was too perfect and desirable. But as we all know, novels are false after all, and those plots don't exist in life. However, we are all stupid, preferring fantasy to accept reality, which has contributed to the rapid development of China's novel industry.

In fact, what I admire most is a girl named Xiao Mo. By chance, she told me her story without reservation. This may also be an alternative trust, so I won't be afraid of being unfamiliar.

Xiao Mo has always liked someone, which is what we call unrequited love. Many people had a secret crush when they were young, just like Ke Jingteng likes Shen Jiayi, and we will study hard because of her/him; Will desperately change his/her applause in the basketball game; Can write love letters; Will deliberately make mistakes to attract her/his attention ... In short, some youth are so vivid because of unrequited love, but no matter what the final result is, we don't feel sorry, at least we will feel happy when we recall.

Xiao Mo liked him a long time ago, probably since high school. She told me that the boy was excellent, not only in his studies, but also in his personality. It's not that there is no confession and no attention, but the boy ignored it like a giant Buddha, so Xiao Mo could only look at him silently.

She began to study hard. She thought that as long as she kept up with him, she would always be one step away from him, and time would slip away slowly.

Later, she and the boy became good friends, good friends in school. They went to the same university and continued to help each other. Xiao Mo also continues to be infatuated with each other. Until one day, the boy was admitted to a graduate school abroad. Xiao Mo couldn't help it. She sent a short message to the boy. She said, "I have had a crush on you for eight years. Do you dare to keep me waiting? "

Xiao Mo didn't receive a reply until the boy left. She's ready to give up, yes! 2 1 year-old, she is no longer young. Just as she was about to start over, she suddenly saw the boy's QQ signature saying, "Wait for me, and I will let you wear a wedding dress as my bride in three years."

Of course, this is all in the future. My friend said Xiao Mo was lucky, but shouldn't she get it? After all, she has been waiting for so many years. The reason why all of us can't believe it and feel illusory is because we haven't loved anyone for seven or eight years.

Maybe I will meet more people and read more stories in the future, but it's good to dare to be with you at the end of my tether, or to cook wine and watch the sunset at dusk. Love always needs some patience, some time and some waiting, just like brewing wine, the longer it gets, the more mellow it becomes.

We have no right to criticize other people's lives or interfere in their love, but even if you are versatile, smart and gentle, you will be disconsolate if you don't have time to run a relationship.

Some people say that love is different from marriage, but the most beautiful love is marriage in the end. We are all looking forward to having someone to accompany us when the dust settles, but for now, how can your ability hold up?

Once again, love has age, time and patience. If you love, please love deeply!