Let us always miss Severus Snape

Severus Snape, a man on the edge of contradiction. A man who was abandoned by love but kept his word. A hero who surrounds his heart with indifference.

Yes, he was an unlikable guy from the beginning. He is harsh, arrogant, jealous, and lonely. He made things difficult for the admired Harry Potter in every possible way, and he even personally killed the principal who was admired by everyone. But when his blood spread, he gained people's respect, the respect that should have belonged to him.

No one seems to be able to accept his title of Voldemort - Master. Yes, it was so groveling, even before he died he was "begging" his master to let him find the boy. But what about his eyes? His eyes were fixed on the snake that would eventually kill him. Why? Because Dumbledore said that as soon as one day Voldemort no longer sends the snake out to perform tasks, but uses magic to protect it, that is the time to tell Harry all the truth. So he waited, waiting amidst the curses. Finally, he waited for the day of his liberation. For this day, he had waited for too long.

What he left to the world was just a gorgeous turn; a beautiful past.

He is always misunderstood, but he still persists in doing things that only he understands amidst the contempt and disgust.

He is proficient in Occlumency, he has the enviable magical power in the wizarding world, and he is good at brewing potions that confuse people's hearts, but he has sealed his love at the deepest level, and no one can Peep, even Voldemort.

He does not belong to anyone, not Voldemort's, nor Dumbledore's, he is his own.

He is willful and self-righteous. In his eyes, love is a very heavy luxury.

He is lonely, he is fragile, and he cannot even accept Harry's eyes.

However, he is protecting those who hate him, even if he loses his life, he will never look back.

In fact, from the moment he saw Harry's eyes, he was destined to push himself into an abyss.

He can successfully save people every time, but he always fails and becomes the object of people's resentment.

Yes, the counter-curse he used against Quirrell was burned off by Miss Granger. He wanted to referee the second game to ensure that Quirrell could not hurt Harry, but everyone misunderstood that he wanted to prevent Gryffindor from winning. However, as Quirrell said, he and Harry's father hated each other to death, but he never wanted Harry to die.

Perhaps, people are used to warm love. But when Severus Snape used his body to protect the three children in front of the werewolf, people buried that real protection with their usual indifference.

In Snape's heart, there is a scar, a scar that even magic cannot repair. It was the pain in his heart that pricked him all the time. He used his mistakes to ruin the life of the only person he loved. From then on, he lived in what he thought was self-salvation. He lived in his own world, enduring his own loneliness, and his heart always stayed at the most painful moment.

What accompanied him throughout his life was not status, honor and praise, nor even the fair evaluation that ordinary people should enjoy. He wrapped himself tightly in a black robe, but also gave away those things that should have belonged to him. His aura sucked into the darkness. However, only he could understand Dumbledore's decision, and only he had the courage to push himself into the abyss. He detested that method, yes, detested it. Dumbledore was unwilling to let the children's souls corrupt, but what about his soul?

When his magic wand was pointed at the old man, did he know that he had chosen a path of death for himself? Does he know that he has no choice? Did he know that he had pushed himself into a corner from which he could not turn?

He once begged with hope and in a hoarse voice. He gave up his dignity and life just to exchange for the life of the person he loved. But he hesitated in his heart, and he finally put the person who took away his lover into this bargaining chip. In return, he gave up everything, just so that the people he loved could survive and be happy, even if what he wanted to save was his mortal enemy, he was eager to exchange his freedom and life for the survival of Lily and James. I believe that when he begged, his heart was trembling. However, he was too simple and naive. How can life be exchanged? So simple, he lost everything. The person he loved disappeared in the green light, and he lived in a cold haze from then on.

It is undeniable that this kind of deception has brought Severus Snape a lifetime of sorrow, but he still fulfills his promise, which is a kind of responsibility and commitment, and a promise is worth a thousand dollars. It is also a continuation of love, a feeling that the world cannot understand.

When the person you love most dies, everything becomes less important. But what was deep in Snape's heart was still those eyes, eyes as green as lake water. Perhaps it was these eyes that gave him a reason to live.

"I'm not a coward, don't call me a coward!" Yes, in the eyes of many people, he is a coward.

The members of the Order of the Phoenix were suspicious of him. He was nothing but a traitor, a traitor who could tell information, and a lackey of Voldemort who killed their most beloved principal. In the eyes of the Death Eaters, he had done nothing during the more than ten years since Voldemort was out of power. He was just a servile clown. In the eyes of everyone, he is a person who betrayed the entire magical world. As a result, he was excluded from all groups. However, he is the most respectable person. He gave up care, honor, happiness, and trust. He carried all the sins and the pain of injury alone, just to let the love in his heart continue.

He was fair. Even though he made things difficult for Harry, he still gave him the results he deserved in the Wizarding Professional Level Examination. He didn't care if he was praised, Seven Potters, Polyjuice Potion? Do you think this is something that idiot Mundungus can come up with? He is wise, and it was he who guided Potter to get Gryffindor's sword from the lake. However, he is also fragile, and Lily's familiar handwriting finally allows us to peek into his weak heart. The tears just flowed down and flowed into Snape's heart. He folded the page with Lily's signature and put it into his robe, hiding it in the safest place he thought. He tore the photo in half, leaving the part of the photo with Lily's smile on it. That's all Snape had.

He paid too much and it was too heavy, but what he got was pitifully little, but he cherished it all.

The world is cold to him. In silence, he kept his promise.

His death seemed to be a humble and less than honorable death. However, we can't forget those black eyes, obsidian-like eyes. We cannot bear to see him go. Black, covering him.

Remember that silver doe? As silvery as moonlight, it is dazzling. He holds his head gracefully, with big eyes and long eyelashes. How could he, with such a gentle and beautiful patron saint, be an evil and dark person?

Severus Snape is moving, just like those impenetrable black eyes that embrace everything and are more beautiful than any light. The viciousness he thinks he is actually not at all Every trace is gentle.

He ended his promise with blood, and the price was too heavy.

He is not a brave person. He has been hiding in his shell for too long.

He is not a generous person, and he has never forgiven himself for the mistakes he made throughout his life.

He is cold, even if he is giving, he does not allow others to feel the slightest bit of his warmth.

He is selfish, and he will not take out that memory until he dies.

He is stingy. He refuses to share his sorrow with others and refuses to let people see his tears. He is even stingy with his words, even the last ones left behind. Talk more and don’t even leave us a space to breathe.

"LOOK...AT...ME".

Three words that make one’s heart palpitate.

What did he see?

This was the only time he really got what he wanted, but for just a moment, something deep in those dim eyes disappeared. He drifted away and never came back.

The eyes as green as the lake finally belonged to him.

I wonder what will be written on the professor’s epitaph? It's time for people to give back what is his.

This beautiful soul finally no longer has to carry a heavy burden, but is it too late for people to think about this shining life?

Perhaps only at this time, people will feel that bat is not actually suitable to describe him. Silver, yes, silver, the color of his patron saint, a holy and beautiful color, this is the color Severus Snape should have.

Please allow me to call him Professor, that tough, strong Professor Severus Snape whose true face is invisible to anyone. May you feel the eternity in the green of the lake. Your love.