Many people are puzzled by this name. I remember someone joking, "Isn't this the corpse of a plant?" In fact, I don't know why I want to use this name as my screen name, but every time I name it, these five words always pop up in my mind first, and I can't get rid of it anyway.
I guess it's because I can't find a better word to describe me
I didn't choose this name (or nickname) myself. From my two best playmates in primary school. According to the old saying, it should be regarded as "sworn brothers". How good is our relationship? We go to school together, go for a walk after school together, do homework together, play games together, enjoy praise together, bear mistakes together, take the train together, eat together, take a shower together and sleep together. In short, we cry together, laugh together, and talk about everything. Every self-comparison is "Liu Guanzhang".
That was probably in the fourth grade. The teacher assigned a composition, let's write a classmate who has the best relationship with him. The format requirement is: "XXX, a concrete thing". The two men didn't know whether to discuss it or not, so they wrote about me together. And the topics are: "xxx, the silent scarecrow", which is well written and assigned to the class by the teacher.
I can't remember any more details. I only remember that I was deeply moved that day. I am an extremely introverted person. I seldom talk and don't want to show myself. Growing up, I kept myself in a small circle, with few friends and little contact with people. Once at the end of the semester, my mother asked the class teacher to know about my situation at school, but the teacher didn't even deserve my name.
People always say that my personality is a weakness and I need to change it. However, the world is like a melting pot, which I don't want. My attitude towards the world is so cold. I don't want to be melted by that stove. I don't feel lonely, but I am always lonely.
Therefore, I never thought about or expected someone to mention me and praise me in my composition or conversation with others. But that day, I really listened. My two good friends described me in front of the class. They know me and understand me, and they don't think my character is a weakness. They like my silence and silence. This is the first time I have harvested a friendly signal from the world outside my family and emerged from the cocoon. So I deeply remembered this nickname, called "Silent Scarecrow".
Unfortunately, the ending of the story is not happy. Every time I tell this story, I always like to start with "All good things must come to an end". Yes, in the battle against time, no one will win.
After graduating from primary school, we went to different junior high schools and high schools, and our contact became weaker and weaker. Until they graduated from high school, they failed in the college entrance examination, gave up their dream of studying medicine, and went to be soldiers in the distance at the urging of their parents; One gradually rebelled and finally went to an art college in Yunnan to study; But I stayed in Shandong and came to Shanshi. After that, my classmates said that I gradually became cheerful and felt more like an actor with less superb acting skills.
Anyway, we are finally getting farther and farther away, but in my life, it seems that I can't find another person like them anymore.
Just like a song, fate has drawn a one-way street for us, and we can't turn back. We can't even go back to see our old friends, nor can we go back to find ourselves. "Silent Scarecrow", a simple name, retains my last stubbornness to this world.
Or perhaps, this name I have always insisted on is just the pure white friendship I left in the past, the carefree time and the deepest commemoration of myself that I have long lost.