Having no children for three years after marriage has been tormenting the young couple Kang and Qin Zhen. To be exact, Kangkang was tortured because of Qin Gui's infertility, or Qin Gui felt inferior to his "defects" and vented his emotions on Kangkang. If it was another woman, she would have drawn up a divorce agreement and made a clean break with Qin Gui. But Kangkang can't do it. The reason why she can't do it is because there is still true love between two people.
After experiencing suspicion, struggle and mutual harm, the troubled couple finally got out of the shadow of childlessness after marriage.
talk to oneself
There is always such a scene on TV-as long as a pregnant woman has a difficult birth, the doctor will ask her family with a dignified face: "Protect adults or protect children?" The people who are asked are always men, and their facial expressions are mostly the same, that is, they are entangled in pain and frown.
Every time I see such a bridge, I feel distressed. Although I am a woman, I can especially understand the kind of entanglement and sadness that men don't know how to choose. I feel the same way, thanks to Qin Gui. Because of his physical problems, we have been married for three years without having children, which makes us both very miserable. But I love him so much that it is more painful for me to abandon him than to kill me. Paradoxically, I also love children. Once I have to face the reality of infertility, I will feel that thousands of arrows go through my heart, so I often fall into the tangle of difficult choices. Protecting children or protecting true love? I can't answer at the moment.
Qin Gui, a simple and honest person, can save money on an empty stomach for a month in order to let me use the best mobile phone. In order to say a few sweet words to me, he will stay in front of the computer all night, waiting for me to finish those boring scientific research reports for him. In my life, no one has ever been so warm as Qin Gui. He is like another me, understanding my frustration and embracing everything.
After three failed pregnancies, we finally found the problem of infertility. At first, Qin Zhen, like other men, always thought that the problem was me, and even I agreed with his judgment. However, after my repeated examinations, a medical certificate embarrassed Qin Zhen and me-my ovulation was normal and did not affect my pregnancy.
Qin Gui passively accepted the inspection. I understand very well that Shao Jing's diagnosis made his heart collapse first. Faced with a depressed face, I can only put away my sadness and go all out to "save" Qin Gui. In addition to seeking medical advice, I kept comforting him: "There are diseases and children." Yes, there will be. I also cheer myself up.
Although Qin Zhen and I are struggling, what I can't accept has happened. After several hospitals, Qin Zhen's diagnosis results are similar. The conclusion given by the last hospital undoubtedly pushed Qin Zhen and me to a dead end-the probability of natural fertilization is zero.
This blow suddenly changed Qin Gui. Every day after work, he always stays up late at night before entering the door. For a long time, he deliberately avoided the life of husband and wife in this way; Every little thing in life may be the fuse of his rage, ranging from bad food to scraping someone while driving. He always uses this to satirize me, or accuses me of all kinds of "no" one after another. Visible Qin Gui because of infertility, very low self-esteem. It is because I know him that I can't bear to argue with him every time I am wronged by him. I think my silence may find an outlet for him who is sensitive and gloomy. However, I really overestimated my tolerance. Qin Gui gradually escalated from finding fault at the beginning to finding trouble. Not long ago, our unit changed its salary card because it changed its cooperative bank. This incident immediately attracted Qin's real suspicion: "Changed the card?" You have other plans, right? There's no need to rush into divorce! If you want to transfer money, do it in secret and don't let me know! "I couldn't stand his vitriol and couldn't help crying, but he didn't sympathize with me at all:" Stop crying! I hate it when you cry! " Say and run out the door.
That night, I had a high fever. I called Qin Zhen, but he said casually, "buy some medicine yourself!" " My colleagues and I are going to a party in Qinhuangdao and won't come back tonight! "My nose hurts, and I lay in bed sobbing. Maybe I should help Qin Gui. If I really make a clean break with him, maybe he will feel better ... at dawn, I will get up and pack up and go back to my parents' house. The cold wind in the morning stung my cheeks, but my heart was numb.
My parents knew about infertility for a long time, but Qin Gui's torture to me was unexpected. After all, it's not me who has the problem! However, the old man who learned the truth did not advise me to divorce, but asked me to weigh the pros and cons. Three days later, Qin Zhen called my parents. When my father answered the phone, he just nodded and smiled from time to time. Visible Qin Gui still respect him. Hang up the phone, dad almost pushed me out of the house. "Hurry home with Qin Zhen, he is waiting for you downstairs!"
I hate it, but I want to know what Qin really thinks. After meeting, we exchanged a few pleasantries like strangers. Along the way, I was silent for a long time before he asked stiffly, "Kangkang, do you want to divorce me?" I nodded and continued to be silent. Qin Zhen paused, then stopped and squatted down. The 28-year-old man actually held his shoulder and cried like a child. "Kangkang, I can't live alone!" At that moment, I felt that Qin Gui had shed his despicable disguise, and the man who once loved me was back. "Kangkang, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hurt you. I'm making trouble for you and making you uncomfortable because I'm incompetent. I ran away that night because I wanted to die, but I couldn't! I'm useless! I feel inferior, I'm afraid I'll never have children ... "Qin Gui hasn't finished yet, and I have hugged him tightly.
"You still have me. Qin Gui, I won't leave you! "
Things to be dealt with later (when telling a story)
Kangkang and Qin's true feelings seem to have touched the sky. When they went to see the doctor again, they learned that Qin's situation was not the worst. If Kangkang wants, they can consider giving birth to children in the form of test-tube babies.
Today, Kangkang is actively cooperating with the hospital to prepare for pregnancy, and Qin Zhen has gradually stepped out of the shadow of inferiority. The longing for the future, like the glow through the clouds, illuminates the hearts of two people.